prob. wrong categorie, idk..
15/f
basically, i hate myself.
i hate my life and everything about it therefor i hate myself.
i have absolutly NO real friends.
my family is so f**ked up its not even funny..
i mess up BAD with every nice, decent guy i meet, screw up every relationship i'm in..
my parents hate me, legit.
i dont wanna tell you my life story and all the reasons im like this.. and im not trying to be dramatic, i seriously do have a bad life. the only thing i can think good of about me is that i'm pretty. but it doesnt even matter because people dont think i'm pretty when they look at me, they think im a miserable, mental, bitch.
i dont mean to dump all this on you, but i clearly have some depression issues.. that have been diagnosed by my therapist.. and my mom 'doesnt believe in depression medicine' so i cant even take a friken prozac to make me happy. >:o
ive even tried turning to religion..
and i have no one to talk to..
idk what to do with myself anymore..
the other day i ran away from the school and went missing for 2 days.. clearly im going insane and need help. i have counceling.. doesnt work..
anyone know how i can make myself happy? im sick of being like this and crying 247.. someone be my friend..?
first of all i wish to say i am sorry that you are depressed and hate yourslef. that is an awful thing to say, if you havent told your therapist about you self image issues you need to because your feelings can get a lot worse than just disliking who you are. if your therapist wanted to perscribe you to medication he/she should be the one to talk to your parent about it because it is your mental heath they are dealing with. i would like to be your friend. my email is superbrie@yahoo.com
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I'm a 15 year old male living in Australia and attending junior high school.
I've noticed that I don't feel emotions properly. Sure, stuff happens to me that should provoke things like sadness or hysteria, but it doesn't. I don't feel anything. The strange thing is, I can feel anger to its fullest. I can be furious at whomever I want at any given time, whatever the situation, and when I get too angry, I use violence to get things the way I want them to be.
But other things, like happiness, I can't feel - and if I'd felt it before, I don't remember. All I ever feel is anger, even when it's about small things.
I have no idea when this came about, but I first realised when my grandmother died around six years ago. She was real important to me once, but when I heard she'd passed on, I didn't feel anything.
Day after day I find myself lying and acting to feign emotions when they aren't there. I learn to fake them by watching people in everyday life and their reactions. This bores me from time to time but I know I need to do it since it's the only way for me to appear normal and fit in with society.
I just want to know if there's any way I could actually feel something real for once, rather than baseless anger. I feel awfully uncomfortable talking to psychologists face to face, so I'm not sure counseling would be a good idea. Will I be empty of anything but anger forever?
first off, i'. sorry about your grandmother passing on. i dont think you need counseling, but it's not a bad thing either. i've experienced the samething! but i was going through a hard time with my parents. its good that you recongize what it is that could have started making you feel like this. i truely believe in your case the best solution is to talk about it because clearly you have unresolved feelings. talking to one of your close friends about it could help or even thinking about it so much that you start crying would help. i'm sure once you start to resolve the under lying issue your emotions will come back. however if this lack of emotions lasts for a longer time i think you should consider talking to a doctor because you shouldnt feel like this and someone can help you. i wish you the best!
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I started cutting about a week ago. I have recently been diagnosed with depressession because of my step mom leaving and taking my 3 yr old baby sister with her. I take a pill called Celexa for depression, it's helped by making me happy,but I still want to cut. I cut because it helps and I do it because I can't stop, but then again I don't want to stop because it helps me feel alot better. I don't scratch because I feel the need to cut myself untill I bleed, if I don't bleed, I am unsatisfied and feel like it didn't help.My boyfriend wants me to stop, and I love him, but even for him I won't do it. I don't want to be told to stop, I want a way of stopping so that I still get that feeling of satisfaction, but without having to cut.
i understand how you feel and it is very hard to stop especially if your addicted to it, im sure you feel like nothing will ever take the place of cutting but there are ways to get around the urges, just try to think of how your boyfriend feels. if your boyfriend really cares he should be trying to help you. when i told my boyfriend about it he was really upset but he really helped me. its been like almost five months and i still have urges to do it but i try to keep other people in mind and how they would feel if they knew. so that might be enough to help you but if not you should consider therapy.
hope i helped
if you wanna talk i'm hear
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So I just started my new job in November and absolutly love everyone I work with. I've been hanging out with this one girl who is always smiling and just really happy and friendly. But when I was working with her yesterday she reached for something and I noticed a bunch of cuts on her arm. I asked her what they are from and she said nothing and then acted like it never happened. I'm really worried about her. What should I do? Should I tell someone else?
you should definately say something to her but dont make a big deal about it and dont tell anyone else because obviously she is going out of her way to hide it and she doesnt want others to know and also thats her personal problem not yours so just let her know you are concerned but be gentle about it.
hope i helped:)
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I guess this comes under meantal health...
Ok well i used to be a cutter last year.
Bad i started about 3 years ago and stopd lasted year.
The thing is ive got so depressed lately all i want to do is harm...
I just want to get a knife and go deep.
To be honest im waiting for someone to cut me by accident or whatever. (if you get what i mean)
Im not a type of person that takes the wrong road twice so i really dont want to go back to it.
ANd im full of advice for everyone... except me.
I just want that red liquid to emerge from my skin.
To trinkle down my wrist.
To feel the stingy numbing pain....
Please point me in the right direction
Vikki
ive gone through the same thing with cutting. my depression has gotten better since i started doing sports a few weeks ago although im trying to stop cutting for the third time i still have major urges.
try writting stories or poetry (which you seem very good at)
you know what will happen if you start cutting again. at the end of the day cutting doesnt solve anything and the problem is still there so just remember how hard it was to stop.
i hope this helped any. if you need anything or want to talk email me.
brie=)
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ok so im 13/f and i have a problem with cutting myself. i understand that it is a problem so that is the first step to recovery.
i want to knnow if there are any places ONLINE that i can get help for my problem. i dont want any1 to know i have these problems so i cant go to see a person. also i cant let my parents find out.
thanks for the help.
its good that you want help and your doing something about it. im not sure of any places online that can help but talking helps so if theres a friend that you can trust talk to him/her. okay i know this sounds stupid but eating sunflower seeds helps me to let urages pass. so try that
i hope this helps. if you need anything you can email me.
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