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I started cutting, and I want to stop, but... I don't.
I started cutting about a week ago. I have recently been diagnosed with depressession because of my step mom leaving and taking my 3 yr old baby sister with her. I take a pill called Celexa for depression, it's helped by making me happy,but I still want to cut. I cut because it helps and I do it because I can't stop, but then again I don't want to stop because it helps me feel alot better. I don't scratch because I feel the need to cut myself untill I bleed, if I don't bleed, I am unsatisfied and feel like it didn't help.My boyfriend wants me to stop, and I love him, but even for him I won't do it. I don't want to be told to stop, I want a way of stopping so that I still get that feeling of satisfaction, but without having to cut.
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i understand how you feel and it is very hard to stop especially if your addicted to it, im sure you feel like nothing will ever take the place of cutting but there are ways to get around the urges, just try to think of how your boyfriend feels. if your boyfriend really cares he should be trying to help you. when i told my boyfriend about it he was really upset but he really helped me. its been like almost five months and i still have urges to do it but i try to keep other people in mind and how they would feel if they knew. so that might be enough to help you but if not you should consider therapy.
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I've been there, and I know how difficult it is to leave that place. You're already doing something - you're on medication to help with your depression. That is definitely going in the right step.
You cut (or at least I did) because it gives you a way to control your pain, to control your emotions. When things are going crazy in your life, you just want some form of control. If you have to hurt, you want it to be under your own circumstances. That's how it was for me, anyway.
Why does cutting hurt so bad yes still feel so amazing? It releases endorphins into your system. Endorphins make people happy. There are TONS of other ways to get those endorphins that make you feel better.
Exercise is an AMAZING and POWERFUL way to release those endorphins you're getting through cutting. Exercise can also cause pain, but a good pain. It's the type of pain you get when you're really pushing yourself to do something.
Take up jogging or playing a sport. That way, any time you want to do something big and you want to get that rush you get from cutting, you can do some form of exercise or practice for the sport. You're still doing something, but it's something healthy and beneficial to you rather than damaging.
Cutting becomes addicting. I know the feeling. I know what it's like to want to stop but not to be able to because of how it makes you feel. I took up sports and writing. Any time I was in one of those "I really need to cut" moods, I'd begin writing. If that wasn't working and I felt like I needed to do something physical, I'd run, scream, hit softballs, kick my soccer ball... I'd do anything to just release the pain without scarring my body.
Try it. Try anything. Whatever you do, don't cut. I know sometimes seeing the blood can be what gets you. If that's what you really enjoy, paint, draw on yourself, do whatever it takes to get that rush without actually causing yourself damaging pain.
Exercise can cause pain - any time you push yourself to do something challenging, you can experience a crazy yet awesome pain - but it's a healthy pain. It's much better for you than cutting. Also, you can control it. If you are still really frustrated, keep running. Listen to up-beat, fast-paced music. It really helps. Just give it a shot :)!
Also, whoever prescribes your medicine (I'm guessing a doctor or psychiatrist)... tell them about your problem. They probably have tons more ideas for you to overcome your need to cut.
For me and a lot of people I know, it has always been about controlling your own life. If I had to be in pain, I wanted to be in control of it.
If you have a different reason for cutting, then there's probably a different, better way to stop.
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Ok. You have deep pain inside, there is no denying it. Cutting makes you feel better, it helps get rid of pain. The pain comes back though. Right? It never really goes away. So,the things you need to tell yourself are, I love myself enough to stop. Tell yourself, you aren't the reason for what has happened. You are loveable and people do love you. Do you ever see your sister? Someday, you will, you need to keep safe and healthy for her. She will know you and love you someday. You need to be there for her, when it is time. It's hard when adults behave like this, but they too can have mental problems. This isn't an excuse, but maybe shed some light on her abnormal behavior. Replace your cutting with something more positive, like when you feel like cuting, choose to replace it with, running, jumping, calling someone, drawing your pain, screaming for 10 min. , whatever it would take to replace the cutting, that is healthy. You deserve to be happy, and right now, you can't control what other people have done, but you certainly can control yourself by helping yourself and being there for your sister, and the others that love you deeply. It is all in how you think and what it is you tell yourself. Replace the thoughts of cutting with another word, and refuse to let it control you. You can be your best friend. you can make the choice to change, you are it. Make your life better, you have time. Decide to take action over this pain, and not let it win. Do this much for yourself, you are worth it. Decide now. take care.
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so what i think you should do is check yourself into a program to start building up your confidence because this is not good for yourself i think that you have to surround people that love you and you need to relize that youa re better than this
i hope that you feel better get back to me if you have anymore problems
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