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It's still not changing.... im so confused!
well this is sorta hard to write about because it hurts a lot. And I'm always worried that people will just tell me that it wil change and stuff. That's really not what I want to hear. I dont mean to sound mean but I'm VERY sensitive about this subject and will make me cry if someone says something rude about it or myself. Sorry im just really emotional about this situation. Well today in school .wow. this is really stupid. But here it goes. today in school my ex best friend who talks to me every once in a while but has switched to a new friend. Now she talks to her new friend Abby all the time and it makes me want to cry. Because I don't understand what happened between us that now she wants another friend and I'm old to her. We used to hang out as much as possible. all the time. now she's hanging out with abby. as stupid as this sounds it makes me cry every time she talks to Abby instead of me. Well anyways Abby had a party today. And of course I wasn't invited but she had a really mean way of saying I couldnt come. She was like no one at my party knows you and you'll be a really left out. and then she said we are not friends anyways. So yeah I went in the bathroom at school and cried for at least 15 mins. I was soo upset and I still dont know why. I mean ok my ex best friend doesnt want anything to do with me anymore. So ill just deal. But that's not where it ends. I just feel like everyone doesnt like me because im me. I'm stupid and ugly. Well people say im beautiful. but girls that are really pretty usually have a million friends. I went through this last year. nobody liked me anymore and they still dont want to hang. I really am lost here. I think i'll lose a lot of weight and then kill myself. I'm over thinking that guys and girls will start liking me. Never gonna happen. even when I'm in 10th grade. Everything wil be the same. guys wont like me and girls wont either.
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Awww, well no wonder you're so sensitive and depressed. You think you're stupid and ugly, you really have low self-esteem.
You have to really accept that you are a person and you deserve happiness and love, just like everyone else. And if some people don't agree with that, those are people who really value themselves too much and are selfish.
Theres definitely no such thing as being too sensitive to your ex best friend meeting a new friend who ditches you. It's wrong of her and she should be the one depressed because she's leaving you behind. And you seem like a great girl with a great personality. Honestly, I've been in this situation, so I have a pretty good idea of the way you feel right now.
The reason you feel so depressed and you're shutting out is because thats the first easy thing you can do. Is closing the doors and not letting anyone in, that way, you can't get hurt again. But, eventually you have to make new friends that are better and you will. But it takes a lot of confidence. You have to treat yourself like you deserve better friends. If you walk around saying you're not smart and unattractive, people will treat you that way and take advantage of you.
The best way of helping yourself feel better is talking to someone. Being open is a great way to make friends and relieve stress. You can start with a counselor, parent, other friends, family, therapist. It might take a ton of time, but it'll definitely be worth it.
I also want to say that, If you can't find anyone to talk to, I am here. All you have to do is drop me something in my inbox and I will talk to you about anything you're open to talking to. I hope things get better for you.
-TheTeenGirl
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thats not stupid at all, many people deal with that type of stuff, i did until i started hanging out with new people and becoming more social. you should start introducing yourself to people, and invite people to hang out...also act confident, people can sence confindence and shyness from far away and wont give you a chance if you come up and act really quiet. maybe you could throw your own party and invite people, people wont pass up an oppurtiunity for a party, and it will get your name out.
as for guys just act flirty and confindent, im not implying that you should change your personality or anything, but just make yourself more open.
and i doubt your stupid and ugly, your probly overthinking, or in the mirror seeing your inner emotions...
please dont think of suicide or anything like that, i can assure you school will get better, especailly 11th grade when your considerd an upperclassmen, and also i just thought of something: hang with the upcoming 9th graders, they wont have any grudges agaisnt you and its not wierd to hang out with grades under.
xoxoxoxoxoox
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Maybe you should talk to the school counselor or ask your parents to see a psychiatrist? That could help, and make new friends, and hang out with them a lot, but not to much to make them get sick of you. If you need help I'm here.
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