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I feel like i want to die
I've stayed up all night tonight, i can't sleep. i just drank this situation away,but i know that never lasts, i just need to vent and ask for some advice on here.
I've loved him for 5 months, and yesturday i had so much hope. I talked to his bestfriend, and he told me straight up that *he really did like me. his best friend, said it was always me. i was going to talk to him today. But ah, today. One of my bestfriends comes over, and i mention him to her (they're related- so they're close) and how i felt about him. Then- she tells me her other good friend made out with him just the other day and he was interested in her. (yet his BEST friend told me that *he only "flirts" with her to make her feel better). I feel mind fucked, hahah. I can't sleep, i can't stop thinking about him and that girl making out (any possibly doing more, but i dont want to know). Now i really just want to hate him. I do, i feel nothing for him anymore..but i dont know why i still feel like shit. I don't know what to do now, i've spent so much time hoping for this-to realize it was all for something that was just in my head. Every time i have hope, it comes crashing down.I'm incapable of relationship. I just have no more will anymore. I dont even care. I just don't know what to do next and i'd really like some help from anyone at all, thankyou
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I'm quiet literally in the same boat as you right now, but this one is kinda like the love of my life deal for me.. I say don't freak until you get the facts first, and don't assume that it's true. Expect the worst but don't set your mind on it till it happens.. Right now your questioning if he is or is not in the back of your mind the bad guy, that's why you hurt. You need closer to the pain.
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It's ok, you'll make it through this. Lots of people have times like this. Even though you feel nothing for him right now, deep down you still do. It's still there and probably won't go away for awhile until you really don't want him anymore. Keep yourself together and don't let yourself go. Your stronger than that because everybody has the capability to hold themselves together. It's just their choice. This is just now. There are so many guys out there, believe me. He's not the only one so you will find someone else if not him. Good luck!
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Hang in there sister,life can be hard sometimes;especially if a man is present in the situation. I know you said you hate him now,but tell me this..do you think thats actually true? My theory is that true love never ends,and therefore your love for him will never end. It sounds like youre just having a break down right now..and thats perfectly normal. I tend to break down at least 3 months out of the year. When i experienced my first depression i wasnt sure what to do with myself..it was like i was having an out of body experience..i was numb to the world. The only advice i can truly give you is to realize that life goes on and your broken heart is going to heal with time. Perhaps this boy you love is just confused right now..everyone does make mistakes you know! Stay positive and just remember that IT WILL GET BETTER.
pain is inevitable..suffering is optional.
xoxo,taylor.
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