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im losing it
Hey. This is probably the wrong catagory... sorry. Ok when i was younger i was in an abusive relationship (VERY VERY YOUNG) ((like kid young)) so anyways i grew up kinda withdrawn and alone... i have a very close circle of friends now and a great boyfriend. We've been together for 10 months and i love him so much. Thing is, im a psycho. Honestly. I hear voices in my head and their shouting, always shouting... i can hardly understand them and i have to yell out to make them stop. Im one of the people you see walking down the street alone talking to themselves. I scream out loud randomly for what seems like no apparent reason. I used to be scared of commitment. I used to go out with people, get through all the hard stages, get through the awkwardness, the sex... and breakup with them. Just as they were starting to like me... I couldnt help it. The guy im with now, i actually love. Ive been holding up this barrier of defense so i couldnt get hurt for so long and now its down and i am SO SCARED!! im all vunerable now. He can hurt me. He says he loves me all the time, but i get paranoid and sometimes i get so jealous and i think i annoy him but he puts up with it cuz he loves me. He says he wants to stay with me forever and get married and have kids. But i think im gunna drive him crazy. How can he love me? Im a wreck! Please help. Soon. X (im 15 and female, my boyfriend is 17 and MALE. Lol)
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Lol, babe, listen up. Crazy people are great. I'm crazy. Just cuz you hear voices doesn't mean you're loosing anything. It means your a skitzo. They have pills and therapy for that. As for your paranoia...the reality is, that will never go away. You'll ALWAYS be scared that you're going to get hurt. But here's a question you need to ask yourself: If I constantly baracade myself in the safety of my walls...am I going to miss out on life? You're going to. The best part of life is being in love. And even though at the end, you might get hurt really bad, you had the chance to actually love someone and to be loved. There are aspects about you that he loves and enjoys...and I can bet your paranoia and craziness is some of them. Trust me babe, it's better to love and get hurt, than to not love at all. Then, you'll go through life wondering..."What if?" Don't allow that. Do it, and be proud and happy that you took that step.
*I love my crazy ways*
Abby
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Well, first lets get through the lovin and hurting part. If you fall for him that much and he right now is catching you then fall. Let him catch you. Let him be there for you and help you. He sounds like a really great guy and would do anything to help someone as special as you. Don't tihnk about what could happenen or what might happen, think about right now. Think about how wonderful he is and how happy you are to be with him. I honestly think you are a wonderful girl just from your question and im sure you are not a wreck!!! :-)
Hope that helped you, if you need anything else just ask -.k.-
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If he truly loves you he will be there for you through thick and thin. The thick part might have to be going to a pyschiatrist who can hopefully help you get rid of these voices and be able to be that perfect girlfriend you've always wanted be.
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Well, I think that the main problem here is that you are suffering from a mild form of schizophrenia. Usually when anybody hears that they get all excited and defensive, but please be open to this. It would really help you to understand what's going on in your mind. It seems like you feel different than other people and like a sort of outcast. It's natural to feel like you don't deserve how much love your boyfriend gives you, but if you were more confident in your own self it might help quite a bit. It's wonderful that he is so supportive of you, he sounds like quite a find. My advice for you is to see a Psychiatrist. I think that if you were put on a low dose of medication so that the voices went away, you'd feel a lot better about yourself and your relationships with others. Please consider this. Being analyzed by a professional will help you so much. I hope that you feel better soon and good luck. :)
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Oh dear! You poor thing!!
Okay, it sounds to me as though one of two things may be happening here. One of them is more scientific and one is a little more 'new age'.
1) You could be suffering from a form of mental health disorder. I know it sounds like such an awful thing to suggest but from what you describe, it sounds possible. Now, if this is a possibility, you should know that there are a LOT of other people (even celebrities) that suffer from similar problems and the voices that you hear are totally normal. I believe that all such illnesses can be controlled with medication but as I am not a doctor, this is just a general guess based on your description. The other possibility is;
2) A long shot....but I have heard of people with similar symptoms who have later found out they possess a psychic ability. As they have got older, the voices have grown clearer and given them messages for people. Granted, this possibility is less likely but I wanted to make you aware it may not be a mental health issue.
To be honest, either way, I think it is very important you see a GP about this, mainly because the first option is very possible. Please try not to worry or feel embarrassed or ashamed. There is also no need for you to worry that you will sectioned in some mental institute, as sufferers usually only receive such treatment when considered a danger to themselves or others. There's nothing to worry about.
As far as the boyfriend is concerned, know that he loves you and is only going to be concerned for your wellbeing. A little bit of insecurity is perfectly normal in relationships, especially if there have been bad ones in the past. You just need to remind yourself that he loves you and wouldn't stay with you if he wasn't sure that you were an amazing person, despite whatever problems you may have. We all have something wrong with us but there's no reason it should EVER stop us from having successful relationships when we want them. So take comfort in the fact he is still there and rather than worry about when he will go away, make the most of the fact that he hasn't gone and by the sounds of it, he isn't very likely to either!
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