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I'm interested in the same sex sometimes. My parents ignore it.
I'm a 16 year old girl and I've noticed my attraction to the same sex since I was 14. I'm also attracted to some guys too but that's usually so rare I find it hard to define myself as bisexual. Or lesbian. I'm just undefined right now I guess. Last year, I came out and told my dad and my step mother I had feelings for other females while driving in the car one day. They're strict Catholics and I knew that they'd give me all this shit about, "being gay is a sin" and "gay people are forever banished heaven" also "gay people can't create children therefore an abomination." I was prepared for all that mess. I have my own mind and challenge written/spoken authorities. I also believe that it's not a crime to appreciate the same sex by love. That's what makes sense to me, and they hate that and preach to me every day about it. "Thou must honor thy father and mother....etc"
To this day they bug me about being baptized into the church. After I told them about how I felt they preached to me and denied my feelings. They told me that I was just confused without god in my life and that once I found him and let him in then I would lose my sinful "thoughts." (Yes.....they actually refered to them as thoughts. As if I hadn't ever explored my feelings before in order to verify them myself.) Since then they've been setting me up on play-dates with some of their friends kids who are guys. I'm not allowed to have any girls come over to the house anymore, or guys. Anytime they catch me looking at a girl in anyway they find unsuitable they ignore it or steer me in the opposite direction. I'm forced to attend church twice a week and sing at the shitty ceremonies. And get this.....if they do catch me checking out a dude that I find attractive or if I say I find a guy attractive they automatically assume that I'm completely straight again! (Like I was ever completely straight)
I talked one on one with my dad last night and again brought up to him that i was interested in girls. He stared blankly at me and then kept talking about the previous subject that we were on as if I'd said nothing. When we got home, we came across the subject again this time with my step mother too. She yelled at me for about a half an hour about how women were put on this earth to be with a man and blah blah blah. I'm just sick of them telling me that I don't have feelings for women and I DO! Not that I don't have them for men to, but I'm more attracted to women. My parents can't truely and completely love me until they accept what and who I am. What can I say to make them understand that I DO have feelings for the same sex?
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I'm not really interested in answering this question, only undoing poor advice. In short, the first portion of Zane's answer is so full of shit my eyes need to use the restroom.
If you're unsure and undefined in regards to your sexual orientation then that's what you are; uncategorized and still exploring yourself. Could you be bisexual? Sure. You could be straight, lesbian, pansexual, whatever. But the only thing you definitely are is 16, and it is so ridiculous for someone, let alone someone that doesn't even know you, to assign a sexual orientation to you even though you've explicitly stated that you're undecided. Don't ever let some someone put you into a neat, tidy little box... especially an anonymous person on the Internet.
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First: Stop having these conversation with your parents for now. They are not accepting of your feelings or what you feel is your sexual make up.
Second: At your present age I would not be in a rush to put a label on your sexuality. At sixteen you should be coming into your own sexually, but in your case I feel you may have been sheltered somewhat and you are just now starting to explore your sexuality.
Every teenager,male and female, is sexually curious about the opposite sex and same sex. Males are more homophobic then females thus more secretive in their exploration. Females find same sex exploration safer and thus more satisfying of the sexual urges teenagers have. This does not make them lesbians or even bi. One could say these girls are bu-curious. I would say they are just curious.
From what you have written I would say you are curious as you have not had the opportunity to explore. This does not mean have male/female sex or even female/female sex. You can explore your sexuality without actually having intercourse.
For now back off on the conversations with your parents. You need to find out just who your are sexually.Then you can have a discussion with your parents if you feel you need to.
Your sexuality is yours and no ones else. If you decide you are bi, bi-curious, lesbian or heterosexual that is your business. The fact that you want to discuss your sexuality with your parents is good. The problem is they are not willing to help you define your sexuality in any way other than heterosexual. This is wrong.
I am not a very religious person. I believe the Bible say says we are all made in God's image. To me this includes people of all colors and people of all sexual make up. Unfortunately your parents do not agree with me.
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You are bisexual, You have been for 2 years now. There is no "I'm not really sure what I am"
Is this wrong? No, Not at all. Now I may offend some people when I say this and I'm sorry if I do but the talk of being gay/lesbian/bisexual is a sin is just a bunch of bullshit. Life is too short to ban yourself from being happy in your life, I respect peoples religion but I find it rude how people state their opinions upon other people's beliefs.
You may not be able to have people at the house, Fine. Let your parents ban you from what is a "sin" the only thing they may be good at is getting you to possibly resent them for it later down the line. If you want to be with a female, Then why the hell not? You are entitled to your happiness just like everyone. Is it wrong for your mother to be with your father? No, Does EVERYONE in the world approve? No. Again, Everyone will have their opinions.
Anyway, I think you should be able to be happy with who you are and never ever let someone come between that. I firmly believe God loves all.....Well I won't get into the religion stuff as I'm sure you don't want to hear my boring views anyway. My Advise: It may be really hard to convince your parents that you are bisexual, If they are high class church goers then they may never really be excepting. The only thing I can possibly tell you is try to have a family meeting with Mom and Dad or is one is easier to talk too then sit down and try and talk to them. Explain to them that you feel it is unfair how they are putting their religion before your happiness. They may ban you from having friends at the house but they really can't ban what you do outside the house. If you are firmly on the bisexual topic then as much as it would cause them to hear it I may bring up that they are pushing you away.....
Good luck with it all
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