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omg i'm freaking out!
This will be long and I apologize, but it's a long story. I have good grammar, I promise. :] (and yes, this is about a guy)
Me = 18/f
Him = 17/m
Ok, we'll start 2 years ago where it all began. His name is Drew and I forget how I met him hahah. But we had lunch together and we slowly started liking each other. We would feed each other french fries and flirt a lot and everyone kept saying "Why don't you guys just go out?" and we'd just look at each other and laugh. We had an AIM conversation in which we basically told each other we liked each other and he asked me to the Snowball. As it turned out, they cancelled it. :[ And nothing else really happened that year, except the same old flirting. At this point, he usually wore a black t-shirt and jeans and had a longer haircut. Not a lot-long, it was above his shoulders and kinda wavy.
Now we get into last year. I hadn't talked to him all summer and when I came back to school, I was surprised to find that he cut his hair short and kinda spiky and dressed completely preppy. I didn't talk to him much during the first couple of months. Then Homecoming was coming around and I know guys are supposed to ask girls, but I ended up asking him, because we sort of starting talking again (as in saying "hey" in the hallway and stuff). But he already had a date. Obviously, I was a bit crushed and ended up just going w/ 4 of my friends. I got to talk to him once during the dance and got a cute pic of him, but then I left to go hang out w/ my friends. We went out in the courtyard to hang out and eat popcorn and I started crying and saying how much I wanted him. Pathetic, I know, but it was how I honestly felt. After that, we hardly talked much the rest of the year. He was hanging out w/ a different group of friends, but we still had the occasional "hey" in the hallway.
Now the most recent and confusing paragraph hahah. This is this school year. Again, we didn't talk much during the first few months. At the time, I had a boyfriend of 4 months, but we broke up because he told me he was bi, and I wasn't comfy w/ that, if you know what I mean. I'm not a homophobe if that's what you're thinking, it was just weird dating him after that. So almost as soon as I broke up w/ him, I went out w/ another guy, but it didn't last long. I also requested to be Drew's friend on myspace, but we never commented on each other's profiles or anything. Then, out of the blue, he sent me a comment saying "This might sound weird, but I actually kind of miss you". Cute, rite? So we started commenting back and forth and he gave me his number and told me to call him. I did, and for not talking in practically forever, it wasn't awkward at all. He even started talking about the past and how he wondered if we would have dated, had the dance not been cancelled. He got kind of excited and was like, "You wanna go out now?" And we started laughing and then we're like, "Wait, we just started talking hahah". So after that, we texted nonstop for 3 days straight and it was really nice. He told me he had a number of crushes, but that the biggest one was me. I thought maybe we had a chance to go out. Then we started talking about going out and he said that there was only one thing holding him back. And it was because of my friends. A couple of them are gay (a guy and girl) and some are kind of annoying (I'm not the most popular person, but I do love my friends hahah) And he said that his friends made fun of my friends sometimes and he was afraid of what they would say if he went out w/ me. Kind of egotistical rite? Like I said, he had a different group of friends now who were more popular and I guess it got to his head. It pretty much pissed me off, but I didn't say anything, just that I understood. But after that, we stopped talking again. Except when he saw me in the hallway, he would always smile and say "hey". And we gave each other the occassional pic comment on myspace (He always said I was cute and all). That was around December. So from December until the end of April, we would sometimes say "hey" in the hallway and have the occassional nice times when we got to talk for a little bit, like at the school musical (He was in it, and I was an usher w/ some of my friends). Then prom came around (May 4). Near the end of the night, he asked me to dance (I was ecstatic hahah but didn't let it show). It was really nice, but then he had to go, so he gave me a hug said good-bye and smiled. A couple weeks went by, in which not much happened.
Now the final phase of this question. A little less than a week ago, I had a dream about him. To keep it short, at one point, he asked for a hug, so I hugged him and he gave me a kiss on the cheek (a very nice one, I might add ;]). I flipped out, once I woke up and discovered it was only a dream. And now, ever since then, I've been going crazy. It's like my feelings for him exploded, like an exponential growth, if that makes sense. I've been going crazy this past week, crying when I think about him. It's so bad. I have no idea what to do, and even prayed to God about it (although I've got no answer yet). Saturday night, though, we had another "moment" if you want to call it that. I went to the chorus concert, because a lot of my friends are in it. I came in really late, because of work, so I ended up setting against the wall in the back. I watched him and I almost started crying and I couldn't stop shaking. Once it was over, I went backstage to find my friends. I saw the usual, gave them hugs, and told them good job and all. Then Drew saw me and gave me kind of a half-hug and said hi. I went to talk to my friend Sam after that. He came back and hugged me again. And then he said it wasn't long enough and that we would have to do it again hahah. So we hugged a third time and started talking again (needless to say, I can't remember a THING we talked about). So then he left for a bit and came back wearing a viking hat w/ blonde pigtail braids on it. Being weird I guess. So I was like, "Wow.. that's attractive." So we laughed for a bit, but I had to go, so he hugged me again (:D). Today, I had finals, so our schedules were all screwed up, and I never got a chance to see him.
I casually commented him today about the viking hat, and he was online at the time, but never commented me back. :[
So of course, I'm very sad right now. My mom and friends think I might be in love, but I think that's a strong word. All I know is, I REALLY like this boy. It's killing me knowing I'm not w/ him right now. I'm freaking out. I graduate next Thursday. Tomorrow is my last day of finals and Wednesday is the senior's last day of school. I'm afraid if I don't do something now, nothing will ever happen. I'm afraid of not seeing him ever again. I feel like I can't live w/o him. I don't know what to do. I'm afraid if I tell him how I feel, he'll either not say anything back, or reject me, which I know I can't handle. I can't tell if he likes me or not. I'm pretty sure he does, from the way we texted back in December and some of the things that he said. But he's sending me mixed signals and I have no idea what to think or what to do. Please help me, I don't know what to say to him or what to do. And he's REALLY FREAKING CUTE!! HELPPP!!!
Thanks in advance, sorry this was so long, but I feel like I needed to tell you everything in order for you to understand more. :/ I know I've left things out, but it's long enough already. If you need more info, let me know.
Signed,
Lost and Confused. :/
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Nice grammar.
Alright. My answer doesn't really flow with your entire question, so maybe you can put it all together. I would like to start off by saying that if you tell him how you honestly feel about him and he rejects you, then he obviously wasn't worth it. What kind of friend would be completely shut off by that? If his reaction is a negative one, then don't put anymore thought into it and let go.
Since you are a year older, is it safe to assume that he is going into senior year? I don't know how far you would be going to college, so that would make things difficult in itself. You really can work around it, but its going to take a lot of commitment from both of you to make things happen.
I'm sure someone else before me said it, but you need to tell him how you feel. If you don't, you'll keep wondering for the rest of your life what could have happened if you just told him. So tell him. Don't be afraid to, because you know that you would want him to tell you if he liked you. Ever think that he might feel the same way and not say anything because he's afraid to? There is nothing wrong with taking that first step. And if he doesn't respond well to it or feel the same way, then its his loss.
By the way, what kind of signals are you sending? Whoever decided to list them or post them on Google wasn't taking everything into consideration. Part of the equation might be to figure out what signals the other person is sending off...but everyone always overlooks what kind of signals they are sending too. I'm not saying you send the wrong signals, but be careful not to send mixed signals because that might make him feel distant or more afraid to say something if he feels the same way. Don't focus on signals, because, especially for guys, its not how it always works. Maybe mixed signals represent that he has mixed feelings? Thats why you need to tell him. It will take a lot to get a relationship going if that is what you are interested in. To be honest, if you are looking for long term, then I wouldn't get your hopes up too high.
I don't want to sugarcoat things, but why did you spend months not talking when you could have just been regular friends. You could have gotten to know each other more and really see if what you feel for him is real. You were right in saying that love is too strong a word. No I'm not doubting that what you feel is strong, but I don't see how you have both been through enough together - both good times and bad times - to call it love. ..at least if its there it isn't completely mutual. They say they are your friends because you've spent great times together, and best friends because you've gone through hell together. Tell him how you feel but don't be afraid of his reaction. If he doesn't feel the same way or responds, then just let go of it. If he can't accept you at that point in your friendship, then how can things develop into something further? Think things through and don't hold back - a quiet tongue is the quickest way to a heavy heart. Hope that helped and good luck.
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wow.... i must say you put a lot of time and effort into this ... this guy must be reaaally special.....
anyway.... what i kind of notice from this is that you liked the romance at the bgining... and once it started to die down you began to miss it.... guys don't usually react that way to such situations (we tend to more!)... most of them stay balanced... it doesn't mean he doesn't have feelings for you (we'll get to that in a min)... i am just assuming you obviously have more for him. you're kind of like me.... lol even with the way you needed to include ALL the details in (hehe my friends roll their eyes when i start.. kidding!) i get real close to a guy friend and we're fine .. then i get feelings when he begins to flirt...and i don't do the first move because i believe he should do it. and at that point it really doesn't matter because i am kind of indifferent... after however, when i know i won't stand a chance or that i've lost it i begin to act madly crazy in love...... and get so caught up when it's too late and so get rejected if i finally do something... so basically i personally think it's too late ... something should have been done from the beginning if you really wanted a relationship... however, it's not to late to say something... at least so you don't regret stuff...
cure?! hmmmm... well what i did... after about 2 or 3 regrets (with diffrent guys) i finally went up to my last crush (he was leaving for good) and told him how i felt and that i want to give it a shot.... needless to say i got rejected.... but he was decent about it and we still hung out... i even made sure we spent all that day and night together so i don't feel awkward and drift (from embarrassment).... we went swimming that day and partied all night then spent the night at a friends...we aren't very close now but we are still friends... and now i am seeing someone amazing..... so good news.... it's not the end of the world.... you're just experiencing what i call the fantasy buildup syndrome.... it'll go away i promise!
the point is......i think you owe it to yourself to at least tell him what you want... you'll either live questioning what could have been.... orrrr you'll live knowing the result of what telling him would mean... who knows it could be a yes... leading to a summer fairytale :)))) hehe
i don't blame you for being confused... your situation is the worst... for even i find myself hung up on it every now and then and at that given moment you become so blurred you can't think straight... what you need to do is consider every solution... your gut is a bit hazy and so is your judgment... listen to both and you won't go wrong.. don't risk things and do what makes you feel good. and think about how you'd feel with every outcome you can imagine... bad? then avoid it....
hope this helps....
guluck!
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those girls answered your question really... its soo true if you like him enough to make you cry that meens you really must love him.. it sounds like you love him. but anyways i think the best thing to do is definantly tell him everything you pretty much told us summarized to him.. I know you think he may reject you and im not gonna make any promises yeah he might and yet he might not.. but putting your feelings out on the table and walking away with nothing is way better than walking away with all of those feelings stuck inside of you .. you dont want to go about your life always thinking oh what if.. even if you do move on he will most likely always be in your thoughts.... In my opinion he seems like the type of guy who will give it a shot.. once again tho if he doesnt it will be much easier to get over him knowing what his feelings are.. but anyways.. about his friends hes graduating your graduating so if he did think that (which he deffff. didnt meen it in a mean rude way) its all over anyways becuase those friends hes not gonna see as often because of college so he wont have to worry about them being mean and if theyre graduating and they do make fun of your friends theyre just plain immature for their age because at that age your supposed to be more accepting .. but he also meant it in a way that he doesnt want to loose his friends but he doesnt want to loose you kinda thing.. im sure the things his friends say he probbaly doesnt agree if he likes you. i really think you should give this a shot soon the next time you see him as a matter of fact be like i really wanna talk to you dont get scared.. something like that because after all ... its not like your doing all the chasing hes come up to you randomly without anyone telling him to so he must really like you..
Good luck.. tell me how it goes haha im interested i hope it all works out for the best!!
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You're both graduating. You might never see eachother again. And there is definitely some major chemistry between the two of you. I know it seems hard, but you need to talk to him. Think how much you'll regret it if you don't. You'll always wonder what could have happened if you did.
You have his phone number, right? Just call him. Right now. And tell him that you're both going to be going off to college soon, and you really want to talk to him. Ask if you can meet him somewhere, like at an ice cream shop or town dock or something. If you meet somewhere public, try and walk to somewhere that is semiprivate. Where there won't be a million people. And just tell him how you feel. Tell him that you've known him for two years, and that you've really liked him for such a long time. Tell him how much it kills you to know that you might never be together. Tell him that it's okay if he doesn't feel the same, but you knew you'd hate yourself if you never just put your feelings out there. Just tell him everything. Ask if he remembers how great you two were in tenth grade. Tell him how much you wish that you had gone to that dance together, and how you wish you knew what would have happened if you did. Pour your heart out. And do not be afraid of rejection. Because which would you hate more? Being rejected, or going your whole life wondering what would have happened if you had told him? You'd torture yourself over it. I know it's kind of scary, but you need to do it.
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Aww im sorry you've been through all this. I think since its your senior year you got to give it a shott! Tell him EXCALTY how you feel. If he just like flat out rejects you, the good thing is , your graduating. Lets not hope that happens, but from what i read he does seem at least interested. Tell him , that if he does really like you, than he wouldnt let what his friends think effect him from being with you. YOu really have to tell him excalty how you feel. Just text him one day asking to get together and go talk. IF you like him so much that it makes you cry, you deserve to be with him, and for that to happen he needs to know excalty how you feel. The best thing i can say is just tell him excalty what youve been going through.
Good luck girl :] tell me how it turns out. I want to knoww :]] xoxo
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ok i think tell him how you feel no matter how hard you might think that is because your a senior your graduating this year so its basically no or never. you dont want to leave this year with any regrets bc if you dont say anything no you dont want to look back 5 years from now and say what if i just asked him if he felt the same. and about his whole friend situation you guys are graduating its not gonna be the same whole high school situation where different 'cliques' arent supposed to 'mix' so to wrap it up dont hold back tell him how you feel. hope i helped =]
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