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cutting.
okay so i started cutting myself in 8th grade and now im going into 10th. half the time i dont even know why i cut. i just get the worst urges and if i dont cut the urges just keep getting worse and worse. i really want to stop but i just cant. i hate that i cut myself but it seems like theres no way i can ever stop. and no im not doing it for attention. please help.
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Here's a trick that can help: put a rubberband around your wrist. When you get the urge to cut, snap the rubberband and it will sting you.
You get some of the same painful release as you do in cutting but without causing serious damage or scars.
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I cut myself for 3 years. Stupid and immature decision. Cutting is what people who cannot deal with stress do. It's really pathetic, and I still get mad at myself even thinking about the fact that I used to do that to myself. I promise you will regret this if you don't stop. It seems impossible now, but when you really try, then a few years later you'll see how dumb this all was. There are other ways to deal with problems.
I still remember the first time I ever cut. It was in 7th grade, and it was over something so insignificant I can't even remember why I did it. I don't really remember where I got the idea from either. But I broke a bobby pin in half, and did it. It was nothing but little scratches, but from then on, I got the basic idea of why people did it. I did it for a little while, but then I just kind of stopped. I can't remember why. It wasn't like an abrupt decision or anything, I just know I stopped and that was the end of it.
About a year later my life took a rough turn for the worst. I experienced my first heartbreak, and I didn't take it well. Most girls just cry for a few weeks and then get over it and meet someone else. That wasn't the case for me though. I really felt like I lost true love, and that put me into a big depression. I don't blame him though. It's my fault I made the decision to take my depression out on my body. It was my fault, my decision, and my stupidity. And that was it. I got in with a rough crowd, and I made even stupider choices. I get mad at myself thinking about it even now that I acted so incompetent.
That guy and I did get back together (and we are still together today) but it was a rocky start. I was a completely different person when we got back together, and he didn't like it. I had changed for the worse, and it was obvious by looking at me. Luckily I did get better..but some things didn't change. My cutting was one of them. For some reason I still cannot fathom, I could not quit cutting myself. I was happy with my relationship, and I was happy with my life. But everytime I would even get a little upset I would start cutting. My boyfriend hated it, and made it quite clear he wasn't going to stay with me as long as I was doing that to myself. He did though, and it was a good thing. I don't know what I would have done without him.
It was hard. My friends new what was going on with my life, as did most people at school I am sure. It was embarrassing to know people thought I was crazy. After a long and painful road of hurting myself, my family, and my boyfriend, I eventually stopped. It wasn't a hasty decision, I just got sick of being embarrassed and always having to hide my body. I was sick of fighting with my boyfriend, and I was sick of hurting my mother like I was.
The best advice I can give you would be to want to stop, and then just do it. Throw away all your razors, or glass, or whatever you use and never put yourself in a position to cut again. It's hard, truusst me. It took me over a year to quit. I have no intentions on risking any more of my relationships with anyone. I have faith in you and hopefully my story will inspire you to get better. Good Luck and inbox me if you ever want to talk. <3
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Take this from someone who's been cutting for about 3-4 years now. It is VERY hard to stop, and you can only stop if you want it bad enough. If you say "I wanna stop" but do nothing to stop cutting yourself, then you don't really want to. It's enough to say it, but it's so much more to actually do it. It takes effort.
I'm in 11th grade, and I started in 7th grade. I was cutting because of something my mother said, and ever since I've found reasons to destroy myself & give people reasons to make me miserable. I didn't do it for attention either. I did it because there was something desperately wrong with me, and it took a lot for me to get help. In fact, I didn't even get help for myself. My friend got it for me because she knew I wouldn't.
Since then, I've been doing pretty well to stop cutting myself, and I've actually gone solid without it for almost a year. In November, it'll be a year since I've hurt myself on purpose, and it feels good to not have to pick up a razor, or a pair of scissors & put it to myself.
If you really want to stop, you need to make an effort. There are lots of ways to stop cutting, but you need to open to them & actually try them out. I can make suggestions to last you a lifetime, but it's all up to you to put them to the test & see what works for you. Honestly, what worked best for me was music. Whenever I felt like cutting, or dying for that matter, I listened to music. I listened to anything from The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, to Cute Is What We Aim For to Escape The Fate, to Paramore. I listened to anything, and it helped me a lot.
Music was my release, and it could be yours. When you feel like you need to hurt yourself, turn on music. If you feel like music isn't going to help you in the least bit, try writing. Get a livejournal or a xanga & vent like there's no tomorrow. If you're not a good writer, that doesn't matter. Not only will you get your feelings out in a healthy way, but you'll become a better writer & improve the skills you've got. If you don't want to write, is there someone at home or school that you can talk to? A sibling? A close family member? A good friend? If so, talk to them! I listened to music before I could trust anyone with what I was dealing with, and when I finally did trust someone enough, it was my best friend. She understood me, and she wanted to help. She knows what I went through, and she did anything she could to get me happy again & back to normal. Your friends & family want to help you WAY MORE than you think they do, sweetheart. You need to give them that chance & let them in.
If you don't see family/friends as a good outlet, try a rubberband. Wear a rubberband around your wrist, and when you feel like cutting yourself, snap it against your skin. If the ruhberband doesn't work, don't get discouraged. It doesn't work for some people. It didn't work for me, so I kept trying new options. If you don't think the rubberband sounds effective enough for you, try talking to a therapist or a counselor. They are trained professionals that can help you specifically for this area & what you're doing for yourself. They can give you the help that you need to get your life back on track. Trust me, cutting doesn't have to exist to you anymore.
If you feel weird about getting help from a psychatrist, or you're worried about the expenses, [although your counselors at school are free], you can always talk to me. I'm almost always online, and all of my information is on my column. I would be glad to help you since I know how you feel & I've been through this whole cutting thing. If you do decide to come to me for more help, and my away message is up, please IM me anyways because chances are, I'm sitting right there & will reply when I see a message.
Until then, please stop cutting yourself. Life is a very good thing, and it's what you make it. By cutting yourself, you're making your life continue to be miserable & it'll only get worse for you if you don't shape up your ways. I do indeed hope you decide to come to me for help. Good luck with everything. =)
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Okay, when you cut yourself, is it somehow pleasurable when blood oozes out? Kind of morbid, but that's how it is.
I used to do that in sixth, but now I'm in eighth, and I think about it sometimes, and I think about how horrible it was. I mean, it wasn't for attention, but think about it.
Do you think it's really good? What if you get scars? Any time you feel the urge to cut, just out of nowhere, just stop yourself from getting whatever you use to cut (and if it's your nails, clip them.)
There are a lot of bad consequences when you do this and don't stop. It might seem hard, but you really have to think before you do so, and if you don't, realize that you're putting a sharp object to your wrist or arm or whatever, and think about how you're torturing yourself, physically and mentally.
I hope I helped, somewhat. =P
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