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anxiety, cutting bad dreams and scars... would it be easier if it just ended?
hello internet im 13f and i have cut myself almost everyday scince i turned 11.i am coated in scars head to toe littereally and tommorow i start gym class we have to wear shorts and a tee shirt.I am not excited and am very worried about it and sad i have to do it in face i just cut pretty deep on my calf and 3 0r 4 cuts on my wrist i ussually cut in 3 bouts a day before school sometimes during if its a hard day as soon as i get home and ussually before bed.they are deep and take a ery long time to heal.i ahve depression and anxiety and im going to a phyciatrist.i am ery worried about school and gym and have terrible anxiety dreams every night.in the dreams i drop a razor blade from my pockeet in class and it is found.these scare me really badly and they rule my life.i get depressed easily too and do get suicidal.last year in gym class one of my fresher cuts showed and people mad efun of me untill i tried to kill myself and i am bullied in school.i start to not enjoy anything for fear and i do sometimes wish i could end it would it be easier?idek please help me
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Yeh, firstly you need to tell your psychiatrist about this.
Secondly, you need to understand you're not alone. Many teenagers have anxiety (myself included) and many recover.
What you need to do is say 'yes i've got this, but it's not going to control me and I'll never let it define me'.
At the moment, you're letting these illnesses control your life.
Before you can continue you need to speak to someone about this now, because there are ppl out there to help and to listen.
As a lady on the anxiety hotline number told me, nothing lasts for ever, and believe me with abit of motivation this stage of your life will be a long lost memory.
What you're experiecning is a horrible feelings, but these feelings are harmless-anxiety in particular is just there to protect you. You're 13, and have got a whole life ahead of you, and ppl with anxiety are very high achievers.
Good luck & I'm sure this horrible period will pass
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Have you told your psychiatrist about your cutting? Do you see a therapist as well? These are important steps. I understand being suicidal. I've been there and even been admitted to a psych hospital for it. Suicide is not easier. It is easy to mess it up and then have to live with the consequences. Also, I know a lot of cutters. It is not uncommon. There is a new device being developed to help cutters. There is a website for it that has some support for cutters. It was developed by a friend of mine who has helped many. Go to [Link](Mouse over link to see full location)
Understand that it is dangerous to cut, but not uncommon. Suicidal thoughts are ok, depending on what you do about them. Get help from a therapist that specializes in your needs. Your psychiatrist can help with recommendations. You are young. There is hope. Lots and lots of hope.
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:'( heres some VERY good advice...
STOP. Look, cutting youself isnt good. I know... Im a fucking rocket scientist, but seriously, there is no reason for anyone to ever cut themselves. It sounds like you have a bad case of this, i suggest that you tell your parents. I know it sounds bad, but you need to. I understand that cutting releaves stress, but there are other ways (healthy ways) to releave stress. Im sure that you are a beautiful young girl, and this is not ok.
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