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i have no control of my emotions.
Im a 14 year old girl. i just recently [about a month ago] tried to commit suicide. but before i could my friend steped in a took my to my school counciler. from there my mom was called in and she was crying.. blah blah. mk well i was fine after that. me and my sister got back on track with each other. about two weeks later i started to cut myslef. in one night i had cut all the way up to my elbow. after that night i stoped. the next day i was happy. i dont get why all of this is happening. i am happy one day then i feel like slicing someone open and i have all this anger. no one ses this side of me. only my family and i am so mean to them its un real. but i hate that after the fact. after screaming my head off and wishing they would die i feel so low; so horrible. i write my feelings down in poems and other ways. i hate when i am in this mood but i dont kno how to ask for help. i tried once and they blew it off like teenage hormons and i let them. now im afride that one night i will have no control and go that extra mile. which i dont want to kill myslef but when i get in that mood i have lost all control and another me is showing... i am never this way with my friends just with my family; when the littlest thing ticks me off. i want so badly to totaly forget my family and leave. let me put it this way; i would rather be put in a mental intitution instead of live in this house. [i dont get betten i just dont conect w/ any family member]
please someone; how can i ask for help without directly asking for it. no one sees me hurting becuase i get this way when i am alone and i feel so emberrsed when i get this way. i dont kno what to do. im so confused.
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i think you should tell one of your parents that you really do want help..and that this isn't just hormones..i know it may be hard, but talk to them and make it clear what you're going through..dont be ashamed to directly ask for help..its human nature..everyone needs help and support from others to get through things..when you get angry..try releasing your anger in lots of different ways and surround yourself in positive atmospheres as much as possible..even just alone in your room.youve got your friends and friends are pretty much a second family and i know they all care about you!! so just be brave and talk to one of your parents..and hey by the way..in 4 years you'll be able to move out! dont give up..do whatever it takes..and find strength within yourself because its definetely there!
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You have already asked for help when you confided in your friend that you were going to commit suicide. You should go back to that counselor and tell him/her exactly what you told us. If you can't say it, write it down or show him/her this site. Your life can get much better, dear, but you need help to get there. Don't put this off, please. Ask for the help you need now before you hurt yourself again.
Sabine
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ok..
well i think you should just see,
a person u can talk to and just talk out ur problems.
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okay.
i myself know what its like to be in this postion.
i have felt the same exact way.
&for me my friends thought i was PMSing every 5 seconds.
but then i found out i was bipolar.
being bipolar can make you feel like how yr feeling.
what i would do it.
go to a doctor&ask them for help.
ask them questions&question them on things they say.
you need more help.
come back to me.
&tell me what happened.
then i'll be able to help a lot more.
-Sammy
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