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Two guys - one girl... Please help!!
I've been in a relationship with Corey for the past 3 years. We met on myspace at 1 or so in the morning. Before I met him, I sat in my room very depressed, so depressed, that I prayed for at least an hour or longer to God and even was desperate enough to wish on a star... stupid, right? I don't know whether the person reading this believes in God or wishing on stars, but not a month passed when I met Corey. We just barely got our internet up and running for the first time since I was 14, and my sister and I got our first myspace pages up and running. When Corey and I first met online, Corey asked for my number, and we started from there. There was a huge connection right from the start, but there was a downside.... he lived 3 hours away from me, so this was a long distance relationship. It was tough at first, but I got used to the distance, and we saw each other every 2-3 months and we stayed at each others houses for 1 week to a month at a time. The very, very first night we met was so passionate, and I felt completely loved and adored by him. He was such a gentleman! Sadly, this was the best night of my life... We've never had a day or night like this or even passionate or romantic like this... But now, everything has changed... What seemed to be a fairy tale come true was now becoming depressing and even nightmarish at times... so now Corey and I are hanging by a thread. I love him, but I don't think I'm "in love" with him anymore. I feel like he's cheating on me. I've seen his AOL instant messenger before, but when I look a year or two later (in his contacts in his mailbox) he has all sorts of girls names... ones I won't be able to post here because the names are pretty disgusting... but the names were pretty straight forward, like you could tell it was a girl, and that that specific girl was skanky or whatever you want to call a girl like that. There was a whole bunch of contacts like this there... at least four or five at least. His excuse was that he has had that AOL account since he was 15 or so (he was 19 then so that was way before he met me [if he's telling the truth]). I feel like he lies to me all the time, I can't be myself around him.. like this time I was being goofy and he gave me this face that looked as if he thought I was stupid or something. He has a cruel sense of humor and makes fun of me a lot, like he calls me Pinocchio (my nose is kinda big) and he's even made comments about me being heavy. My sister thinks that he is emotionally abusive and he tells me things like I can't drink on my 21st birthday (which is coming up), can't get a tattoo and my sister thinks that if I wind up marrying him, that he wouldn't let me do anything. He'd control my life, and would probably wind up hitting me or something. Every time I try to talk to him about what has been hurting me or bugging me, he always turns it into a fight and makes it my fault. Like for example, I got mad because he could talk to everyone else it seemed, besides me. He could easily open up to a stranger, or a friend, but never to me. So I got really upset and started asking him why he can't talk to me, he never sees me but doesn't care if he talks to me at all. He will only stay on the phone for a couple of minutes before letting me go, and if on a rare occasion, he will talk to me, we sit there in silence... if I complain about him not talking, he'll ask me "Why do you do this? You act like you're perfect and you don't do anything wrong, you can talk!" but I've tried telling him that I don't talk because every time I try talking to him, he doesn't listen to anything I have to say. I've even tried talking to him about something he's interested in, and it still doesn't work... There's always something he has to do, and he never seems to have enough time for me. Constantly busy. He calls me psycho (I have a couple of mental disorders), bi*tch, whore, hoe, stupid and there's probably more...
He's told me recently "you're another *insert psycho ex-girlfriend's name here*" and "I hope you die". He tells me he hates me and if I get angry it's because I'm pmsing. According to Corey, guys are always right, girls are always wrong. He's sexist big time, and is also a complete hypocrite. Guys say to never argue with a woman, because you'll never win, well no one will ever win an argument with Corey... just because the way he is. He has an excuse and an answer for everything. He never admits he's wrong at all, very rarely anyways. One time, I gave Corey a hug while he was sitting on the couch, and he snapped at me accusing me of wanting sex when I was really trying to be loving and cuddly. I even think he may be gay or bisexual... That's all I can think of at the moment... but anyways, a childhood friend recently popped into my life. My ex best friend Timmy. Not ex best friend because we stopped being friends, but just because our families moved away from one another and we simply stopped talking and whatnot. We were 6 when we met, and my sister and his sister are best friends. We have known each other for a very long time as you can imagine... the difficult thing is is that I'm now developing feelings toward Timmy... Growing up, he used to protect me from his little brother (who I was going out with at the time [I was a little too young for dating... but oh well, we were kids :P]). His little brother would always hit me and beat on me and Timmy would always defend and protect me. One day, I got sick of his crap, and dumped him, and asked Timmy if he would be my boyfriend and he said yes :) But his little brother went home crying to his mom and she separated Timmy and I and I was back to square one.... If I were older, I'd tell her off lol but I was 6 and didn't really know... but anyway, almost 21 now, and it seems the more I spend time with Timmy, the more attracted to him I get. Not just his looks either, but his personality as well. He's giving, trustworthy, respectful, a gentleman, a virgin, never had a "real" kiss (not like that stuff matters), he's funny, and caring, etc.. I know the guy to choose seems pretty obvious, but it's not that easy. As mean as Corey is, he can still be very sweet and I still love him and care about what happens to him.... How do I let him go? What can I do to make it hurt less? How can I let him down gently? Can someone please help me? I've never been in this situation before....this is really tough!!
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whoo your situation is pretty big, if you dont love him anymore leave him im sure he has a bunch of other girls that he met online. just tell him that you dont think this is going to work out anymore between you two and if he try to say word like bitch, hoe ignore him because you are not he is the bitch here
have courage ok ,,
good luck
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The majority of verbally abusive men become physically abusive as well. You need to remove yourself from that relationship not only for your mental stability but also for your safety. You have mental health disorders so not only is he a threat to you but could also make you a threat to yourself. You deserve better than that. Leaving him will be very painful and hard to do but there are ways you can make it easier. Think about how a marriage with him would be. You would constantly be controled and your self image would slowly diminish due to his abuse. If you want children you would need to think about how he would treat them if he treats you that way. Do you want those traits in a husband and father? Make a list of all the terrible things he has done to you and how he makes you feel when he does those things. Try to stay away from all the good thoughts of him and anything that reminds you of how things used to be or are sometimes because its not worth it. Everytime you begin to think of him or miss him remind yourself of those things. Begin a stable loving relationship and it will help you see how detrimental the relationship with him was. Leave him. For you. For your emotional and mental health. Love yourself first. Good Luck. You can do it!
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Well it's clear who you should leave "cory".
Do you think God wants you to be with someone who doesn't treat you the way you deserve to be treated, the way God wants you to be treated. You need to do what's best for you and personally I don't think you should be with someone who you don't trust, calls you nasty names ect. If you do end up leaveing cory, but your scared and you don't know how to handle it, you can always lean on God trust god that this is what's best for you. Pray that he helps you get through this and to help you show you what you truly desirve in life. I can only give you advice the only true person who can help you with this is God. I hope the best for you.... Rember god only wants what's best for you.
God bless.
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