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strongly depressed
I need serious help
Im always sad and i havent stopped crying in like 3 weeks
i have thought of suicide alot before
and im thinking of it agian
there is so much stress in my life right now
i feel worthless
useless
unloved
lonely
and incredibly empty
im missing something in my life
and i dont know what it is
im afraid of myself because of my constant upsetting thoughts
i keep having horrible nightmares and i cant stop thinking that i have no future
i dont know what to do
my parents dont seem to care
and they made everything worse when i told them how i felt
please help me
im desperate and really afraid
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It is awful that you are thinking about suicide. I know how hard and scary that can be. Suicidal feelings in themselves can be traumatic because you are afraid of yourself, your thoughts, and your future. Adding what causes the feelings in the first place makes things worse.
I nearly attempted suicide once. It was the scariest thing I have ever done. It felt like I could not control myself and I couldn't think straight. People often think that if they ever feel that way, they will just calm themselves down. But you don't think that way when it is happening. The best thing is to not let yourself get in that position in the first place. I started using common sense when I had the blade against my skin. Others aren't so lucky.
This is why you must remember not to do anything to upset you. In my case, one small thing set me off because of all the big things that were in the back of my mind. Be as nice to yourself as possible, even if you don't feel like you deserve it. You DO deserve it! You are a very strong person, even if it doesn't feel like it now. So many others have gone through what you are going through now, and they have fallen long before you have. Take comfort in the fact that you have lasted so long.
If you haven't talked to anyone in person, I understand why you haven't. Although they may be able to get you the help you need, many suicidal people do not want to get professionals involved. Know whether you need it or not, but do not take any chances. Even if you pay for an online psychologist. These people are professionals and can help people who are going through what you are going through. There are many other places to go to for help. The following link speaks directly to the suicidal person and provides links to other help sites, including online psychologists if that is what interests you:
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Another link is also very good for advice given by elders. All people who give advice are older than 60.
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If you ever want to talk to me, send me a message in my inbox or go to my page. I have my Yahoo e-mail there. I can also give you my AIM screen name. I would be happy to talk with you.
Best wishes for a beautiful and strong person,
Hannah
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you are nott alone, trust me. everyone has felt depression before, but your symptoms are pretty strong. you have been feeling down for a long period of time, so i think what you need to do really try and go for some therapy. it does nott mean you are crazy..so many people think that. im taking psychology in college right now, and i see a lot of people are telling you it will get better, that doesnt really help sometimes. sometimes you need to talk to a professional therapist who is highly trained and can help you. so0o many people report they feel so much better after seeing a counselor. there is nothing wrong with it, and it will help you. just remember everyone goes through it and you need to seek help, it will be extremely beneficial and you can get back to living life happy again. if you are too afraid to go to your parents for help, definitely talk to a school counselor. maybe they can arrange for a meeting with your parents which would make them take this seriously. trust me, you arent alone, and going to a therapist for a couple of months does not make you weird or crazy at all, so dont think that sweetie. any more questions please inbox me. :)
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As bleak as it gets, tell yourself that you can get better, no matter how much you don't feel it right now. Trust this with all your heart. Whatever you do don't attempt suicide. This is not the answer; think of how much worse your parents would feel then. If anything, when you find yourself seriously contemplating this, call a suicide hotline (and I found one online: 1 - 800 - SUICIDE... wow, not hard to remember... or 1 - 800 - 784 - 2433).
Everyone feels out of place at times, maybe even a lot of the time. It's rare to find someone, at least at your age, who isn't searching for something and who doesn't have it altogether. Sure, it seems like there is no future now, but part of that is because you haven't fully figured out yourself yet, and that is perfectly okay.
I'm assuming you have depression. It's actually pretty common. If your parents didn't seem to care even if you rationally told them how you felt, yes, that does make things more difficult, however there are other places for you to turn. School guidance councilors may be useful, even if you have one that may seem remote and not helpful. They are trained to look out for issues like these, to some extent, and may be able to direct to to where you need to go, whether that is a therapist or a psychiatrist or whatever you need. Family doctors are also good because they also have this type of contact information, and also have enough training to treat you themselves. If anything, you can talk to a friend; they may not know exactly what to do but talking does help. The worst thing you can do is isolate yourself or give up.
As for your stress, try to get rid of the things that cause it. You shouldn't stop completely with homework and whatnot because then that becomes an issue in itself, but try to consciously tell yourself to worry less. The things that you worry about probably are important, but not as important as you are. Try to work in something you like to do every week, whatever that may be. Find something that can center you and make the sadness more bearable - loud music, punching a punching bag, writing in a journal - whatever that may be.
Also - telling yourself you are unloved and have no future: not helping. When you start to think like that, make a list instead of the people that love you, and the things you can do (or the things that you like to do when you aren't so stressed out). It sounds cheesy but it works, and will make you feel a lot better than telling yourself you won't get anywhere.
Of course it's difficult to see how you'll get somewhere right now, but it won't last forever. Always remember this: no matter how tough things get, you owe it to yourself to pull through. Get help and don't look back. In time, you'll be so much tougher for the struggle you'll have gone through.
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If your parents are not willing to help, try talking to another adult. It may be best for you to see a doctor/therapist. They have prescription medicines for depression. I am not sure if something recently happened to upset you and make you feel so sad, but I will pray for you. Please talk to someone before it gets much worse.
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i'd say you probably would need some professional help.
therapy or anti-depressants.
talk to your parents about going to a psycologist some time soon.
but it really helps to talk to somebody.
so if you ever want somebody to talk to contact me through email, IM, or myspace.
hope i helped :)
Jess
jessipaige1@gmail.com
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