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i need to know what to do about my situation
First i am going to give a little info. about me nd my past.
since i was young i was always picked on by my dad for example he always called me fat, talked about how my room is dirty and always over exaggerating about it. Every time my mom did something wrong or do something he dont like he yells at me about and he tells me i am a good 4 notin 2 something like that. i dont be doing anything he just lash out at me. I've been depressed all of my life. One time i asked my can i go to the person who you would go to to tell them your problems. she told why go to them if i can talk to her. i dont want to tell her she is one of my problems i've been having. for some reason i tried to commit suicide by hanging my self but there wasn't anything to hang myself with. i tried jumping but i am scared of heights. I remember that day, i put everything in front of the door the bed and the dresser, i looked down i couldn't do it. i used to picture myself jumping in front of a car when it go past, but i could i was watching kids so i didn't want them have bad dreams about it. i was a suicidal who couldn't commit suicide. funny aint it. anyways i am 18 years old and i feel like i am a slave - my mom would call me over to where she is to do something for her, i would ask how come u didnt ask so and so, she would say that person wont do it right. i am being called sorry because i dont feel like doing something. i do not have job nor money to move out. i have no friends since the friends i had turned out to be fake friends ( also my dad really reminds me that i dont have any friends when i say i want a phone he use to say that you only need a certain min. because i dont have any body to talk to but my mom, that was so wrong) i just dont have anything going for me. the only things i do is read and watch thing that is online and watch porn. other than that i dont do anything. i just stay in my room. also i am a shy person, i dont talk to a lot of people because of my speech problem, i am so used to being talked about by my looks that i think every body will talk about in front of me or behind my back. how can i get a way from t this mess? i have nothing going for me. i keep on asking myself why am i here. what should i do can someone please help me. i am very lonely, i have no friends and no boyfriend to go to. i am fed up with this life. so what should i do?
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I was pretty much the same way. Suicide isn't gonna do anybody any good. You should know that though, I'm pretty sure you do.
My dad is the same way. He means well but he doesn't know how much it hurts. My dad had found out about me cutting myself and I had almost went to the end and ever since then I was called crazy and stupid by my family. You could try getting help. I mean really, suicide isn't the way to go at all. You have to think about others in that situation, you know? You do have things going for you. You have to make it that way. Pretty much, everything is a choice, most of the time. I had so many problems, alot like yours. But I realized that wasn't the reason why I was so depressed. It was because I thought about the problems too much. I just decided not to think about it. I mean yeah, every once in awhile I'd break down and cry. Don't bottle it up though. If you need to talk find someone to talk to.
But I mean, it was things I couldn't change. I can't change my parents and how they treated me so I decided to not think about it. I mean thinking about it is only gonna make me more depressed and its not doing anyone any good at all. So I found other things to look for in life. I'm gonna have a future. I mean, I'm not gonna live here forever.
We aren't an accident, obviously. Trust me, you don't want to be another statistic for teen suicide. There is always a reason for every problem you have. In the future you're gonna meet someone or even your kids might have some problems. You would be one of the people who could show them that they could make it. Especially with your life, you would be a pretty good example.
Just think about it, and think smart about it.
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Commiting suicide isn't going to help your situation it will just make it worst you'll just be hurting the people who love & care about you & they don't deserve that i'm sure your parents don't want to plan their childs funeral so i wouldn't suggest you doing that you could try going for your permit then once you do get it you'll be able to get your license and you'll have more freedom to do what you want try searching for a job in the newspaper or on the internet you may get lucky you could vounteer somewhere just so your out of the house for a few hours you could try sitting your parents down and telling them how you feel tell them that you'd like it if they weren't so hard on you and you want them to treat you more nicely your in control of your life & only you if you aren't satisfied with something then change whatever your not happy...with until you are tell your parents that you'd like to visit a therapist and it would make you really happy if they allowed you to go then go from there(:
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