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i hate my family!!!
I hate my family. There all a bunch of #$@%&*$#(@%^(#&^…everytime I get on the computer..they always suspect I’m doing something wrong like..i’m on myspace or aim or e-mail….my dad always think that…everytime I’m on the computer he’s always saying “ o are you on myspace or aim or e-mail…and I get angry b/c I’m not and he always suspects that and it gets on my nerves and when I say “NOOOO!!!” he says “ yea rite your lying to me” then I get mad and say “WHAT THE HECK!!”…Why’d you ask if you don’t believe me!!”…. Then my mom is just a bigger annoying one!! she’s always nagging to me about my grades…. I try my hardest but she never accepts it!!…. She’s always saying “if your trying your hardest…your grades would be higher”…I hate talking about my grades b/c my mom is always like look at everyone else…their grades are high, why can’t you be like them…everytime she says this I feel stupid, and I wanna just ignore her…then she says you never want to talk about this but look at your grades!!!…. Then I’m on aim sometimes and then she comes and beats me because she thinks I’m talking and not doing my hmrk…. When really I’m talking to a friend or my cousin to get help…but she never believes me…then I get beat for noo reason…and everytime she gets mad she always talks about my grades..And says print your grades out and let me see them…then there bad grades then she gets mad at me more…sometimes I wish I can just kill myself (no joke)…but then I say no bc don’t want to die in pain(if there was a easier/ painless way of dieing I would do it)…it’s really getting close to me doing that…I know I won’t ever do it but I really wish I can …sometimes I just tell my mom that maybe I’m stupid and this is the best of my ability but she never believes me….sometimes I wish I can hurt her really badly emotionally w/o hurting myself physically…I just can’t stand her…sometime I wish I can just run away….and we also have this neighbor who is he biggest momma’s boy ever…he listens to his mom and everything he’s like the “perfect son”…he makes my life even worse…b/c my mom will be like “look at his grades and look at yours he has better grades than you…he’s in all honors classes and your not!!…you just in 2 classes”…and this makes me feel even more stupid…and I’m really bad in math and my mom makes me go to this tutoring class for math every Saturday morning…and he’s there…b/c everything I do he has to do!!…and he does his hmrk every single day and asks questions and be a good student… then he makes me look bad….then I don’t get anything we learn in that class so I asks questions and sometimes she’ll get aggravated b/c I’m not getting it..and then we’ll take a test and I’ll maybe miss a lot and she’ll call my mom and be like she doesn’t do my hmrk(maybe b/c I don’t get it!!) and she missed a lot and she never does anything in class(she lies!!)…I try my hardest to pay attetion..It’s not my fault I’m stupid and don’t get it!!…sometimes I hate going home from something just cause it’s soo bad…I get in trouble or yelled at everyday!!…then my sister is the worst of them all!!….she’s sooooo annoying..she’ll always up in my business!!….i’ll be on the computer and she’ll always run out of no where and “check up on me”…then b/c she comes so fast then I get scared I then I think I’m doing something wrong so I have to exit out of everything then she’ll be “OOOO!!!….your on mypace/aim/e-mail!!!..i’m tellling!!.” And she’ll yell it so that my mom or dad can come can come and accuse me and be like “GET OFF THE COMPPUTERR!! YOUR NOT DOJNG YOIUR HMRK!!” Then I can never finish my hrmk…so then I have it sneak on at night just to finish it then my dad’s like…I know you were on the computer on myspace/aim/e-mail last night so you can’t get on today!!…then I can never do my hmrk…then that’s probably another reason that I’m not passing all my classes!!….then sometimes I’ll be on and my sis will come and then be like I no you were on something you were’nt supposed to be on..click on the history!!…then I’m like no I’m tired of you accusing me …then she accuses me for no reason with no proof and yells “OOO!!…mommy/daddy she’s on myspace/aim/e-mail..then my mom/dad comes and says CHECK ON HISTORY!!….then I do and there’s nothing wrong there!!…and my sis walks away saying I no you deleted it…I get sooo mad when they accuse me for no reason!!…I hate it!!….and everytime my sis and me argue my mom comes and break it up and she listens to my sis’s part of the story and not mine…so it’s like I’m the bad guy!!….it’s sooo annoying!!….then of course I get yelled at…..my sis has an attitude and she never gets in trouble she treats our parents with no respect…and she never gets in trouble!!…she scratches me and it leaves marks on my hand and my parents don’t says anything…but if I do something like call her stupid or push her down I get in trouble they always say you should know better she’s younger….I’m like what the heck!!….she’s 11 she’s not little!!!!…. And I’m not “allowed” in her room…if I stand by the doorway she gets mad and says “get out!!” then slams the door in my face….I don’t know what to do with my family..sometimes I wish I can just run away…and everyday when I go to sleep I wonder how it would be like if I was never born…..it would be the “perfect family”…I try to make everyday a good day but it always comes out bad..b/c of something I do…so I just gave up…I know it’s gonna be a bad day so I just go along with it…there’s no point of trying to make it a good day…..also I’m doing really bad in Spanish…and I pay attention in class and do my hmrk and go to tutorials…and I can’t tell anybody b/c if I tell my dad then he’ll tell my mom…and if I tell my mom then she’ll yell at me and I don’t want that anymore….so I have to keep it a secret and pray that I pass at the end…..
14/f
sorry it's so long but i did'nt want to leave anything out...
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Give up go goth and start cutting urself and then they will find out and say why and youcan just say its all ur fault becze (the resons listed above) and they will fell so bad they will be like omg ya...it worked 4 me
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ok sorry it took me so long to answer.
to gain your parents trust on the computer, make sure that you do your homework first, then announce to your parents that you have finished it. (casually, like "that was a lot of homework, but i'm glad i'm done", or "i barely had homework today, it only took me twenty minutes to do"... you get the picture). pretty soon your parents will trust you that you have finished all your homework. it shows them that you are responsible when it comes to computer and homework.
since your parents dont like you being on myspace and aim, show them how safe it is. Tell them that the people you talk to on aim are all people you know personally. On myspace, show them that your profile can be set to private, and again tell them that all your friends are people that you know personally.
If that doesnt work, limit yourself to one hour per day on the computer, or something like that. Instead, you can talk on the phone or just hang out with your friends.
ok now your grades. having your homework finished before you go onto the computer will reealy help your parents reealize that you take school seriously. maybe ask them for help on your homework (annoying as they may be)or discuss hiring a tutor. you are not stupid. if you keep on telling yourself that you are, you will start acting on it. talk to your parents: tell them you do all the tutorials in spanish, that you try hard. if you are sincere, they should believe you and help you out.
Your sister: be reeaaaalllly nice to her. do sweet things for her: get her candy from time to time, share things with her. be a cool older sister. give each other makeovers, make her laugh. just make sure you dont pry into her life, and also NEVER clean up after her.
I feel for you though. i have an 11 year old brother. i, too, dread telling my parents my grades. and my parents cant stand me being on myspace, aim, this website... the computer in general. just try to earn their trust and respect. do nice things for them, clean up after yourself. never ever give them an attitude. ever. unless you are 100% sure on something.
anyways, good luck. hope i helped in any way. let me know how it works out, k?
ps. give this some time. they wont immediatley begin to trust you, but it will take some time establish a certain level of understanding between you guys.
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thats like my life~thats why i like school sad i no but im not at home~i just got in a group of really close friends were all deppressed and hate life and were very rough with eachother~no body understands my life but them~get a friend thats goin through the same or similar things it helped me soo much~i was gona kill myself befor but my bff knew and saved my life~we were gona run away together but it never worked out~i also wondered what it would be like if i was never born~i just wanted to say about me first becaus your not alone~do they seriosly beat you?
~if yor life is seriosly like that there may be mor pain in doing this but it is so worth it
~one of my friends in my group was like that~
AAA. you could piss them off so bad(yor parents)by goin gothic i no it did for her she got to go to a therapist~ bc her parents didnt like her going emo but its perfecty fine to be emo and im gothic but were still great friends~but anyways at the therapist he asked about her brusis she said it was her parents and she can always come back to the therapist and if they ever beat her she should come back and theyd do something~you can decide if you want to stay with ur parents or not and theyd call every month to make sure everything was fine if she wanted~her parents are bette now and she has a sister thats 9 i even hate her soo much she nos it to~for you id say emo go emo~emo is EMOtional~the sign for it it blood and gore and cutting do not cut do not ever cut and me not sayin to do something that has to do with issues and life dont do it~she cut i never let her regret and it also hurt her SO bad and never went away~cry it works but i cant cry to save my life ive been through to much i cant even cry if you can cry yor life will turn out great~act deppressed if you arent already i am for real it totally changed my life in many ways~a group of gothic or emo kids are the closest kind of friends closer then anyone nos even thouh we try and kill each other not literally but its the closest kind of friends because they truely need eachother
BBB. tell them you are doing homework on the computer~getting help from somebody~your sister should go fuck herself haha im so nice~
CCC. for your grades study i sound corny i no but study infront of them study when you see them(your family)study in their face so thed kno and they have no idea what your going through so friends will mean the world i no alot of spanish i learned nothing from spanish at school just by a book and we went to mexico~i could help you
DDD. ~know what your going through i will always help especially you with anything ask me anything on your mind it would help you soo much trust me ~hope i helped~
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okay.. i can see the problem right away. you just need to be more positive! life is so much more than school and getting yelled at.. yeah i mean i'm not saying school isn't important, hell yeah it is.. but you don't need to get so upset and not do your homework 'becasue you don't get it' make yourself get it. ask questions, try harder, study more.. if something's not going how you want it to go, then change it. ask your teachers for help or just focus more. everyone has the potential to be amazing, but only people with the proper mindset are amazing. it's not that you're 'stupid' you just don't realize your potential. you have to realize that you can do anything you set your mind to. like me for instance, i am a flaming idiot when it comes to chemistry.. so everyday, walking into class, i was ready to fail and i became satisfied with D's because that's what i always got. so i was always just like, ok no biggie.. another F.. it's ok, cause it's chemistry.. right? WRONG-O!!!. not right. just because you're not good at math, doesn't mean that you can't be. just because you're having trouble in spanish, doesn't mean you can't pass.. there's no curse put on you saying that you'll fail in school forever. you have the power to change that, and no one else. i'm going to quote something that the anarchist kids grafittied on the side of my middle school.. "your life is in your hands" now even though the little anarchists are kinda weird, that is very true. it's not your teachers job to make you learn.. it's yours. if you want to succeed, that's your job. now i'm going to quote my softball coach, "you're the one who has to go to sleep every night and look yourself in the mirror knowing what you did or didn't do today. i sleep like a baby knowing your accomplishments, it's not my responsibility it's yours." what he was saying was, that if we completely sucked at practice that day, he doesn't care cause it doesn't bother him.. he doesn't have to live with that, we do. just like you and your teachers.. it's not their fault you're not learning, i know that some teachers don't teach well, but you can always get help if you really care that much. and about your parents, just tune them out when they call you names or whatever they do.. you're a kid like me.. and unfortunately, we have to kiss ass until we're 18. so only a few more years, and we don't have to take their yelling and compliaining anymore. sisters will be sisters, and do anything to bother you.. so ignore her too. just be really quiet in your house, and never forget your friends.. cause they'll always be there. just ask the teacher for more help and get a different tutor if this one isn't working.. you need to study and do practice problems too.. it helps. so good luck with everything =) and pleeeeeeeasee shut uppp about the suicide stuff.. it could be so much worse. you said it your self.. 'your neighbor' which means you have a house. which probably means you have food. and you typed this, right? so you have fingers. some people don't have the ability to do any of that. so stop saying you hate your life, you're alive.
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i'm gonna be honest with you. And it may not be the easiest thing to hear but it is the truth. I used to be suicidal. I even started cutting my wrists, it was because all that negative shit my family and people around me used to say used to get me so like why am I here dude and why did you fucking have me if i was an accident and all this other blah blah so on and so on. The fact is that anything in this world could happen to you. There are people who are in some real shit just like you. But they choose to view it differently. They take it as a challenge. You don't have to prove crap to your family. If you know you are doing the work and doing your best don't try to convience them cause what they wanna beleive they are gonna believe and that is the end of it. You should get this book called "The Secret" It will help you handle things with them better. And you know what sometimes take some time and tell yourself in the mirror like away from people or when no one is around or something and just like cry dude! CRY CRY CRY and get all that bad feeling out of your system. Then tell your self all the good things that you are good at and things that you like and know that when you are meant to understand stuff you will. My mom sucked at school you know. I had better grades than her so she didn't hassel me too much about that but she hasseled me about other stuff. You are not stupid, you are smart and only you can make yourself believe that. Do some emotional release exercises, read some books on thinking positive and It will be better before you know it. Peace kid. If you ever want to ask me more questions or just talk about that family stuff or whatever feel free.
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Wow. I`m sorry =[ But hurting yourself or others really isn`t the solution at all. You need to tell someone you really trust about all of this, like a counselor. If you don`t want to tell your parents this, have the counselor talk to them, & see what happens from there. Or you can always talk to them yourself. But if you`re too scared to, I deff. suggest a counselor. If that doesn`t work out, try being at a friends house for a couple of days. Maybe it`ll make you happier for a while. Also, running alway is that a good thing to do either. If you need more help, just leave me one in my inbox.
Hope I helped.
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