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I’m 14, and I’ve been having some serious issues lately.
First of all, ever since the beginning of September, I’ve been feeling drained and empty, and all of my energy has disappeared. The only way I can move is to force myself to move; my limbs feel numb, like they’re just filled with water. My period hasn’t come for 2 months. All of my emotions are gone. I never feel happy, I only feel relieved. I don’t feel any other emotion except for sadness and extreme loneliness. Whatmore, my sense of compassion is gone, and I can’t seem to know the difference between right and wrong. I hear about brutal murders, and I don’t feel that they are bad. I remember when I was taught the importance of being a good person, but I don’t see why I should anymore.
I can feel the evil taking over me, and there’s still a little bit left in me to fight against it. My mind is engaged in fighting the evil 24/7, and because of it, I can’t eat, sleep, or do work. If I relax, I know that the evil will completely take over my mind, and I will become a criminal/human monster. Whenever I hear of a murder, I picture myself as the murderer, but the good side of me fights the evil.
Sometimes, I have an urge to do very evil things. But that little bit of sanity holds me back. I have never done anything remotely evil, though.
I know that if I let the evil consume me completely, then my life will be ruined. I will turn into a criminal or something equal to that, and everything that I’ve worked for for the first 14 years of my life will be gone.
I am not a Christian, but I believe in evil. The only thing I want right now is to know the importance of being a good person…….I don’t see why I should be a moral person right now, but I know that if I become a good person like I was before, I will definitely live a better life and be a happier person.
Seriously, I’m not an emo or anything. But how can I protect myself from the evil and become a good person again? I don’t mean by doing good things….I already do good things for people to mask my evil, but I still have evil in my brain. How can I get rid of the evil and become a genuinely good, compassionate person again? How can I re-learn compassion? I will do anything to get back to the way I was before.
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Pray and become Christian I believe you will be much better.And wanting to do evil that is the devil do not be scared.God is always with you.
Psalm 131
1 LORD,my heart is not haughty,
Nor my eyes lofty.
Neither do I concern myself with great matters,
Nor with things too profound for me
That is part of Psalm 131 and its a good scripture too.I think it would be good for you to look it up
I be praying for you
God bless you
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What you are experiencing is spiritual warfare...the kingdom of darkness wants to keep your soul. I can tell you that being a good person won't save you from this. You need Jesus to save you. He loves you so much and wants you to choose Him to be Lord and Savior of your life. He is the only answer.
The Bible is the word of God. It's Truth. Let me ask you some questions: Have you ever stolen anything regardless of value? Have you ever hated someone? Have you ever lied? The Bible says for ONE sin...that's ONE only one sin....you are on your way to hell. If you were honest with your answers to those questions, you know you have sinned at least once. But the Bible also says that if you put your faith in Jesus and trust Him as your Lord and Savior, you will be forgiven. I'm not talking about religon. I'm talking about a relationship with God.
Get yourself a Bible or download one from the internet and start reading in the book of John. [Link](Mouse over link to see full location) Read out loud...the evil around you can't stand it. Cry out to Jesus. He will hear a seeking heart.
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You don't need to be a Christian to believe in good and evil, everyone has the capacity for both. Good and evil is everywhere, influences and circumstances can push a person one way or the other, or to stay in the middle of them. I would say that most of us at some times in our lives have 'evil' thoughts, it's human nature, we're not perfect. It's what we don't do about them that is important. If we all acted on these thoughts, the world would be in more chaos than it is now.
You may have something like a chemical or hormonal inbalance, depression etc. Did something happen just before you started feeling this way that could have brought these feelings out?
I would suggest you see a doctor and explain all this to them. They are the ones who are qualified to make this judgement.
Hope that helps and that you are feeling your old self again soon.
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Try to get some good friends to talk to. This will definately get your mind off bad things, and may help you to be around other good people. Also, it will give you someone to be compassionate FOR.
This wasn't much, but I hope it helps in some way, and I hope everything works out..
Kat
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