I've always known something was wrong with me. I had issues with self harm for a long time. I still have suicidial thoughts. I feel the need to drink and smoke when feeling down. My newest being a need to "binge eat". But I tried to stop all that, and change. It all made me hate myself more than I already do but I snapped a bit today. Just ate a take out carton full of fries, grilled cheese, two sloppy joes. a carton full of sweet potato fries and some funyuns. all within twenty minutes then popped a laxative. never ate a laxative after binging before... but I just grabbed the pack I had in my room (because I heard it was a quick weight loss technique)and did it. who knows why?
Anyway I know to get the help I need I'd have to go through my dad and I can't talk to my family. And I really mean I can't. I'm already the black sheep...and it's funny because I give advice on here and try to be there for people and i'm starting to wonder if maybe all the times I said it was going to be okay was me subconsciously trying to make myself believe that...
I know it doesn't seem like there is a question in here...i guess i kinda just needed to vent. I have no one to talk to.
Its totally fine. If you just want things out, that is also why we are all are here. Sometimes its best just to let it all out, instead of just having an outright question. It seems you know what you need to do, its just how to go about it. If you have a question I'm here, and if you just want to vent I'm here. I know you may think that everybody will say this but you are beautiful in all aspects of the word. Sometimes its more saying that you are beautiful, that makes things come together. Just know I'm here.
Lillian Garvin
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I've already reported your site to Google and other search engines. I hope they kick your sad sorry butts off the net, or that Obama does something about sites like this, where any idiot can answer a question like "What's the fastest way to commit suicide?" I'm a reporter doing an expose, and believe me I will expose your site and others who are allowing this type of thing to occur! God help you if a parent finds the site up on their child's computer after such a suggestion is made and the teen carries out their suicide attempt in the exact manner as a teenager told them to do.
Isn't the world cruel enough? Where do you people get your values from? Or do you have any at all?
Pull out a bible and try reading it sometime!
A concerned mom
Or....become an activist and stop blaming other people for actions that another human being takes. If a mother like you would keep tabs on your kids, there would be no need for those types of questions.
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Ok so firstly I am a 17/f and a virgin. I was going out with a guy 9 months ago and he broke my hymen because he fingered me with 3 fingers but there was never any blood and it was never uncomfortable. So recently I was started going out with a new guy and I haven't done anything since the old guy (9 months ago). But when he fingered me (1/2 fingers) for the first time I instantly started bleeding. I freaked out and found it so embarrassing because it was bleeding a lot. It bled for 3 days. A few weeks later I got my actual period and it really hurt! A lot more than normal! So I decided to just ignore it. Then after my period was over and everything seemed ok we tried again and the same thing happened but worse. Please help me! I don't know what is wrong?! And its really starting to hurt!!
I will go out on a limb and say you didn't brake your hymen the first time. And I will also say you may need to go see a gynecologist to make sure everything is right. I know for a fact bleeding vary's between person to person. Though a gyno is you're best bet. Hope I helped
Lillian Garvin
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So I'm still a virgin and it's kind of a big deal.
So, out of curiosity I was wondering when did you lose your virginity (what age you were) and how did it happen?
Give details please, not on the actual sex but on how it happened. For example, don't just say 'with my first boyfriend' or 'at a house party', say exactly how it happened.
And if you're still a virgin, would you please say so too and say your age and how you feel about losing your virginity? For example, do you think you're ready to? Do you want to? Why do you want to or why do you want to wait? Do you feel pressured?
Thanks, x
I'm still a virgin! Yay! Haha. I'm 14. I'm not ready for sure. Every time I think about it, it never comes out right for some reason. Of course I want to do it, and bad!Haha. No I don't feel pressured though most of my friends aren't I feel like I have the right friends that don't tease me or anything about that.
LILLIAN
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Basically, when I was in fifth grade I began self mutilation. It's been on and off ever since then. I'm a sophmore now. When I was in sixth grade I was at my worst, I cut every day. I cut over everything, anything that somewhat upset me. Eventually one of my friends found out, told everyone and someone went to my school guidance office and they then called my parents and what not. My parents would try, they truly would. They put me in counseling but I just could not open up to them because I truly have no trust in those people.
In seventh grade, I barely ever cut. I think I did maybe about, 5 times at most. In the summer going into eighth grade I cut myself one time. During the school year I didn't cut a single time, but I did however get involved with smoking weed. Only on occasion however. Once or twice, not too bad I guess. During January of this year (2008) I was sent to the hospital for OD'ing. Suicide has always been in the picture, since the beginning of cutting.. I have had numerous attempts at suicide. But for the first time, my parents actually took notice and I spent the night in the hospital.
In ninth grade, I attempted to OD I believe twice, but I didn't let anyone know. I just wanted out. I'm no longer suicidal, in fact death scares the shit out of me. But I have begun cutting again.
I don't want to get help from strangers, my parents, friends or family. I want to get better myself because each time I would receive help from someone else, it did nothing. That last time I cut myself before I fell back into the habit was the summer of eighth grade, going into ninth. The last time cutting since I've fallen back in, less than an hour ago.
I can't help it, I truly don't know what to do. I need to stop, and I recognize that. Self mutilation doesn't solve anything, it makes things harder. I know the first step is to admit, blah blah blah. But that's not true. I need to stop, and I need to now. But I can guarantee if I don't get some sort of ways to not do it, it's going to keep happening.
I admire you so much. Some people don't know when the need to stop and when they do it's to late. Doing it alone is kinda hard. I know from some of my expierinces. So what I did was wrote to myself in my journal whenever I felt it was neccasery. Not every day cause that was lame haha but after I wrote it I tore it up so that I didn't have to remmber it again.
Lillian
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well, heres the story. my boyfriend and i had planed to have sex saturday night, the first time for both of us, but it went all wrong. he couldnt get turned on enough so we had to stop trying. now because of that he hates himself, he says to me that everytime he thinks of it he just wants to cut his throat. i dont know what to do anyore :( he wont let me help him and he refuses to talk to me about it face to face. he also wont tell me whats wrong. its now tuesday and all ive found out is that when i was trying to get him excited with oral sex he just felt nothing. he doesnt tell me what he's thinking either, i dont know what he likes and what he hates cause he wont tell me, he just lays there doing nothing. sometimes i can get him excited but not this time. is this normal for some guys to feel like this? he told me last night that he just needed to sort himself out and refuses to let me help him :( i really want to help him though, i feel like all of this is my fault. do you think he might be feeling like im pushing him into sex too soon? he wont tell me anything so i dont know :( is this normal or not? please give me heaps of advice.
by the way, he's not gay and he's not going out with someone else, i know this because i know him too well.
thanks
im 16f he's 17m
um....Lets see here. Sex is not the thing you plan. It kinda just happens when you both feel it. But you guys are young. So I wouldn't incourage it now. But he'll be ready when he's comfortable.
Lillian
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ok. im going to get straight to the piont. me and my boyfriend use protection (birth control)but i didnt realize that the medication i was on causes bc not to work. so we usually use a condom but we ran out. my last period was aug 30 and i ovulated the 10th through 15th of september. we had sex on the 7th 10th and 15th (and he came in me)
i have been feeling sick having cramps headaches my boobs have been hurting ive been gasy and feeling sick. idk if im pregnant because i have felt all of those things before without being pregnant. i am waiting for my period on the 28th of september but i just wanted some advice on the issue. has anyone had an experience like this pregnant or not? thank you for the help :)
Go ahead and take a test. Never heard of all these symptoms coming so soon, but you never know. Every one is different. And try to use a condom, not trying to be a parent here. Wish the best of luck to you.
Lillian
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