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My sister
Alright so basically i had not seen my oldest sister in like 3 or 4 years until she came and visited a while ago no when i was younger my sister was the only person that was always there i mean my parents were there but they separated alot so my sister took care of me and my other older sister (i'm the youngest) anywho my oldest sister, her name is Mandy well Amanda but i call her Mandy, came and visited she is married and has two kids my neice and nephew my sister is only 21 now and when she came to visit i was so happy cause i guess i really missed her i didnt really realize how much i needed her and how much i missed her until she visited for about 3 weeks while she was here i was noticing every little difference every little things that was the same since the last time i saw her i was noticing how much i missed it just hit me really hard because she was always there and thats pretty much all i missed her ALOT and we even had a talk cause neither of us could sleep and she came out and started talking to me about why she couldnt sleep and for some reason anytime someone starts talking about there emotions or anything like that of course i'm acting like a total idiot and all i can do is listen i can never tell people how i feel i just cant do it and i dont know why, i feel embarased stupid like no one will understand, lost, confused, i dont i guess alot of things so i cant seem to tell anyone but my sister and me had this talk and it was about a situation we had wehn we were younger my mom got beat up by her boyfriend and me and my older sister the middle sister Jessica were there in the house with my mom and her boyfriend when it happened Mandy was out with some friends so anyway she told me thats why she cant sleep is because she has nightmares about that night and she told me she should have been there with us she should have been there that night and she could have stopped it and all these things and all i could do was sit there and nod every once in a while and the things i wanted to tell here i couldnt cause i cant talk about my emotions with anyone and i dont blame her for that night i wanted to tell her that i mean she took care of us when my parents were busy or fighting or anything she was there when we were sick she missed so much school for us she cooked us dinner and lunch and breakfast she did everything she even let us hangout with her and her friends sometimes she just she did everything and that night she was out with her friends that was her time she deserved it and i wanted to tell her that and i look up to her so much and i wanted to tell her how proud i am of her i mean she may think she hasnt done much with her life but she's done alot and i wanted to tell her how happy i am for here and that she makes a great mom but again i cant i dont know how, i cant find the words, i cant find the courage i just cant do it does anyone like know someone whos like this or are you like this i just i dont know i'm confused and i just need peoples opinions and advice i guess
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I'm exactly like this....i know its hard but you have to try and force yourself to tell her...or i always find that writting helps...especially when i write a poem every emotion i'm feeling is easily npticed by my readers....so try writting it out....but definately don't give up on talking out!!!!
Hope i helped
@};-Ashley L
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Here's a suggestion:
Sit down and write her a letter telling her everything you want to say. You can think more and find the right words to use, and she can have it to read anytime she feels down.
It would make you both feel better. You would tell her everything you wanted her to hear but couldn't find the words to say, and she would know how much she means to you.
ygs-29/f
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