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I hate myself for becoming depressed.
Me, always happy, always smiling..always good in school, always!! I tunred depressed. I mean I didn't really realize it until my school contacted my parents saying "she needs a therapist and probably anti-depressives" I know it sounds bad - but I used to look down on depressed people. Well, not look down on them, I felt sorry for them..because they go through stuff, but like I've been licing with my family (=HELL!) my whole life, and i still managed to be happy and have fun, so I figured "they're weak" kinda thing when they all got depressed..but now im there too. And i hate it, i hate the fact that im gonna look back ta these few years, ten years from now, and say "I hated highschool! i was miserable!" You don't understand, this has been my dream! Being a teenager i mean, i used to dream of reaching 16, having a boyfriend, lots of friends and parties..always fun, and it really looked like that was gonna happen since my whole life ive lived happily, lots of friends, lots of admirers, always good in school..and so on. SO WHAT THE HECK? This is what I've come to. I hate myself..because I know I'll walk out of this school a year from now saying "Thank G0D im out! & I'm never coming back!" And I know I wont come if there's ever a class reunion, and i completely HATE it.
Please help me, cheer me up, give me advice, do anything you can, please!
thank you so much!
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Just because you've been diagnosed with depression doesn't mean that this takes over your life, and you don't feel the same way as you used to. Your making a mountain out of a mole hill as my 8th grade english teacher used to always say. One of my siblings and one of my parents has depression. They've always had it in a way, but, that doesn't keep them from thinking, or being who they want to be. So, you have depression, big deal, you can still be happy and want to fullfill your dreams. The best way I can cheer you up, is to let you know your not the only one that feels the way you do. Your very confused with all of this. It doesn't make you less of a fantastic person just because you have depression. You hate the fact that you dont want to go to a renunion? You hate the fact that you dont want to...but, evidently you do right? So just do what you want to do. If you think about it badly, it doesnt necissarily mean its from your depression. Being depressed isnt a weakness, its a challenge that you can overcome. Yes, maybe you do need meds, but, you need to find loving friends who will be their for you during the hard times. Hope I helped. If you need any JOKES to cheer you up, let me know and I'll send you tons, because I'm skilled with the funnyness :)
-Brina
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well you shouldnt focus on the things that seem to bring you down and depress you, and if somehting bad happens then you should try to think positive, try to see the good in the situation, and mabye you should join a club, sport, or some kind of activity to get your mind off your depression. get involed. Do more things that YOU love to do, and you shouldnt settle for anything less than you think that you deserve, you c depression is all mental, you gotta get it out of your thought process.
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listen to yourself, you are feeding your head what you want. depression is psycolgical. you can't just think, "oh, im depressed." no, something, a loss of a loved one, rape, you saw something horrible in your life, enhances you sence of sorrow and fear and of not wanting to get up in the morning. i know, i had two deaths in one week and now my cousin was tested positive for luekemia. i used to want to kill myself to be done with the world. but i realized death is the easy way out and i dont know about you but you sound like a strong person. you can get over you "depression" and strive for what you want, or just give up and face a life of solitude and anxiety. the choice is yours.
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