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I never really had what I always wanted.
I asked you for some advice quite a few months back and I got a very good response for what I needed to get out in the open. Things are a little different now than then, though. Looking in from the outside I'm sure people are confused as to why I should have any reason to complain about my life. I still have so much more than I could have ever asked for. Two jobs, I'm graduating high school next month, going to the college of my dreams this fall, a good car, I recently got casted as the lead role in a movie, I'm always out and about, almost never sitting at home with nothing to do. However - when it comes to any sort of trust in people, I have none. I recently lost the two people who I considered the closest friends I've ever encountered in my life. One, Johnny, is no longer talking to me because his girlfriend told him not to talk to myself and someone he's known since they were little, John, after we told him about her cheating on him. (We tried to get through to him that she's controlling him but he's become obsessed with her, it's kind of frightening, actually.) My other so-called best friend, Elaine, moved away and has barely contacted more than 3 times since. The few months prior to her leaving I was picking up on a lot of insincerities in what she would say to me and the way she acted. Yes, I have people I hang out with but I don't trust any of them worth a damn. I'm so sick of always being in a crowd of people, the one cracking all the jokes and making everyone laugh, but inside feeling so alone. I try my best to make everyone else happy but no one tries to do the same for me. No one seems to understand the concepts behind friendship, trust, love, caring... I'm so tired of it. I've been breaking down more than usual because of this. How can I let go of this anger that's building in my heart for humans in general, just sit back and wait for a day when someone will come into my life worth trusting rather than searching so hard for something that's not there?
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Maybe give some free advice about: Friendship?
Trusting people takes time, And if your friend's girlfriend is going to tell him to stop talking to you, Ask yourself if it was really worth it. Maybe it's time to find a new croud. New friends. Loosing friends that move away is very hard- and no doubt it does hurt. Ask yourself why you hang with the people you do if you cant trust them. In friendship, Trust plays a big part. And not just in friendship- in any relationship.
Good luck!
JustJamie
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you can never really trust someone but you should be around the people you have FUN with. people that make YOU laugh.
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