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i want to die
i just hate this life i want to die i don't understand for what am i living i am a big loser i lost everything in life nothing is left i want to die i don't know what to do
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You may find it hard to believe, but someone out there needs you to stay alive for their sake. I'm suicidal, as well. The only thing keeping me here at this point is the definite possibility that someone will miss me to the point of wanting to end their life. I know life is stupid and practically pointless. It seems like sometimes the only reason we're here is to live life, attempt to be happy, get hurt, and then we die. It sucks. But you were born for a reason. Even if the reason is small or nonexistent in your head, you need to keep going because you could really help someone else. When you feel this way, I know its very difficult to give a shit about other people. So here is my advice to you: keep trying, damnit. If everyone killed themselves when they chips were down, half the world would be dead, 1/4 of the world would be in a psych-ward for attempted suicide, and the other 1/4 would be traumatized and depressed from someone they loved ending their life. Try getting a cat! Its psychologically proven that having a cat around improves your mood by 30%, plus the responsibility and feeling the need to care for something will help you feel like you can keep going. Please try. I'm a complete hypocrite and I'm sorry you feel this way, but please try. I'm sure if you think very hard, you can think of someone that will be destroyed if they hear of your suicide. Think of them.
This helps me, too. Its a little morbid and fucked up, but it actually helps me: I imagine that I actually go through with it and shoot myself. And then I imagine my soul leaving my body but not going to heaven or hell. My soul just stands there looking at my pitiful shell of a body, all mangled and bloody and torn. And I think "This shell didn't do anything wrong. The shell was just trying to live. But the soul inside the shell overtook it and now, because of the demon in my soul, this poor shell is destroyed. I did it" Does that make any sense? Its just kind of a depressing thought. But just enough to keep me from trying because I'm scared that is what'll happen.
I'm also a firm believer in modern medicine. Lithium helps me more than anything. I'm sorry this response is so long and I'm sooo sorry if it didn't help you in the least. If you still feel bad after reading this or just want to talk, message me anytime you like. Once again, please try. We can try together :) I sincerely hope I helped you!!!! Take care
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You're not the only one who feels this way. Many people have gone through what you're going through and have made it out alive.
I'm first going to suggest talking to someone about this. Go to a counselor or therapist and they can help you figure out how to deal with the problems you have and the problems that are to come.
If all else, just go to the hospital and tell them you want to commit suicide and they will help you.
You have to talk to somebody about this. Someone that specializes in dealing with things like this.
We can just point you in the right direction.
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Obviously, if you continue to do whatever you have been doing, you can expect no change.
So logically, anything you try and do differently should bring a change for the better, especially for a person who has hit rock bottom and feels they want to die.
For there to be growth, opportunity to learn, and advance in life, there has to be some catalyst, something that causes that friction, muscles that are strengthened through the experience such as butterflies struggle to emerge from cocoon and a baby chicken from its shell. If you were to help out a butterfly to get out of it's cocoon, it would be crippled for life cus it was robbed of the experience to grow strong through the struggle. IN a way, thats how it is for humans, we either grow stronger from the circumstances life throws at us or we decide to give up and not fight against them. If a chick thought it was too hard to get out of a shell and gave up struggling, what do you suppose would happen to him? Well, he would die because his growth in a shell part of his life experience has come to an end, he is meant to walk around breath air, grow feathers and peck around for food, so if he didn't try, he'd die in the shell for lack of food.the opportunity
I don't know if you are getting my point yet but every human is given their own set of circumstances that is meant to help them grow stronger through the struggle against it like the struggle against the cocoon or the shell.
The reality is that the circumstances each individual faces isn't going to be the same. Like where's the battle for a kid born into a rich family?
There are people right this very minute facing exactly the same set of circumstances as you. SOme feel like you, some find it even harder than you do, and others face the same things and yet still have a joy in life. I am not making that up. I and hubby for example are unemployed, and someone took us in, otherwise we'd have no place to live. The fact that my ancient lap top that consistantly has operational problems will still function one more day means I am able to take my focus off myself, and think about how I can possibly encourage or help others by giving advice on here.
So lets say if two people face the same crappy life,
but one feels like ending it
the other feels a joy and purpose yet in life,
then where is the difference? For a clue, what one word do you find present in both phrases?
Feels
The battle is done in our minds, feelings and emotions which come from our subconcious mind and affect our heart. You can not control your circumstances, but you can control how you respond and react to them and it starts with your thinking, and thoughts. If your thoughts stink, then so will you feel in life.
I had to cut short a FB chat with my sister yesterday because her thinking is lots more negative than mine. Every thing she tried to tell me of things she thought would help me came out as all the things that won't work no matter what I try. But halfway through the convo. I began to get upset, began to feel nauseous and sick to my stomach and could feel my peace and joy, draining away. I had to make an excuse to cut it short. Then I did what I usually do first when I feel that way, boost my vibrational energy by singing favorite songs, or listening to the ones where the melody makes my soul and heart feel light like a balloon, movement helps too, so I did some stretches and excercise, focused on taking some deep breaths, and got a couple long bear hugs from hubby. Hugging releases something in people that naturally helps their brain feel better about whatever was troubliing it. We cannot face lifes difficulties if the levels of our neuro-transmitters are too low. And other than people born with a chemical imbalance in the brain that requires they take medication to make up for it, the majority of us can treat it ourselves by doing some of the things I mentioned I do. It works for me, it worked for my daughter when she was depressed over a 2nd boyfriend dumping her again. Recently, a 3rd guy left her. She used these methods to avoid going into depression this time. After 3 different guys dumping a gal, thats enough reason for some women to give up and want to end their life...not my daughter, she is finding joy in life despite her circumstances. Another way to boost low NTs, neuro-transmitters in brain is laughter, so watching really good comedies is helpful.
For where you are at, I know what I mentioned sounds useless, or too hard to do, no motivation to give it a try. Do I "feel" like doing the things that help me cope? No, not always but I have to push myself through it initially by sheer stubborn willpower until it begins to take effect and my attitudes and feelings self correct.
If you'd like someone to talk to further, you can write me again. Just go to my column dear and post a message to me. And things you put in comments where you evaluate what I wrote you, I cannot respond to.
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