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Lonliness and depression
I'm a teenage girl and I'm always alone- i'm not kidding. I'm homeschooled so that's why.(and i'm the only dependent minor in my family) I used to go to a prep school where I was around annoying people 24/7, and i hated that. But this makes me depressed too. Never being around anyone. my problem is this:
Whenever I get tired of being completely alone and I go out in public for a rehearsal or something (i do theater), I can't stand being around unintelligent sluts who don't understand me and just ask me why i look so sad and things like that. I get panic attacks whenever I try to talk to someone (unless it's one of my 2 best friends in the whole world) and i start sweating and I turn red and my heart starts pounding. and it gets too awkward and i have to make an escape.
I'm very well-spoken and i couldn't call myself "shy" but i still feel reclusive because i just don't really get along with other people. I've thought it was because of my intelligence being significantly above average. (been professionally tested) So I "notice things that no one notices" which makes me "unusual". (that was something stated word for word in my testing document thing)
It's like everyone else is a bunch of cows in a heard that looks exactly the same and does the same thing, and I'm a completely different species, who doesn't see the need to be in that heard. (if that makes sense)
I also battle depression- and I always have. It's not from any particular event- it's just always sort of been there. and i can't change it.
What is wrong with me?
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This is becoming an anti-social behavior learned from being separated from other people.
The longer unsocialized, the worse it becomes.
You actually loose your ability to interact with people and feel estranged. Do you feel like the only real person in a world of cartoon people, or a cartoon in a world of real people?
You're developing the fear to leave the comfort and safety of your own home and interact with others due to home schooling and prior to that private school that you hated.
Why aren't you in public school with others, making friends, and socializing?
You are obviously intelligent and have a brain in a brainless world, but there are others like you. You have to seek them out.
Go for short walks. Hangout at the mall for short periods. Time yourself. Go to the library where intelligent people your age are. Go to high school games even if alone, and make a friend or two.
Join teen organizations and give it a try. Nothing is permanent and not in stone, so you have a way out.
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Is there anyway, you can like, go to a public school? I know prep schools suck, I went to one, I hated ittt. I switched to a public school, and I love ittt. like, seriously. i love itt. When your feeling lonely, what about family? Bond with someone in your family..
Don't be so harsh, just because someone isn't intelligent, doesn't mean you gotta get all defensive. thats a negative attitude, ya don't want that. there probably asking you why your sad, because their concerned. there not trying to be mean or anything. they most likely just dont know you very well, and are trying to help you out.
You've got to conquer your fears about being shy and everything. I know thats really hard, because I used to be like that, I'd freak out talking to people, I could hardly speak, I'd turn red, and I'd sound shaky when I talked. But, the only reason I was like that, is because I had such low confidence in myself. Maybe thats your case too. Try building up some confidence. Stand infront of a mirror, point out all of your good qualties, your strengths, good parts of your personality.
Thats good, that your unique. Which embarresses me, because I've probably made a million spelling and puncuation mistakes and such. Its good to be different. I think you should go to a school. Where theres lots and lots of people. So you can find more people who have similar interests. Where do your two best friends go to school? Can you go there?
Believe it or not, most people feel the same way, about what you said about the heard and you being in a tottaly different species. Honestly, thats how I feel right now, I'm not sure how I want to be. But, I've learned, I can't limit myself to just one type of clothing, or one type of music, or anything like that. That I should like whatever I want, and no one should tell me other wise.
You can change depression, you can make it better.. go to a therapist.
Nothing is wrong with you. You've just gotta get some confidence and let yourself relax a little more. I'm sure one day, you'll make a dramatic difference in peoples lives in the future, because of your knowledge and unsualness that you have.
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hey girl i know how you r feeling . i feel the same ways . i'm not part of that how you delicately put it "everyone else is a bunch of cows in a heard that looks exactly the same and does the same thing" well lets just say i'm not part of that heard.how i deal with that is i do the things that interest me and do activities that represent me and just be myself. well when i try to talk to people i start coughing and my eyes start to water. what i do is when i'm doing those activities like drama (i'm interested in theater as well)the conversation just finds me . i like to talk to the people that like what i like and its more interesting and easty to speak when your talking your talking to the same species there is nothing wrong with you just be who you r . and get out to the world and show yourself off. buy things for yourself. eat what u like to eat. keep up with the theater. and don't think so much on the bad things and what is depressing or the *wrong* things about you. thin \k about the things that represent you
well i think that i should eat my lunch
so if you have ne more questions please send me one i'll do my best to answer them
well i hope i helped.
love your drama ^buddy
respectfully,
ask_beth
p.s i like to read or watch movies to and eat lol to get my mind off depression
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nothing's wrong with you hun you're just not another one of the sheep, congrats actually. I know where you're coming from, i was the same kid. This is gonna sound really lame but the internet helps a lot. Even myspace, just talking to people in your area into the things you're into. But as for what you're gonna do when you get around those people is different. I think you'll be more at ease if you feel more understood. As for the depression, maybe it's just clinical, there's always depression/anxiety medication for all that but that'll probably make you more lost than you started out with. I'd suggest getting checked out for that.
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Hey, I was one extremely depressed and I started cutting my wrists and I had to see a councelor. You may just be going through a phase. Right now I also go to a prep school and its all girls. I hate it there, but I am smart enough to have no friends. I am alone a lot as well [hense the reasons why i answer peoples questions all day] I do not like my life a lot of the time but what you need to do is look beyond the negatives. If you can't stand certain people just smile and say i'd prefer if you didn't talk to me. or answer there annoying "are you alright" with "does it matter to you?" or "its none of your buisness, you shouldn't care because it doesn't involve you"
There is nothing wrong with you, everyone is depressed at some point and sometimes it lasts for years. The only way you can get through it is by working through it. No one can really help you other then yourself... but I hope I changed that and I hope I helpped you!
Don't worry, you'll be fine.
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