i feel like im living a lie! Im not tyring to brag or anything but my social life at school is good! i have the greatest friend and i laugh all the time and stuff.. im pretty well knownd specially for being happy and laughing all the time!!
but the lie is that im not.. I HATE myself! i go home a cry myself to sleep almost everynight! its because of what my brother did to me! i have flashbacks and he still bothers me and when he touches me and when i think about it i break down and cry!
i mean i used to cut myself! I DONT ANYMORE! and the thing is like it gets soo bad at home that i wanna comit suiced BUT I DONT WANT TO DIE! i just want the pain of what im going threw at home to stop!
it makes my stomach feel all weird and makes me sick to my stomach and its feels hard to breath!
am i depressed?? should i see like a therpist??
because like suiced I DONT BELIEVE IN but its on my mind alll the time!
and there is no way at school people could no about this! it would be like the BIGGEST SHOCKER are school well the people who know me has seen
Additional info, added Sunday April 16 2006, 7:24 pm: sorry i thought of something else!!
but yeah its driving me CRAZYYYYYYYY like to the point where i get so emotional or angry that i get pissed off easily and my friends are like WOW WHAT YOUR PROBLEM!!
and about therypy does it cost? and like i think i should go but i dont want my friends knowing! and I DEFFENTLY DONT WANT MY DAD TO KNOW since he's part of the problem AND SO IS MY BROTHER**who is the main problem** and if my brother knew i could never live it down cuz he would tell people! . Want to answer more questions in the Health & Fitness category? Maybe give some free advice about: Mental health? military45 answered Thursday April 20 2006, 9:37 pm: go to the school counsler talk to her if ur bro did what i think he did tell the counsler she can talk to him to. go over to ur friends alot to. spend the night. stay a way from them but not so much that thell notic but enough they wont hurt u. [ military45's advice column | Ask military45 A Question ]
Nallie answered Monday April 17 2006, 12:26 am: Hi,
I am sorry you are having such a terrible time in your life. Yes, you should see a therapist. The visits are confidential and you don't have to tell anyone. You will have to call around to ask about rates and payment methods, but most will not turn you away. If your friends already know that you get angry easily and they find out about therapy..just tell them it's for that reason. You don't have to explain. There is no shame in seeking help when you didn't do anything wrong..which it sounds like you didn't, you were the victim here. However, you can become a survivor. You don't have to feel like you have described, you can get better. [ Nallie's advice column | Ask Nallie A Question ]
Nadia answered Sunday April 16 2006, 11:28 pm: I've been there and back many times with stuff like this. I've attempted suicide, hurt myself, you name it i've probably done it!
But you've got to stand strong. Talking to some one will definatley help. i dont believe in therapists that much. i've had bad experience with them, so i prefer to just turn to someone who understands and will listen, and wont give me medication, because i dont believe in that eitehr.
If you dont feel confident relying on any of your friends, i'll be happy to be someone to listen to you. i've helped out a fair few people.
but my advice is to find someone who u WANT to talk to, dont force yourself to open up to anyone you dont want to. this will only make you feel worse.
if you ever feel like crying though, dont try to stop yourself, let yourself do it. then afterwards try to cheer yourself up with a funny movie or just something u enjoy doing. write yourself a happy list, because thats what i have!
hope it helped, give me a shout if you wanna talk or anything.
Nadia. [ Nadia's advice column | Ask Nadia A Question ]
jammy12 answered Sunday April 16 2006, 8:05 pm: I feel sorry for you!
The best advice anyone on this site can give you is that you need to see a therapist. You can get a free one iff u want at a crisis centre or through a school counsillor. I think you should go and see one...and if u don't want your parents knowing tell them you're takin some afternoon activity and go and see one! [ jammy12's advice column | Ask jammy12 A Question ]
dumblondedancer1 answered Sunday April 16 2006, 8:03 pm: okay.
i am ALWAYS know to be happy and chipper.
but i know how ya feel.
i dont have any of those problems.
but if i am ever sad.
everyone thinks its odd.
i dont no what to say.
and sorry this isnt advice.
but GOOD LUCK:] [ dumblondedancer1's advice column | Ask dumblondedancer1 A Question ]
TheTeenGirl answered Sunday April 16 2006, 7:59 pm: You aren't living a lie. I just want you to know that just because you have a rocky life, it doesn't mean that you can't smile or laugh, or have fun with anyone. You are a girl who has a good life in school.
You do really need to get a grip on this issue, because crying every night and wishing you weren't alive anymore is not a way to live. You are having flashbacks of something you'll probably never be able to erase out of your mind, and you need help to cope with that. Since your family isn't something you can go to for help, you need to get to a friend you can trust. Confide in a friend to tell your issue, I know it will be hard, but you'll feel better knowing that someone else knows what's happening.
I know that you don't want your friends to know, but you should at least let one you can come stay with for a while or something until you can work things out. Therapy can be costly, but it can help you. If you can't get money somehow to get to therapy, then I think you need to see the school counselor. The idea of letting out the problem probably scares you, but you need to get out of your house. This is a horrible situation and you have to get out of all of this.
I will put it to you this way, if you are truly that girl who has a good social life and is a good friend to all of her other friends, then be a good friend to yourself by pulling yourself out of misery. If you need anymore help or concerns, don't be afraid to ask me in my inbox.
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