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Carolyn.
I have known Carolyn my whole life basicly. When I stayed back in the 6th grade i started going over her house to do my homework and everything. She knows like everything about me. (She is 73) Well... Im not really sure what happened bu over a course a couple months we grew apart. Everytime I go over there now she calls me a bad christian for not reading the bible nightly, im a bad christian because I have bi and gay friends and dont cut myself off from them. I am doing horribly in school because my friends are. She doesnt like ANY of my friends. Im not doing good in math because we just got into like algebra and its O_O. Hard. Well I call her to tell her and shes like well. its the people your hanging out with. the last time i heard some of your friends were failing... How does that effect me at all. Next day. The guidance councelor wants to talk to me about my grades and asks about Carolyn... Shocker. I donno. I dont think its me though Carolyn says it is. That ive changed. I dont think I have. Its just everytime i go over there she tears me down and critisizes me. She makes me feel bad about myself. I tried explaining and she didnt get it. So i sorta stopped going over as often as i did. Now i only go over because i have a job training dogs and even then Carolyn wil critisize me infront of Monyen. Even Monyen will wait till shes out of the room and be like Hey. Dont worry about it... --and basicly say carolyn is in the wrong. Everytime I try to talk to her she guilts me and starts to cry. I dont know what to do. When I get home I dont want to go over. i wanna get into some boxers and go on the comp to read Ouran. I explained it to the guidance counselor and she says that it sounds lie carolyn is pushing me away.. but everytime i talk to carolyn its me thats changing. i dont now what to do. I feel bad for not seeing her as often as i had before. but i cant go over there without her mentioning God. or my School.. or friends. I cant do anything right. I just need a solution. Whos in the wrong.. whos in the right...
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For some strange reason Carolyn sounds like my mom! My family is catholic and my mom acts like the catholic-est person ever. Even though my faith doesn't agree with bi or gay people I like them because god doesn't want us to be mean to other people! You are not a bad christian!! It sounds like your guidance counselor is right. There must be something going on w/ carolyn that she hasn't told you yet or she feels that because you're getting older you'll turn away from her and she doesn't want to face rejection. My mom did that my senior yr in high school. Instead of visiting why don't you call her instead that way you can check up on her and when she starts talking about what you don't want to it's easier to hang up or switch topics. If she hurts your feelings you need to tell her too. Don't go over there so she can hurt your feelings, embarrass you, and make you cry. You are so much better than that! God knows that you are good in your heart so you don't need to prove anything to Carolyn because god says don't perform deeds so it can be seen and if he sees in secret he will repay or something like that.
Good Luck ^_^
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As much as I hate to get into religions, true Christians (assuming that's what she is) don't judge. If I were you, I'd stop going around her, but if you feel like you can't, try your best to talk to her about how she's making you feel.
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