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Feeling isolated and depressed, lots of shit happening
Recently iv been having a really shitty time, Im 15.
Over the last few weeks i have had an abortion, one ofmy best friends has died, my parents have been arguing, my two best friends have drifted away from me and stopped speaking to me, and iv been feeling the lowest iv ever felt.
I didnt think that the abortion had really affected me mentally until recently.
But iv got it into my head that my friends death was somehow my punishment for having an abortion.
i know this is probably irrational and im normally quite a rational person buti canrt stop thinking it.
I feel really alone and now rarely leave teh house, and when i do, i just get really wrecked smokign drugs and drinkng spirits.
I cry all the time and cant stop myself.
i just feel so shitty and cant find any joy in doing anything.
I dont know what to do to sort myself out
im so confused.
if anyone can give me any advice that would help so much
thanks
xxxx
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Horrible things have happened in your life. It's normal, natural and completely human for you to feel horrible.
Sometimes a bit of depression is actually the only rational way to respond to what is going on in your life! It sounds like right now you have a lot of very genuine and real pain to work through. Don't beat yourself up because you are hurting. Its okay to hurt and it's okay to be confused. What has been happening to you lately is probably one of the most hurtful and confusing things you will ever have to experience.
Keep your grasp on reality. If you know some of the thoughts you are having aren't rational, then you are actually in a good place mentally, even though it doesn't feel that way at all. That means you are here with us, all us other people in this world, experiencing the world with us. Keep examine your thoughts and looking at reality around us. If you loose that connection you'll loose everything worth having. If you can hold on it, youâ??ll find your way back to happiness again.
You sound smart enough to know that the drugs and drinks can't really help. They will only prolong the suffering and ruin the best thing you have going for you: A brilliant and caring mind.
Find someone you can talk to. Not necessarily someone with great advice, but someone who will listen. A teacher, a counselor, a relative, a parent, anyone you feel you can really open up to and give yourself that opportunity to work through your thoughts and feelings out loud. Write them down. Keep track of what makes sense and what doesnâ??t. Write down what you want for your future and for the people you love.
Keep your eyes open. Keep thinking and looking forward. Think of life as a path that your feet have already been set too, now all you can do it walk it. Don't stop. Keep going. Itâ??s worth it.
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I am very sorry that you have had to go through all of this, ecspecially so young. Your friend's death was not your fault, many people have abortions. It was your choice and you shouldn't feel guilty, the baby probably wouldn't have had a good life, you would be in school.. it's probably for the better. Spend a lot of time with your friends and if you talk about the loss of your friend, it might make you feel much better. Don't blame yourself. I really hope that everything gets better for you.
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You should get some counseling. When you take something a way like a baby it wrecks you mentally. Its nowhere near your fault that your friend died. You did what you thought was right. Drinking and doing drugs isn't going to make anything better, its just going to make your more depressed. You should live for your friend. Think about what your friend would want for you. And your parents fighting, that's between them. You should even worry about that.
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