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I'm emotionless... why?
I'm a 15 year old male living in Australia and attending junior high school.
I've noticed that I don't feel emotions properly. Sure, stuff happens to me that should provoke things like sadness or hysteria, but it doesn't. I don't feel anything. The strange thing is, I can feel anger to its fullest. I can be furious at whomever I want at any given time, whatever the situation, and when I get too angry, I use violence to get things the way I want them to be.
But other things, like happiness, I can't feel - and if I'd felt it before, I don't remember. All I ever feel is anger, even when it's about small things.
I have no idea when this came about, but I first realised when my grandmother died around six years ago. She was real important to me once, but when I heard she'd passed on, I didn't feel anything.
Day after day I find myself lying and acting to feign emotions when they aren't there. I learn to fake them by watching people in everyday life and their reactions. This bores me from time to time but I know I need to do it since it's the only way for me to appear normal and fit in with society.
I just want to know if there's any way I could actually feel something real for once, rather than baseless anger. I feel awfully uncomfortable talking to psychologists face to face, so I'm not sure counseling would be a good idea. Will I be empty of anything but anger forever?
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Hey I'm 15 now and welcome to my world ever since I could remember. I hate to tell you this, but you might not be able to. I myself have tried everything possible within my power to feel again and there is no solution that I have found or heard of. I simply turned this into a gift.
Think about it: you don't have the emotional stress others have, your emotional influence cannot cloud your judgement (simply because the emotion part doesn't exist), just things like that.
As for the anger thing...I don't know. That part makes this unique. You feel nothing EXCEPT for anger if I understand correctly. That actually puzzles me
hope I helped
-Xehanort
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I understand you. I am you, just 12 years older. I just posted a question of my own that is virtually identical to yours, although much more wordy. q=
I've read the other three answers you've gotten, and I think you should be careful of that kind of advice. Most people aren't capable of seeing things the way we do. They simply cannot. The same way you and I cannot feel what they feel. The psychiatrist will tell you that you have repressed childhood memories, assign you some useless medication, and give you a new appointment for counseling that you will not keep. Been there, done that.
Your probably very intelligent, aren't you? You probably see things and make connections that normal people don't. It is a big source of anger for people like us, the intelligence and perception. We see people and things for what they really are, and it makes us angry and full of contempt.
E-Mail me if you want to talk or anything. Maybe I'm wrong about you, maybe we are nothing alike. But if we are, I know I could have used someone like myself to talk to at your age. I could have avoided a lot of crap with the right wisdom beforehand. (logain <at> inbox <dot> com)
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first off, i'. sorry about your grandmother passing on. i dont think you need counseling, but it's not a bad thing either. i've experienced the samething! but i was going through a hard time with my parents. its good that you recongize what it is that could have started making you feel like this. i truely believe in your case the best solution is to talk about it because clearly you have unresolved feelings. talking to one of your close friends about it could help or even thinking about it so much that you start crying would help. i'm sure once you start to resolve the under lying issue your emotions will come back. however if this lack of emotions lasts for a longer time i think you should consider talking to a doctor because you shouldnt feel like this and someone can help you. i wish you the best!
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iv read the other reply to this and i dont think you need to go to a phsyciatrist to make this go away..and its not a good idea for a phsyciatrist to give you medications for anything because once you stop taking those medications youll be worse off than before and youll be addicted to those medications and scuicidal etc etc.right now im going through the samething. i had a boyfriend that would beat me and i couldnt get away from him when i did manage to get away from him i started to see the world differently i became sour and stopped feeling any sympathy or happyness or anything id br angry and never feel the pain or sadness i was just this tough solid rock from inside. usually this happens when something really bad happens to you and youv bottled it inside you you use different way of expressing it.you oviously not over your granmother but you dont want to show it subconciously. even though you dont wanna go to a counsellor it will help you to just let out whats bottled inside or you can write it on a peice of paper,like everything you feel write about your grandmother and how you loved her and miss her and want her back how you felt when you found out she was gone let it all out on that peice of paper and then when your done rip it up, burry it or even burn it youll feel loads better after..hope this helped
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This is a mental health issue. You need to see a psychiatrist who can figure out what disorder this falls under. They'll treat you with medication most likely. I know you are reluctant to see a mental health professional or opening up to one but it's to better your life.
None of the things you mentioned are normal behavior or for that matter normal ways to think, feel and act. It's signs of a real problem brewing. You should get it checked out and learn how to control it. Therapists do not have the degree nor skills to treat this. Psychologists can't help either for a diagnosis.
Usually what happens is that the psychiatrist does an assessment and puts you on medication and makes you go to appointments at certain intervals. They only ever put you in hospital if they think you are of harm to yourself or others.
And no, you won't feel empty and only angry forever provided you see someone and get whatever this is into check. Drag it out longer and it will get worse and worse as you are currently seeing is happening.
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