My life kind of started to end on July 15 2014. My wife of 52 years and I were sitting on our deck when we looked at each other and said, You know something we got it made. That was because I had finally retired and we had moved into our new house in the mountains. That was around one pm when we spoke those words.
That night around seven we got a call from one of our daughters (Barb). She told us that she had just left the doctors and they had told her she had stage four ovarian cancer, and that she had 1 to 5 years to live.
This as you can imagine floored us. The next morning my wife (Elaine) and I packed her suitcase. We decided that my wife would move in with Barb to help her as much as possible. Barb lives three hours away, so we thought I would drive down on weekends and bring our dog with me.
After three months of Elaine staying there and me coming down on weekends, the stress got so bad between my wife and I. You see, Elaine is 71 years old and she was taking care of Barbs whole house. There are four in the family, Barb, her husband (Jeff) daughter (Kristin age 21) and son (Jeffery age 17). She looked like she was 90 years old. This was killing my wife. Well after three months had gone by, Barb went back to work, so Elaine decided to come home and we would go down on weekends. This lasted till 1/10/16 when Barb passed away.
When my wife came home, I was relieved that she could rest and try to get back to somewhat of a normal life. Well that did not happen. From the minute and I mean minute Elaine walked in the door I was accused of having an affair. I could not believe my ears. Her reasoning was she found Cialis in my bureau drawer. After her throwing this at me I showed her that it was a sample with my name written on it. The funny part of it was, Elaine was the one that picked it up at the doctors office. By the way our doctor not only wrote my name on the box but the date 1/16/2012. Four years before we moved to the mountains.
That was the end of that session. But two weeks later she told me my girlfriend stole five pair of her jeans from the closet. I could go on an on about the accusations but to name just a few. Cigarette butts found in the street meant my girlfriend was standing there watching the house. I was told while we where both out shopping together that there was blood on our mattress pad. When we got home the blood had disappeared. Now remember we never left each others side.
I won’t bore you with more details because there is over 50 accusations made. None of which were true.
Anyway last week a new neighbor moved in and you guessed it I was having an affair with her.
Well two days ago she left me, drained our bank accounts of over $125,000. Leaving me not only with my wife of 52 years but without a penny.
I can’t do this anymore. As much as I love her I want it all to end. I can’t stand the pain. I sit here and look at a bottle of pills the doctor gave us for depression and can’t stop thinking this would end my pain. I was a strong willed man all my life, a rough and tumble construction worker. Well I am a broken man now. She broke me and took my will to live.
Hey sweetheart, I could never understand what you're going through but I'm here for you. All I can do is tell you to pray and I'll pray too but you need to take this into legal matters. She has no right to take all the money okay? And from what I'm hearing, it sounds like shes the one cheating on you because nobody would be so emotional over something so obviously false if that person wasn't guilty. Write me back and tell me it's you so I can give you my kik or number if you need anymore help.
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Hi. I just want to know if it's normal when i cry for no reason? Not that I'm depressed or stressed. Its just that I cry at the corner of my room without tears that's falling. Its like tantrums? I dont know why i'm being like that.
Yes, it is very normal to cry for no reason. Every human has experienced irregular mood swings and or unexplained emotions in their life. I think it's your brain's way of releasing stress before you even notice that you are stressed about something. The best thing to do is get a journal and record your everyday feelings and what you think caused it. Do this for a full month and then look back at your data. Do it for another full month and compare your data with the first month to see if anything changes. If you read this, thank you for your time.
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I've come to this because. The pain is greater then what's causing it ,I just WAnt some happiness not what she is doing. To me fuck it I got 12 hours before. I start the next chapter. Sorry. I just had to vent see u on the other side
Hey, I hope i'm not too late. I know how you feel, honestly I do. I suffer from depression and I know what its like to self harm. I honestly do believe there is a way out, you just have to keep pushing. I'll pray for you. Thanks for your time.
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Hey, I am born female but identify as genderfluid. But I'm sick of it, I'm sick of the constant fluctuation of my gender and I'm sick of always having to state my pronouns and explain what it means. I don't want to be genderfluid, I want to be a boy or a girl, I don't want to be a mixture of both! But I can't be transgender as I don't fully feel like a boy but I'm not cisgender as I defiantly don't always feel like a girl, it's so frustrating and I don't know what to do! If anyone has any advice to help me out that would be really appreciated, but I don't want any transphobic replies or rude or insulting things said, thank you.
Hey there. I'm a total Christian and I stick to my beliefs. You should decide to be a girl since you were born a girl. I do not understand your frustration with this subject but I do understand the whole world of frustration, meaning, I can only imagine how you feel. All I can really say is stick with being a girl because that's how you were born and God doesn't make mistakes. Everything happens for a reason, I promise. Thanks for your time.
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I'm 14 and I've been cutting for a few years. I really want to stop but I keep failing. Does anyone have some good advice?
I think you should take things slowly. I've been through the same things and it get's better but I still want to do it sometimes. I'd like for you to talk to me when you start feeling like that again. My kik is Kori_Rice but if you want to talk to me, you have to remind me of where I know you from so I won't block you.
Just please text me sometime.
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Hi my parents finally found out that I want to be tested for being bipolar. It runs in my family and my emotions have been like a roller coaster since I was little. I'm kind of happy that I can get help, but Im scared. Like scared to the point were I would say I'm not going and wouldn't cooperate. And the thing is I don't know why! I've wanted help for so long but now that I can get it I'm terrified. I guess I'm afraid the medicine is going to change who I am and I've done some reasearch and the side effects are kinda bothersome to me. I dont know. Has any one ever been screened before for it and is now on the medication?
It's simple. You're scared to find out if there's something really wrong with you. I've been going through the same thing but that's because i'm depressed and I've been this way for a while. Calm down and relax. If you really want the help, go for it and see what can be done about it.
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Hi! I'm a 14-year-old girl and I've been feeling really weird lately. Everything that I'm about to list has been going on for about a month now: I cry over EVERYTHING. For example: My dad said to stop playing guitar because I was too loud and he was trying to work so I went to my room and cried. I've been really irritable as well. I do have a generally short fuse but now it's even worse; I've even been going off on my parents occasionally (which I feel terrible about afterward). My little sister even decided not to share a bedroom with me because I was constantly yelling. I've been eating and sleeping way more as well. I had a relatively healthy diet in the past, but now I get home from school and eat a bag of popcorn, a pop tart, crackers, chocolate, and anything else I can get my hands on. I get super drowsy and just kind of lay down wherever I am whether that be the floor, a chair, a bed. I'm wide awake throughout the day but I get home and it's like school drained me of my life. I use to really like school. I don't like a lot of things that I use to like. I'm openly rude to all of my friends and I don't want to be around them. I sit in the bathroom and read during lunch periods sometimes. Speaking of reading, I only feel okay when I'm reading or on my blog. What's wrong with me??
I think you're going through depression. Depression can be caused by anything, I know because I'm going through the same thing and my symptoms are exactly the same as yours. I'm here for you and I'd love to talk about it with you. Boys threw me into this depression and it's getting worse. If you want to talk to me, just message me and ask me anything because i'm here for you and we can figure this out together.
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i was eating a peace of leatace for dinner and it attacked me!! i mean it actualy attacked me instead of me eating it it was eating me!!! my friends call me syco sally but there not really my friends there scared of me! is something wrong with me or was i daydreaming?
syco sally
I believe that you were daydreaming or maybe you were in a trance. It's a high possibility that you were under some stress and you unconsciously created an escape and your mind projected an image or action that you thought was going on but really didn't happen. I don't think you're crazy. If they're really not your friends then I think that they were just picking on you. Don't share anything else with them because it could end up hurting you. If you need anything else, talk to me. I'm 13 but I've been studying psychology ever since I was 7. Have a great day.
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I have one coping skill and that is being on the computer. It is not healthy in other peoples opinion but I don't care. It is the only thing that helps me. I have tried everything else anyone has recommended but people are still telling me that being on the computer is not healthy. What do I do?
People are different so they have different coping skills and they think differently. If that's your happy place then go with it. Just do it in a healthy way, monitor your time and try and take time out of that one activity and think of something else to do. Maybe you should try going to sleep or daydreaming to help you. Do whatever helps you because everyone doesn't know your situation and even if they did know, they probably wouldn't understand. Pay attention to yourself and if you need anything, just ask me because I understand.
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