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this has to do with love life family health and alot more
I just wanted to get this off my chest and I wanted to know if it seems as though I'm going through alot for my age...I'm only 13. Here goes.
I did drugs (cocaine, and pills), I was constantly getting in fights, I've been to court 11 times, arrested 3 times, longest was for 7 months, I've been taken away from my family for a little while because I needed "help", I had a boyfriend for three years,then we got into a fight because he was moving, as soon as he left my house after the arguement he got into a fight with these people, got hit in the back of the head and died before I could say sorry about the fight, I never told my parents, they still don't know about it, after that I started to get into cutting, then I tried to kill myself by doing the following : drown myself, hang myself, stab myself in the stomach, from which I now have a scar on my stomach, had to stay in the hospital for that for a couple of months, then got taken away from the family again, then after I got out I tried to shoot myself but accidently left it on that safety thingy and couldn't get the nerve to do it again, I tried to get an ex whom was the boyfriend at rhe time to shoot me and he almost did 'til his mom walked in, I got taken away from the family again after that and was gone for about a year, he got arrested, and then I got heavier into cutting to the point where I would cut everyday even without a reason. That's when I got into the drugs then I got expelled, got sent to rader, my family now does not mention me to friend's, they tell me to my face that I'm an embarrassment, they all tell eachother they love eachother in front of me but have not once said it to me. Then I became bulimic, then anorexic, then after I stopped I found out my mom was over dosing and was bulimic and still is to this day. My brother might die at any moment because he now has heart problems and he's supposed to take medicine to help him but he doesn't take it, my parents are trying to get me sent away to korea or tennessee so I'll be out of their lives but none of my relatives in either places want me with them, I have no clue what's going on in my life anymore, my family insult me constantly, my dad and brother both hit me and I have serious health problems ( I get headaches at a minimum of 4 times a day, I pass out at least once every other week, and i throw up at least twice a week and I have no idea why) and my parents won't take me to the doctor to find out why, they've told me they hate me, and I do not understand myself whatsoever, and my parents told me pretty soon they plan on kicing me out with out a place to go and I'll just have to find out how to take care of myslef, and are trying to get me sent to a "institute" for help. And I was forced into sex because the person threathened me and I don't know if that is considered rape. Am I going through too much for my age?
Sorry it was so long...
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wow you have really been through a lot and i can't make you do anything, but you know that you have to be strong. first, try talking to your mother about it, she is your family afterall, and if she can't be there for you than try talking to your school councelor or call a psychologist. i know some people think that psychologists are a load of garbage, but they are willing to listen to you and help you become well again. you know that somewhere in the future everything is going to be better, but only you can make the decision to do so. good luck.
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No one should go through that at ANY age. I've been through most (if not all) of those things. But what I can say is: Cutting and not eating are NOT the right solutions NO MATTER WHAT, the are NEVER EVER right. You need to find a creative outlet of sorts. Like poetry. You don't have to be good with words, and they don't have to rhyme. Just let your feelings out. Here's a song I wrote for my mother:
Here I Am Without You
My words seem to have
Lost all their meaning to you
My helpless cries
Still go unanswered
And I can’t help but think
That you don’t care anymore
You’ve let me down one too many times
And I just can’t
Keep all your problems with me
I have my own, I might as well be dead
My visions is as blurry
As the thoughts in my head
And you said all that you needed
Was some time alone
You’ve taken too much
I think it’s time to come home
I sit here
And think about how much that I need you
You always were the one who was there
And now you’re gone
And I just can’t seem to keep my head straight
You raised me as the person
Who I am today
But now it seems you have more important worries
And I just can’t
Keep all your problems with me
I have my own, I might as well be dead
My visions is as blurry
As the thoughts in my head
And you said all that you needed
Was some time alone
You’ve taken too much
I think it’s time to come home
I want you here with us
But sometimes
To ask for that
It seems like way too much
I need you here with me…
So you see, not spectaular, but it still helps me a lot to get all of that out.
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YOU'RE ONLY 13! Yes you are wayy too muc for your age. You need to settle down with your life. Stop getting into institutes. All of your actions ARE YOU! They are from you and you can change them if you want. Get back to me soon.
--Praying for you.
--Hugsnkisses<3
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Yes, this is alot for only a thirteen year old. I suggest finding an adult, someone you can absolutley trust or even a friend and spill everything about you life to. ( A journal would be PERFECT, because it won`t tell anyone that shouldn`t hear whats going on with you, plus you`ll get your feelings out. ) Just remember, God loves you, even if your family members won`t admit they love you, they do. They are all just going through a hard time. I suggest seeing a counseler ( maybe at your school ? ) and talking to him/her. Tell her you want to turn your life around and your absolutley serious about it. Remeber: YOU HAVE 80+ YEARS LEFT OF YOUR LIFE, DONT END IT NOW. Stop the cutting, any drugs, or anything bad like that, trust me, using them won`t help you. Suicide = not the answer. I love you, even if I am just a friend over the internet. One life lost to suicide is one too many.
After you get help from you, trying gettin help for your mom. Once she`s seen how much you've imporoved, she`ll want to improve herself. You and her can work through this hard time together. As for your brother, let him know just how much YOU love him even if he doesn`t admit it back. You don`t want to have to feel guilty about never tellin him you love him. Make sure you tell everyone in your family your serious about starting over, you want to bring a new improvment to your life. Tell them how much you love them, and need them in this time of your life.
As for you boyfriend, He`s probably looking down on you right now. Just remember: You`ll see him again someday in Heaven, he could be lookin down on you and he knows exactly how sorry you are. There is nothing you can do to turn back time, you must move forward. Live your life to its best so when you get to Heaven you`ll have a great story to tell to your Boyfriend.
If you are a religious beliver: You can go to church. Everyone there will be more then happy to help you, especially God. Even if you don`t belive in him, He`s there. Trust me, He can get you through anything. Praying works. Church could become your second home, possible someone there may take you in until your family issues are fixed.
Best of luck. I love you. remember: you`ve got all you life ahead of you, don't end it know. There is help, there is hope.
PLEASE inbox me at ANY time if you need anymore help. <3
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You are definitly going thru alott for your age. Im 13 too and omgsh! your parents are treating you like dirt... which they should try to help you with all of this... i hope everything gets better. maybe try to talk to your parents about how they are treating you and they maybe the problem that makes you wanna cut yourself. =( keep me updated please
amanda
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I have never in my life heard a story such as yours and my heart goes out to you. I thought that my life was a total drag. YES! you are going through much to much for only 13! I don't know how it feels to get hit, or get forced into sex, or have my parents say they hate me. Please, i can think of times myself when i say to myself ' i feel like dying' or 'i wish my life ended here' but you have like....what...80 years ahead of you? Don't waste your life.. please you will at least get the chance to make things better for yourself if you go see the police or something. parents arent allowed to abuse kids and you have the rite to stand up for yourself. adn you can most definetly sue the person who forced sex on you. thats illegal and they could go to jail. i promise that if you make a great effort, things WILL get better i PROMISE just don't give up don't give up don't give up. if you try your hardest to make things better and make a true effort, everything will be behind you sooner or later. I hope i helped, good luck, take care of yourself, be careful!
Christina
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Wow. This certainly isn't something you'd usually read about for a 13-year-old. and it is definately so sad to hear this. We'll start off with the cocaine and pills and go in order. OK, everyone is bound to try things. But do you still do them? (im not trying to lecture you) but that is really not the thing to be doing. I think that you should ease up on that, especially because you have so much more life to live. you really don't need drugs to make yourself happy.Everyone gets into fights, sometimes you just need to know when to stop and control your feelings, prevent a lot of potential damage to happen.OK Cutting. This is a hard subject for me too talk about. I have been cutting for two years now. & i regret starting. Cutting is not a thing to start or you need help with that. It is such an awful thing to do, and I know I sound hypocritical. I think you need to get your life in order hun, there so much going on in your life and its really sad. I know its hard to quit some of these things, but you have too. If you want your family back, your education, your friends. YOu need to get it together.I am sorry about the death, death is always hard to deal with. You seem very mature and old ( if that sounds right) for your age. you had a boyfriend for 3 years thats a commitment at so young.Suicide, is really not the answer. I don't know if i can stress that enough. and I hope you won't try that again. Not with a gun, a rope or water. Don't kill yourself. Belimia nad anorexia are just ike cutting in a way. But this is nothing you should do, and i don't want to lecture you but it is so awful how you have all these problems and don't have any help going thru them. You need to try to get back into school. I think you should call child safety services. Because your dad or your brother should NOT hit you and you don't deserve that. No one should call you an embarrasment, thats so mean, and i can't believe that they don't say they love you. maybe thats all you need. Support from your family. am sorry to hear about your mother and your brothers heart problem. thats so sad.You need to get to the doctor somehow, you could be seriously ill. and that would be bad. IT IS RAPE.and you need someone to talk to. You are going thru way to much for a 13 year old, or anyone should go thru. Get HELP PLEASE! And talk to me whenever.
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Youre certainly going through alot.
&& i know how that is. i keep myself through each day telling myself, that all i really have is myself. i try to stay away from the drugs and before i do everything i think about it. My family are drug/alchohol addicts and abusers..i've gotten myself up on my feet. just try every day to get through it. i've learned to deal with my health problems myself. what you actually can do-only if you want- is call child services. they will put you with a different family-but thats something you need to think about 'do i really want this'. you'll never know whats going to happen tomorrow. and try as much as possible to stay away from your family. try staying after as long as possible in school and maybe going to a friends house or something. dont try suicide because its not an answer, its an escape. "we were meant to live for so much more"
--for now just be true to yourself and try not to let anyone let you down&be strong. Stand up for yourself. You've been through so much you should already have strength built up inside of you. You can also go to a school counsiler and tell them whats going on because, in my opinion, this is pretty serious. I went through a suicidal stage in my life too and ive gotten out of it and i am so glad i did because honestly, theres a lot to live for. It's hard to talk to other poeple about these kinds of things because it seems like everyone around you has a pretty good family so try talking to an adult, or instant message me on aim:slipping awayx96 if you want someone to talk to.
sorry if my answer doesnt help that much, i just wanted to say that youre not alone and that things will get better. good luck child. <33
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