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My Heart Hurts....
Im really sorry if this is to long. if you dont want to read it i understand.
I used to want to kill myself. ive never tried but those thoughts came to my mind often i just never took it into action. I have/Had this one friend named katie. Honestly ive always thought she was twofaced but i always thought to give her more chances... just because i thought she could get over her ways... well i was wrong. Before i met katie i had this best friend that ive known for 8 yrs. Her name is cortnie. Recently me and her have been in this big arguments and we have said hateful things. i highly doubt me and her will ever be friends again. Well anyways.... Katie has been cortnies friend for 2 yrs now and they have been hanging out and me and cortnie have been torn apart and we hardly ever hung out during her and katies friend ship. 5 days ago katie and cortnie got in this big argument because cortnie told some one somthing that katie said that she shouldnt of. so katie got mad at her. Katie betted this girl jessica that she wouldnt be friends with cortnie again. Well yesterday katie called me and she still wasnt friends with cortnie and now she is at her house with jessica. Cortnie has one of my hoodies and she hasnt gavin it back. i just asked her where it was and she said that she let some one borrow it. i yelled at her and told her that she wont get hers back unless she gets mine and i told her not to let anyone borrow my stuff. And then jessica got on the phone and said that if i beat up cortnie then she would fight me and i told her i wasnt scared of her. or anyone that was gunna fight me over cortnie... and so on. we got in a big argument. and then in the back ground i heard katie saying stuff. She was supposed to be my friend. and not take anyones side. Sometimes my heart accually hurts. i can feel it. No one ever believes me when i say that. Jessica got on the phone and was calling me fat. and seriously im not fat. i just need some one to talk to. does anyone have any ideas on what can take my mind off all this drama/stress/ and saddness.??
Anything will help me in this situation..
LoVE =`'(
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I know what you mean. It seems like girls are more cruel than boys. I've been through some tough situations with "friends" myself. I have been in alot of fights with girls over nothing. Its jealousy. What can you do to take your mind off of the hurt? Know that you are better than both of those girls and go on to another friend with higher standards. If you want someone to talk to my email is whiteplaciddream@bellsouth.net
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I can't promise any of what I say will help, but I'll do my best.
Unfortunately, we'd all love all our friends to be loyal to only us, but it never seems to work out that way.
Maybe the best thing for you to do is sit down and ask yourself "are these people really worth keeping as true friends?" and really think about it. There's no rule that says you have to be actual friends with everyone you know, they can just be girls you hang out with sometimes. Make a list of the pros and cons about each girl involved and decide if you should keep giving them chances.
Also it might not hurt to talk to your parents about this, or another trusted adult. Just to get a perspective of someone who's older and probably went through something similar when they were in school.
To help with the sadness of feeling like you're losing friends, the best thing you can do is get involved with other stuff. If you attend church, get involved with the youth program. If not, find something that you're interested in and join a group with the same interest. Basically get out and meet new people. If your school's not super clique-y, maybe some new friends at school wouldn't hurt.
Also, the worst thing you can do is let this eat your life. I know it sounds hard, and it is. It's a big thing and you think about it a lot and it hurts. But, even so, do your best to distract yourself.
Just a side note, people who call others fat are often insecure about their own bodies, it's like a wall they can hide behind. I think my mom has some good logic: don't be offended by it, feel bad for them that they're so insecure about themselves.
I hope this helps at least a bit because you sound like you're hurting a lot about this. And know that there is at least one other girl who knows and understands what it's like to to have your heart hurt like that and have no one believe you. But, no matter the pain, you can get through it. Good luck
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i'm really really sorry to hear that, ahve you ever heard of the yellow ribbon? it is a local place that you call and each sate has onea nd they help you with all your problems, they have operators stadning by waiitng to tlak to youa nd help you 24/7 and you can always call there and explain your problems and they are a big help. just look up yellow ribbon and youll find the site. til then baths are really theraputic and can help you feel alot better through this rough patch in your life. try to think that all of this will cahnge it might tkae a while but things ARE going tog et better and you just ahve to look on the brithgt side adn thigns are going to be okay, dont worry!
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