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I'm broken
I'm at rock bottom. I have been having suicidal thoughts the last couple of days. I am experiencing a great deal of emotional pain. I am not happy with where my life is at. I am disappointed people. I want to be loved, supported, nurtured and uplifted. I want to be in a loving relationship. But the only thing the universe has given me is heartache. I want to be hopeful and have been. However, it leads to disappointments. I have to admit I want someone to save me. I'm broken and I don't know how much longer I can live like this.
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Don't give up. I too once felt like I wanted to commit suicide. I was unhappy living with my abusive mother. But right now I am living the perfect life. All I did was move in with my father and forced myself to improve my life. I was very socially awkward so I got out a lot and mate friends which helped me overcome this. I was very weak and couldn't fight so I did and still currently do strength workouts and attend martial art classes.
I was also terrible at doing simple daily tasks
such as cooking, using the washing machine etc so I asked my parents to teach me and now I can use them. You have to push yourself and train to fix whatever is making your life bad. Several months I suffered under the hands of my mother and I worked up and intern I am now free from her evil grasp.
I know it's a lot to read but please read it all. I wanted a girl to love and some one to help me but it never happened. I have a girl now though after all this hard work and you can get one too. Goodluck!
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Life is hard sometimes and is full of ups and downs. There are also cycles in our mental states where on one end you feel good and at the other you feel really crappy and things get to you more. We just tend to notice the crappy feeling more. This is especially true for women. (from "men are from mars, women are from venus")
I think a lot of people are not happy with where they are. Even though to others, they "shouldn't" be unhappy as they are since they have this or that. Happiness is a choice. And it primarily has to do with what you focus on. Do you choose to focus on what you don't have? Or focus on what you do have? 2 people with the same circumstances can have very different levels of happiness.
I think what is causing you this pain is too much wanting. You are not happy "here"(no loving relationship), you want to be "there" (in a loving relationship) and that tears you apart inside. The more you want to be "there" the more being "here" sucks. The more you want and dwell on it, the worse it gets.
You have to learn to be ok with what is. Otherwise you're just torturing yourself. The easiest way to do that is through gratitude. When you think about it, we take a lot for granted cause we are too busy thinking about how life sucks or that we don't have what we want. So, focus on things you're grateful for. You can start even with simple things: like that you have a home, that you eat every day, you have a computer, car, internet. That you're not blind, deaf, can smell, taste, can move your arms and legs, that you don't live in pain, etc. Some people have to live with terrible conditions, be thankful you're as healthy as you are. When you wake up, even before you get out of bed, think about and be grateful for what you DO have. When you are feeling good, set an intention for the day to feel good and focus on things that make you feel gratitude. Also might want to write down the things you're grateful for, that would help too.
Another reason you are not happy is unmet expectations. Expectations can be a real pain and can make our lives harder than they need to be. Especially when it comes to people. I've caught myself getting really upset at people who didn't do anything "wrong" per se, but they didn't meet my expectation. And I realized that it was my unmet expectations that were tormenting me, not so much what the other person did, or didn't do. So learn to not have expectations from people or from the universe. If you find yourself getting upset. Ask yourself if your expectations (which you created yourself and are %100 responsible for) played a part in what you are feeling now.
The biggest thing is learning to be OK with WHAT IS and your current life situation. Focus on things to feel good about or be grateful for. Instead of focusing on what you don't have.
Also, don't think that you're broken. Our brains tend to look for evidence of those things we believe. So if you hold the thought that you're broken, your brain will try to prove you right. You're fine. Everyone is broken in their own way. No need to tell yourself that.
I'll just throw out that exercise, not only releases endorphins (which make you feel good), you'll be getting healthier and more attractive. Which of course will help you attract someone.
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