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Getting rid of my crush
God....I really can't believe I am this pathetic to ask for advice. (No offence)
Okay to start off... you know Alexander right? The one that I have metioned? (If you haven't checked who I am yet I would suggest that you do) Well all has been okay...well I was getting really worried because he hasn't shown up for a while. To be completely honest I found it weird that I cared so much. Anyway, on thursday I had dance and I found myself getting these STUPID emotions. Okay he was a partner with a senior (Which I know for a fact he confides in) and I kept getting these...butterflies in the pit of my stomach. I also couldn't get my eyes off him and I knew that was stupid at the time to feel that way...and I finally relised that I have a crush. (I am ashamed of myself. I have vowed to myself that I would have no more crushes since the Keagen Christensen crush. A very bad experience) Nothing happened that day but saturday at Chorography...This is embarrassing...Well I somehow got to be everywhere Alex was in the Advanced 1 dance...okay so like he was always making jokes for me to laugh at and me being the girl with the crush I laughed and enjoyed myself...during breaks I sat down with him because no one else was and I know that was stupid but I just can't ignore Alex when all the girls are sooo mean to him. (Me=Idiot)
In the next dance..heh.. We had to line up tallest to shortest and I was the second tallest the person next to me happened to be Alex. Big Surprise huh? I think not.
He wouldn't leave me alone. Seriously. Like he kept poking me with his ellbow and leaning into me. *Rolls eyes* We were told to be quiet, and no talking or we would get in some serious trouble. (The advanced 1s were standing for about a half hour before we had any dancing taught.) Well Alex wouldn't leave me alone so I kinda started to ignore him...big mistake. He had me laughing really hard and I told he would get everyone in trouble if he didn't stop and then (and I'm not kidding) about 10 girls told alex to stop it. At that time he had my hand and was trying to crush it (He still hasn't learned that I'm stronger) and of course I was fighting to get my hand back and Stephanie turned and said "Alex stop trying to hold her hand! She doesn't like you" I have everyone believing that I hate him. he turned and said "What her? Shes ugly!" I punched him in the arm for that. The worst part is that I think he was being honest...about the part of me being ugly. I have tryed to tell myself it was just so Steph would leave him alone but I can't shake the truth. I have a full blown crush and I hate it. I HATE CRUSHES!
Okay does he like me? Its just my silly girl crush playing games with me right? and I can't just ignore Alex because well....I'm like his only friend besides the senior and she is in advanced 2. I would like to get rid of this crush and I know they do disapate but really I want to feel normal. Not to have stupid dreams and butterflies.I actually look forward to seeing him. and I want that to be gone. Crushes are stupid and I shouldn't have them.
Okay now that I have made a complete fool of myself...any advice? You will have to excuse me if I misspelled anything or didn't write right. Remember I am dumb. I have no good schooling.
AG
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Well, by the way that he was trying to "crush" your hand - I am going to say that I think he likes you. What he said to Stephanie was only this whole natural "deny everything" reaction. Besides, you totally aren't ugly so I fail to believe that he would even think that. If you like Alex, which you do (muwahah), then I suggest you get rid of this crush by finding out how he feels for certain. I think that your best bet in doing this will be that the next time you talk to him, somehow bring up how he called you ugly. I think that he might realize that you noticed/cared that he said that. I'm going to guess that if he reacts with something like "I'm so sorry, I was only joking etc etc" that he cares about you a lot more than friends. If he says something like "shut up I was only kidding" then maybe he still sees the two of you as close friends, and this is just joking around between the two of you.
It's all about reaction gauges. See what his reaction is if you bring up his comment.
You aren't dumb! Remind me to kick your ass for such comments. :P
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