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what is wrong with me...
i don't get out much, and i'm pretty anti social..
for some reason i have sexual thoughts about kids, i won't do anything about it and i hate myself 4 it...
i'm so confused cause i don't consider myself a petifile..but it can't be normal
it dosen't happen all the time, just occassionly
like i havn't thought about it 4 a while..what is wrong with me?
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I get that too!
Like when I go to sleep, I will start thinking about me having sex with this really hottt boy at my school and I get thoughts of us like really getting it on dirrrty! LOL
I don't know what it is either, but who cares.
I guess it's just how our minds work.
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The no balls answer is there is some kind of chemical imbalance in your brain.
You know, we live in a world where everyone wants to pretend that theres nothing wrong with them. We hide and repress and medicate so that we can all pretend we're the epitomy of perfect and normal.
Truth is, I've only ever met a few people who weren't fucked up in the head about something, and those people were pretty shallow and stupid, the kind who don't notice the world around them.
Theres something wrong. But instead of succumbing to it, you fight it. That makes you a decent human being. The next step is counseling. This is psychiatrist territory. You sound young, and I know this is hard to talk about. I recommend a school counselor, preferably a guy. A male counselor is going to be able to approach this from a more logical perspective.
How about a ridiculous personal story?
I have a compulsion towards fun. Video games, friends, sports, tubing, lasertag, anything that gives me a nice serotonin rush. I crave these things, pursue them, and do not get bored with them the way normal people do.
Two days ago I read a forum post on a website about Final Fantasy 12 that made me nostalgic. The game is currently paused on the TV next to me, I went and bought it last night. Randomly triggered compulsion (But GOD do I love this game...)
Conversely, anything that actually bores me, or is the dictionary opposite of fun drives me insane. I experience time dialation because I become so focused on how much I hate every aspect of what I'm doing. I've participated in psychiatric studies that have told me that if I am in a situation that I dislike, I will experience stress levels equivalent to a panic attack in those subject to them, except instead of panic it comes in the form of resentment, unhappiness, depression, and anger.
Yeah. Resentment attacks. Sounds ridiculous, right?
It kinda is. But medically speaking things that cause others mild annoyance piss me off. And it lasts, that feeling comes to the forefront of whatever activity it is. So, if my job sucks, I wake up feeling like shit because I know I have to go. I drag, I'm tired, as soon as I get off work I have enough energy to stay up till 3 am when I had to wake up at 7:30 the previous morning.
Its ridiculous, but even more its frustrating. I didn't figure this out about myself until a couple of years ago, and without knowing it was there I never fought it.
So I just constantly felt like shit while doing things that weren't fun, and never knew enough about what was going on to make it any better.
Get help. At first it seems like you're weak. Its frustrating to not be able to solve all your own problems. But you know what? No one can solve all their own problems. Its why we have parents, its why we have friends, its why we teach our children to be better people than we were (hopefully)
And you'll feel alot better if you tackle this problem, learn where it comes from and how to deal with it. Armor yourself so that you know that this isn't something that has power over you.
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first of all, how old are you? second of all, try to make friends that are around your age and then you'll start forgeting about the kids in your head.
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That's almost scary.
But i understand.
I think it's just a stage.
But if it becomes serious i would talk to a adult.
For now it's normal.
I wouldn't be around kids if your thinking these sexual thoughts.
But try to be more social.
DO soemthing each day you wouldn't do normaly.
Even if it's just wearing a piece of jewerly or clothing.
I'll pray for you.
Good luck.
Sincerely, Emma
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We all have thoughts that we feel guilty for,
or that keep coming back even though we don't
want them.
It's important that you simply don't act upon
these urges. You're endangering so much in your
life and in the life of another if you do, and
it's simply not worth it.
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