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Okay.. so I'm not exactly sure where to start..So I'll just tell a little from the past and mostly from this year.. 7th grade I started to become moody, easily irritated, and less social. Mind you, I'm very shy, So I've never been too social my whole life. Maybe going a few places here and there, But I just didn't want to go anywhere anymore. I started cutting, I stopped eating because I became self-conscious over my weight, Then at the end of the year I started cutting even more, and I always thought about death. 8th grade I became even more less social, but I stopped cutting during the middle of the year. I lost my friends a few times because of rumors, & lies. So I became even more upset. Then I started not to care, and nothing really bothered me anymore. My grades did go up a bit, and I wasn't cutting, I had stopped taking so much pills, I even tried to become closer with my family. Now, I've become more upset than ever. I pretend I'm happy when I'm really not, and I can't even sleep anymore. I probably get about 3 hours of sleep a week. I'm still self-conscious about my weight so I haven't been eating, my hairs been falling out, and I don't even come out of my room anymore. I've tried asking my mom to take me to the doctor, or to a therapist, but she just won't do it. I sit in my room for hours at a time, Just sitting there staring at the wall and thinking about what it'd be like if I wasn't here. Because of a silly rumor, I'm farther away from the best friend I've had since 4th grade, So now I don't even talk. I constantly think somebody's mad at me even when I haven't even done anything. My dad is continuously downrating me, I've been exhausted, mentally and physically and my grades are dropping from a 3.0 to a .5. I don't know what to do, I've asked to get help but my mom just won't let me, and I have no other way of getting it. I'm suffering from withdrawal from the pills and it's driving me crazy. I'm tempted to go back to use them, and I've even considered overdosing on them. It just feels like nobody cares how I'm feeling. They always try and help everyone else but they just leave me hanging. I've always helped and been there for my friends. It just feels like I'm trapped in something that I'll never be able to get out of. I just don't know what to do.Everyday I get these panic attacks and I just break down crying and screaming, sometimes I even abuse myself. I want to stop but I can't, It just doesn't go away.
-Sorry for this being so long.
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Well i advise you to talk to your school counselor....or call one of them suicidal hotlines because tone of them will really help....just keep hangin on and dont let go..
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Ok so dont be sorry for writing and asking for advice cuz hun you really need some good advice and what i think you should do is go to you school counselor and get some professional help becuz if you dont something bad will happen and you have already said you want help so go tlak to your couselor! ~whisperdawn~
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hey you need to go get help yourself. trying talking with a school conceler. or a relative close to you. you need to get your life back on track. try making new friends or take up a new hobby liike painting. anything just to take your mind off things. cait ♥
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Get help yourself. I understand, i feel like i could of wrote that. But im not a profesional or anything. And believe me you need one (dnt take it to heart - every1 on here told me i was skitz). But yeah, get the help your self. There are voluntary organisations everywhere which are confidential and if you go to the doctors yourself he can refer you to a psychiatrist or something, then your mum will have to take you. Everythings confidential these days. Look on the internet about services that might help you. Go for it. If your mum isnt going to be there for you when you clearly need her, then be there for your self. If you get there, and actually talk to someone, dont hold back, tell them everything. It wont always be like this. best of luck xxxx
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I want to write something, but I also kind of want to wait and see what kind of crap gets posted first about how "Life's not that bad" or "Oh honey people love you!" or "Cheer up things always get better when you put on a smile!"
What a bunch of crap.
Not that I disagree really. There's just a time and a place for saying things like that- and this ain't it.
I'll be back.
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