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extremely paranoid about friends :( LONG QUESTION
this is really long, SORRRRYYYYY..... these people who are supposed to be my friends have been ruining my life for awhile now and this is the first time i've been able to explain it since late last year.
so, i've been friends with one of the girls, let's call her Mary, for a really long time. we had some REALLY good times together, and me & her were each other's best friends. then last year, she got a new friend, let's say her name is Barbie (lol first thing that popped in my head) and i was kinda forced to be friend with her too. that was fine with me, and of course i was a little jealous but not enough to say anything. i wasn't really bothered. then this year, everything changed. we were the 3 best friends to each other in the school until late last year, when out of nowhere, both girls completely ganged up on me, telling me i've been bringing them down ever since i met them, that i'm a bad influence, and all this other shit. i was soooo hurt, but luckily the fight only lasted for 2 weeks.. but ever since then nothing has been the same. i never know when they're really ok with me, or when they're secretly thinking i'm ruining their lives or something crazy again! the day before the fight, i had absolutely NO idea anyone was mad at me. they gave no hints whatsoever, texted me and stuff.. then the next day, i was the worst person in the world. so i can never know!
that's fight #1. next one only lasted 1night, but got me REALLY paranoid. I had a twitter, where i would put down all my thoughts and feelings.. it was like a diary. i have friends on there, it was just my owl little world to escape. everyone needs somewhere to vent, and since i obviously couldn't to my "friends" i did to my online friends who actually could help me sometimes! well,of course, Mary & Barbie (ahaha) find the Twitter, and text me telling me how much of a bitch i am for ever being mad at them. ......... like they never. did. anything. wrong. for example, i remember one of the tweets was calling someone a bitch. i was watching MTV for christ's sake! and both Mary AND Barbie accused me of calling them a bitch. on the tweet that was sent like 4 months ago. so they crawl into my own thoughts, and get mad about how i feel. the only reason we resolved the fight is because they both ganged up on me again, and said i had to "confess" to saying what i did. so i did, even though the tweets honestly weren't about them.. so that led me into a spot where i can't be unhappy, ever, and if i am, i can't express it in any way because then i'd be emo therefore ruining their lives.
yes, there's a fight #3, but it only lasted 2 days and it was only with Barbie.. it started on a friday that was an EXTREMELY BAD DAY FOR ME. worst day ever. so i didn't talk much, cuz i couldn't or i'd be "emo". but at one point, i called my mom and she was cussing me out so i had to break down and cry. THAT was the reason Barbie got mad at me. because i cried, she got the idea that i cut myself. not even kidding. she said she hated me, because i was annoying, emo, and i cut myself. ....... Mary was REALLY nice about it all, was on my side (for once) but remained friends with Barbie. Barbie soon acted like none of it happened, and hugged me. never really apologizing, which was becoming a trait. to this day i haven't gotten 1 apology!
soooooooooooo NOW I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO. should i just ditch them or something and become a loner? when they're being normal friends to me i have a lot of fun, but it's too much to handle not being able to think straight. i'm SO afraid of having another fight, i'll agree to anything they say. i sound like a fucking loser right now but seriously, i don't know what to do right now. i'm REALLY SORRY THIS HAD TO BE SO LONG but I really just need some help on this :(
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To be honest, I just think you need new friends. I'd say talk to them about it but they might not work with that and drama would probably happen eventually anyway.
I think you should just go find new friends and people who would actually appreciate your friendship because these two will never be happy with what you do no matter how hard you try. Don't stress too much about this, just cut them out. You deserve better. Good luck!
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I'm sorry, ditch them psycho chicks. JESUS your too young to have this DRAMA. They are nothing but drama and are bored and having nothing to do but make your life miserable. I mean you've done all you can at this point... don't you feel like a 3rd wheel? I'm sure you can find other friends who would treat you way better. These two chicks can KICK ROCKS!
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When all of you guys are having a ''good day'' or in your words (being normal friends). Get the two of them with you and then ask them in the first place why each of them got mad at you and started to hate you. Once they tell you, explain the post that you wrote 4 months ago (Thing about the MTV) and then see what they have to say. Then explain to barbie the reason why you cried was because you were on a phone call with your mom and she was yelling at you a lot and that you couldn't handle it. You started crying over it. then see what "Barbie" has to say about that. O hope that this helps.
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