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suicidal thoughts
i'm fully aware that my life could be a lot worse than it is at this point. just a lot of pressure and stress and depression is starting to crash down on me and i'm getting weaker and weaker trying to pretend nothing is wrong. my boyfriend and i broke up and i haven't spoken to him since, and vice versa. since then, i've fallen HARD for this guy at my school. its not just a crush, i'm completely and totally in love with him. but he's got a gf and i know he doesn't like me back. i'm also graduating in a few weeks and i'm failing chemistry. all of this is depressing me like nothing i've experienced since my first break up, and on top of all of that, i can't talk to my friends. sure, they all claim they are there for me. but they really aren't. anytime i'm trying to get advice they either don't listen or start talking about their issues instead. so i've stopped trying.
i started thinking about ending my life a few weeks ago. it was just a passing thought. now its on my mind all the time. i haven't acted on impulse yet because i wanna give things a chance to get better, but they haven't. and i've gotten to the point where i almost don't care anymore. i'm even starting to talk like i'm going to do it. i say things without thinking and then realize that i actually believe i'll be dead soon. things like "i might be gone by then" or "i'm leaving soon". no one has seemed to notice, and really, who would? i don't exactly know what i'm asking for here. but things seem pretty impossible right now, idc how pathetic that sounds. i'm alone and afraid and sad and angry and i can't tell anyone.
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First, get back to basics.
1. Do you have shelter, eat regularly and live in a pretty safe environment? Then you are doing a hell of a lot better than about half the planet and I am not exaggerating. Having a sense of proportion will help alleviate the tendency to whine or feel depressed.
As for failing chemistry, you wouldn't be the first. Millions of people have some kind of failure in their life, including really famous folks. Albert Einstein considered himself a major failure during the early part of his life. Colonel Sanders was a huge screwup most of his life, too. So you're not alone. Just learn from it and move forward.
Now about guys: you have to realize that you are wasting your time chasing things that are unattainable. Moreover, you are probably, in the meantime, ignoring guys who would love you to pieces if you give them a chance. That doesn't make you a bad person, it just makes you someone who has allowed her own insecurities to overwhelm the rational side of her personality.
So you need to relax, be grateful for what you have, stop overthinking yourself into an emotional pretzel and start looking toward college. Your brain is still developing (and it will until about age 25) and so your thinking is going to evolve a lot over the next few years as will your social circle and your opportunities. Keep all your options open and see where things lead you.
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Hi, I'm a great deal older than you but I know how you feel, I've been where you are and can tell you there is help out there and you can tell someone.
The scary part of how you feel is feeling all alone and feeling that you can't tell anyone for how they might feel about you.
Right now you have two strangers who want to help you. We know nothing about you other than you are a person in turmoil that needs help. People who know and love you will not only want to help you they will be right there beside you when you need them.
I can tell you from experience that you are probably experiencing some type of depression. This is nothing to be embarrassed about either. One in three people experience symptoms of depression in their lifetime. People experiencing depressive episodes do not see things in their proper perspective. We misinterpret what we see and what is said to us. Realizing this was probably the hardest thing I had to learn about what I was going through. Once I did everything else started to fall in place and I started to feel better.
There are several things you can do right now, today to help yourself. You need to go to the nearest hospital Emergency room. Bring them the note you wrote to us and ask them for help. Don't worry about the cost there are programs to cover the cost and no they cannot call your parents unless you ask them too. If you cannot get to the hospital yourself call 911. Again don't worry about any costs for this service, if any, the same programs that will cover the hospital cover this service as well.
I would really like it if you would tell your parents how you feel and what you are feeling. They do love you, that I am sure of and they will help you.
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Please don't kill yourself. Or even think to end your life.
I know what you need, someone who'll listen. And I can be that person for you. You don't know anything about me. I'm a complete stranger. But I want to help you in any way I can.
I don't know you or what you've been through, but I care enough to tell you that solving your problems by hurting or killing yourself will not help.
Please don't kill yourself.
If you want to, you can email me at mayj_143@yahoo.com.ph & we can talk or anything. You can tell me all your problems and I can simply listen and be there for you. No judgement or anything like that. :)
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