This is going to be super long...
Me and my boyfriend of about 7 and a half months broke up at the beginning of the week because he's leaving for a 9 month missions trip to Africa in 2 months. We were taking it way too seriously emotionally, contsantly disagreeing on things and just generally not doing too well. The breakup was mutual because even though we agreed the decision sucked, it is what's best for both of us right now. We resolved to be friends until he returned from Africa and try being together again when he gets back. So I turned around my claddagh ring (an Irish promise ring that kind of shows what your status is in relationships, I got one from him for Valentine's Da), put everything he ever gave me (cards, roses and other flowers that were now dead, poems and a few other things) away where I couldn't see them and basically cried until it was time for me to get up to go to work the next day. The next day I felt just kind of numb inside. Two days later he called me and then came over for a few hours to just hang out. We were having a great time, laughing and acting like the kids that we keep forgetting we are, like we used to. But the whole time I kept getting those painful stabs of missing him and I had to keep reminding myself that we weren't together anymore and that I couldn't randomly kiss him anymore. Everytime we've said goodbye since the breakup he kisses my cheek or my forehead or my neck and it hurts even more. There will be those moments where I'll catch him staring at me or vice versa and we both know what the other one is feeling and thinking, still even then. Since we've broken up we've hung out two or three times and the whole idea of being best friends again is going really really well. I have no problem with it at all I guess I just need help with getting used to it. Anybody have any suggestions?
Well, hmm...you know who I am...or at least I hope you know who I am.
Surround yourself with friends. And tell yourself that when he comes back, you can be together again. 9 months may seem like forever, but once he is gone, it will go by pretty quickly. Even though you think its obvious that he knows how you still feel, let him know anyways.
Now if you do know who I am, you know that I suck at giving relationship advice, and now you can see that I suck even more at having to type it out. Theres a lot Im thinking about saying, but Im afraid that if I type it out, you may take it the wrong way and get mad or something.
So if you are who I think you are, talk to me on AIM, or call me if you need me.
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Of course I know who you are, silly.
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