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I have an unreasonable amount of guilt.
15/f
I cheated on my boyfriend yesterday, I don't know what made me do it. I was really turned on by my ex boyfriend he was grabbing me and flirting with me and I just grabbed him and kissed him. I stopped and walked away and started crying because I AMMMMM happy with my relationship, crazy happy but I just really felt a strong horneyness<--lol with my ex boyfriend, By the way my boyfriend hates my ex with a passion, and me and my ex live by eachother and I walk home with him.and I really feel bad about this, I wish I could go back and change what I did. but I cannot. and the guy im with right now, NO LIE i want to marry, I think i was just testing my options but i cannot i repeat i CANNOT tell my boyfriend, he will try and literally kill my ex and never talk to me again, but I didnt have sex with my ex just kissed him. and it will crush my boyfriend, it will might even drive him to commit suicide, and I need a way to forget this and how can I handle ALL the Guilt and shame that I stooped that low and showed that my low self esteem got the best of me??!!!
Please help and be easy on me I really am emotionally REALLY upset.
Thank you.
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You seem VERY sorry and upset about what you did, so I think you don`t have to tell him. Just keep telling yourself that it will be OK, and let yourself move on. I think you should also distance yourself from yuor ex so you don`t act on impulse again. I hope this works out for you. =)
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okay...well i know how your feelin because i have this friend well were A LOT closer then friends but no1 else knows...anywayz...he found out that i did somethin for some1 (i know this sounds bad but im not gunna get into it) and it was killing me that i had did wut i did even tho me and this other kid arent bf/gf...really i just felt REALLY bad because i know how i would feel if it were him who did the same thing to me, so yea...i told him and i did it kinda in person so he knew i meant i was sorry and knowing that it hurt him hurt me even more and im sure the same thing would go for anyone if you REALLY love him and he REALLY loves you back..and you are really and truly sorry and YOU know there is 100% chance you would NEVER EVER do something like that again..id give it the shot and let him know because even if he gets mad and you guys break up at leat you told him the truth and tried to make things better...but i guess it all depends on how you look at it and what kind of person your bf is..you should know him better than a lot of people so yea..
PS: dont tell him your sorry if you think you even have a .1% chance of doing it agian...because that means your really not sorry...but yea..good luck
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If you cheat on someone once, you will do it again. Obviously your current relationship isn't as good and you aren't as happy as you have been trying to make us believe. I'm glad that you love your boyfriend, if you really do then have enough respect for him to end the relationship, you don't really have to tell him what happened though. He deserves better then you, so let him go. You can talk until you are blue in the face about how it will never happen again and how you can work it out but your relationship is already over, you just haven't realized it yet.
You are really young, it's good to go through something like this now instead of when you are much older and your relationships are more
serious. Take it as a learning experience.
Sure,if you don't want any advice, don't ask for it.
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Well I have been through this many times before. I've been both the cheater and the one being cheated on and both SUCK. Well I'll tell you a little about myself so you can compare your situation because they are similar. I was with my (now ex) bf for 7 months, but when he went on a trip to Florida, I cheated on him. Total accident to say the least. The guy was sooo HOT and everytime I was around him I wanted to kiss him so bad. But I held off and kept telling him, "I have a bf!" But one day we were hanging out and he kept flirting and flirting and we ended up kissing. I immediately felt regret and told him we should never talk again. Then I told my bf. He was devastated and told me he was going to kill himself and beat the guy up. I felt bad about what I did so I broke up with him. He was upset about it and kept begging for me back, but I told him I wanted to move on with my life. I realized after I cheated on him that I really didn't love him like I thought. (Plus I heard he had cheated on me at a party... and he didn't just kiss a girl...) Well 3 months after that I met an amazing guy and we fell in love. After a rocky on-and-off 10 months of dating, I cheated on him with the SAME guy I cheated on my last bf with! Sad but true, the attraction between me and this guy was INSANE and I couldn't help myself. We kissed and were all over eachother. I was scared to tell my bf. I LOVE him so much and I couldn't believe I did what I did. I guess I did it to get back at him, because a while before that he had cheated on me. But it was no excuse. I kept it a secret, but he thought something happened because he was hearing rumors at his school that I had cheated on him with this guy (I don't go to his school, but the guy does!) So one day he left with his friends and ended up kissing another girl at a party. She got my number from one of his friends and called me and told me he cheated on me and told her he didn't have a gf. I was heartborken and tried to get him to confess but he wouldn't. He finally fessed up and I opened up and told him what happened with me only a week before. We forgave eachother, moved past it, and things are amazing. Now the moral of the story is that your sins will find you out. Sometimes cheating makes you realize what you really care about. I realized I didn't really love the first guy I dated, and then the second guy I dated I realized I really did love. But I can't tell you to tell your bf. He very well might try to hurt this guy. And if you really love him, then maybe keeping it a secret is the best thing you can do. But if you really love your bf, then you must, MUST leave this ex behind. Stop hanging out with him, because it is obviously leading you into major trouble! It will be hard, because obviously you guys still have feelings for eachother and are really into eachother, but you love your bf. So stick by him. Your ex is not worth your time and might screw up a really good relationship. So steer clear of him and focus on your relationship with your bf. Exes are nothing but trouble, believe me. So forget about him and move on. Flirting may be fun but it is also cheating when it is taken too far. Hopefully this experience will help you learn that cheating isn't the right way to learn how much you care about someone. Honestly, if you can't resist your ex, then stay away from him. Walk with someone else when you go home. And straight up tell him, that what you did was a mistake and that it never should've happened because you love your bf. He will probably be mad, but that way he will understand the boundaries and will understand why you guys should stop doing what you are doing. I hope everything works out for you. Sorry my answer is so long by the way. Sometimes I get carried away lol. Best of luck!
~Sherah
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