I feel sad all the time. Right when I think I'm having a good time, I just feel like crying. All the time I just want to cry.
Things just haven't gone the way I've wanted them to for so long and I just have this heavy weight of sadness on my shoulders. I can't even talk about it because I don't think anyone would want to hear it. My best friend and I talk all the time, but it's mostly about her. I help her through everything but can never tell her what's bothering me. I don't like to talk about it because I don't want her to leave me all alone like my other "friends" if she thinks I'm being stupid or selfish talking about myself. I don't want to be selfish.
I try so hard to be nice all the time and hardly speak my mind or bother people with how I feel because being nice is so important. But it's wearing me down. I keep everything inside and I don't think I could let it out because everyone would leave me again. Well, everyone that's left. It isn't fair, but I shouldn't say that. I don't want to complain because I don't want to come across as a brat.
I just want the sadness to go away. I just basically wallow in self-pity which isn't good and I know that. But I can't pull myself out of it. I don't know how to. I feel like such a bad person because I probably am. I'm trying to change things about myself so maybe I can feel better, but I'm never good enough. I'm so upset and I just want to stop crying all the time. But I can't. ='[
[ Answer this question ] Want to answer more questions in the Relationships category? Maybe give some free advice about: Friendship? Nakhle87 answered Sunday August 17 2008, 2:40 pm: Hey.
I just know Your pain,coz you'r pretty much like me i think.I'm Nakhle from lebanon..
When i smile,i don't smile from the bottom of my heart..im sad all the time like you,and i want to be lonely all the time,just doing nuthing but thinkin about my fuckin past that didn't went like i wanted to.
What i could do 2 you is this..You and i we become friends,somehow,we learn from each other,coz you know what the quote says:2 similar people when united are so strong!Dnt you ever lose hope Sweety.
Even if you think you'r going 2 be crashed,and fall down..just think about better dayz,have some hope,pray,act,react,never show 2 others that you'r weak..and there will be 1 day a new signal that will lead u 2 success,happiness..Tc..remember im always here if you need anything. [ Nakhle87's advice column | Ask Nakhle87 A Question ]
advicegirl118 answered Tuesday August 12 2008, 12:44 am: you just really need to talk to someone. when you don't talk about your problems they just stay inside you and weigh you down. i know its hard to talk to people about your problems but it seems like you have a close friend so you should try talking to her. you need to stop thinking of yourself as a burden to people cause you deserve the same courtesy that you show others. if you ever need to talk to someone you can IM me at advicegirl118. [ advicegirl118's advice column | Ask advicegirl118 A Question ]
heya answered Monday August 11 2008, 9:53 pm: I have been in the same boat..it just seems like life is never right..right? You have repressed feelings just like i do..you keep everything..but truth is..that wear you down mentally and physically..if you have good friends they would listen to your problems just like you listen to theres..so try to talk to them who knows people can surprise you..and also i advise you to talk to a counselor..i know it sounds stupid but it really worked for me..i am doing alot better and i dont feel so down all the time..also find something that you enjoy like a sport..or music..that can really alleviate some stress..also turn towards God and pray..God can do wonderful things..and if you have God in your life you can get throught anything..its an amazing feeling..if you dont read all of this just read what i am about to say....life is too short to wallow..get out there and enjoy your life..because you never know what is gonna happen. [ heya's advice column | Ask heya A Question ]
ambermorgan18 answered Monday August 11 2008, 8:51 pm: Wow, word for word you are exactly like my best friend. She refuses to talk to me, even though Ive told her soo many times that I want to know so badly, because I hate seeing her sad. She doesnt know this, but when things bother her, they bother me to the point where Im in tears for her!! Another thing, is that shes such a bad liar. Shes all like Im fine whenever someone shows concern. But I know shes not. Im positive shes depressed. Shes certainly not herself. She used to care so much about everything, she was the most passionate person you would ever meet but something happened, I dont know what, but all the time now she mopes around and stuff, and its soo unhealthy, but anyways you sound sooo much like her, its scary, you probably have depression too. Take my advice, and talk to SOMEONE who cares about you and wants to help. Maybe a friend or a counselor or someone? Anyways, you would NOT be selfish to focus on yourself, if your like my friend, its everyones problems except yours, right? Its okay!! Your not a bad person, your not selfish, and your not a brat! Depression is sooo serious, talk to your parents, they can help. If not please please talk to somebody now!! My friends life has affected me soo much and Im so scared for her, if I cant help her, please let me help you!
BTW, I would want to listen to you, if I was your friend, Im listening to you right now arent I? If I didnt care, I wouldnt have answered your question. I care soo much more than you think. I know its hard to talk to someone. I had depression twice, and it took every last ounce of strength I had to tell someone I was depressed. I became better. It was because I was abused for three years, I didnt even remember, I blocked it all out. But I remember now, and Im soo happy I told someone. You cant deal with Depression by yourself. I tried, it doesnt work. If you want, you can talk to me. Im not a therapist, not by far, but you got to start somewhere, right? [ ambermorgan18's advice column | Ask ambermorgan18 A Question ]
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