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What to do, depressed and stressed.
17/f
When I thought that things were actually getting better. They fall over, again.
Besides the fact that I'm turning 18 (my parents divorce when I'm 18) exactly a week from today, I'm on contract. What that means is, I can't miss one more day or have 3 more tardies at school or else I'm going to get kicked out of the program. So that means, even if I'm dying at home, I still have to go to school. They're no longer taking parent notes either, only doctors. The only bright side to it, heyyy, I'm not the only one. A whole of bunch the seniors are on contract as well, even some of the juniors.
I got my progress report, and I'm failing my 5 core classes. This is absolutely terrible. I'm passing classes that doesn't even matter or transfer on my transcript. What the shizz. I'm so stressed out about it, I was thinking maybe if I eat, it'll take the stress out. Nope, I have this heavy feeling on my chest that I can't get rid of.
Two more weeks until it's spring break, but I feel like whenever I think I can rest. I can't. Something else always pops up right afterwards, when is this all over?! What makes it worse?? I'm upset with my sister over this drama and argument before class, I was so angry, I missed my economics class because I couldn't stop crying. She said she wouldn't see me on my birthday until I act like a 'real sister' but honestly, I'm sorry for getting into an argument, but I'm not sorry for standing up to her because she was just putting words in my mouth. Even though I'm not even sure if she's even still mad at me, I don't know why. I'm still angry with her... It just makes me feel more angry and upset. My boyfriend is upset with me too, and I don't even know why! But I still apologized, because honestly... When everything is falling apart, I fall apart, and it's just not a pretty picture. Even when I try to hold things up, I feel like I'm getting closer and closer to falling back into depression.
It's to the fact where I thought about dying. Like, it would be so much easier. If people are so upset with me, would they be happy if I'm gone? Probably. Since they don't bother to talk to me, or just send me one word text messages. I'm not sure if I'm the one being a bitch and pushing people away... Or what. Because the way I see it, if you say something that'll piss me off, then yeah... I'll push you away, when I don't mean to. But then yet, don't say something that'll get me angry or I'll get offended by, especially where I'm standing right now. Maybe I'm just tired and I really need a rest, but where is that going to do? I'm still going to wake up having the world on my shoulders.
Help me please! There's just this huge feeling on my chest I can't get rid of!
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Hi, I'm old enough to be your grandfather and hopefully I can offer you some advise and wisdom that will help.
I think you parents pending divorce, when you turn 18, may be playing a large part in how your feeling. Let me say this about that: Their divorcing has nothing to do with anything you did. I'll repeat that; You have done nothing to cause your parents divorce. Why they chose your 18th birthday probably is all about child support and nothing more.
I realize that just my saying this does not make the hurt go away. In time you will learn to deal with the hurt. Time though is something you are a little short of if you are going to turn things around at school and graduate. There is help for this.
You start by making an appointment with your family doctor. Tell your doctor everything you have told us. Your doctor will probably want to do a complete physical. Let the doctor do so as that will rule out any physical reason for how you are feeling. Your doctor will then either prescribe some medication for you or refer you to another doctor better qualified to prescribe for what is really bothering you.
While I am not a doctor it is easy to spot that you are probably suffering from a form of teenage depression. This is a very common occurrence today. When I was your age our parents referred to it as a phase which they felt we would grow out of. Today we see it for what it really is and there is help. Medication and talk therapy will help you deal with all the stressors that bring teenage depression on.
Any teenager today is subject to suffering from teenage depression. There is a lot of pressure placed on today's teenager. They are forced to grow up faster. More is expected of them. They have to deal not only with puberty and the physical and hormonal changes going on with them. They also have to deal with the new social relationships, added pressures to excel at school so you they can go on to college and the list goes on and on and on.
You have the added pressure of what is going on at home. As sure of the fact as I am that what is happening between your parents is not your fault. I'm just as sure you don't see it that way. Medication and talk therapy will help you deal with these stressors and any others that are causing you to feel the depression I believe I see in you.
Call your doctor on Monday and make an appointment. The sooner you see your doctor the sooner you will start to feel better.
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I feel some of your pain. I too feel like everything is falling apart. Im 18 by the way. But ive realized that this may be that time of life where things begin to change dramatically. we just need to ride it out. eventually things will get better. Personally, i want to be your friend so that you wont feel completely miserable. Maybe, a second opinion on things is what you need. If you need anything just let me know.
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