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hello :)My name is allie and i'm here to help everyone with their problems.
I am a 15 year old girl so i can relate to most problems having to do with that kind of stuff & i love helping people. i hope to be a guidance counselor or something close to that profession when i grow up. i like most stuff that 15 year olds like and thats basically everything you need to know about me :)!
Well enjoy my page & ask if you need ANY advice at all ♥
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I don't know whats wrong with me. I might be depressed but I don't know. Well my dad died when I was 7 and my mom went blind (a lot of stuff happened but I don't want to say online...friends go here and stuff) so anyway. Lately everyting sets me off. I start to cry. Not just cry but hide under my blanket and half scream into my pillow. I used to cut myself a while back, but I stopped because all my friends didn't look at me the same way. My life is pretty messed up, but I've always been able to deal with it before. This one person said that I should talk to someone outside of my family, someone I trust. The thing is, I don't trust anyone so its hard to do that. So I have really kept all this in for like ever.... I have been having like panick attacks. I can't talk to a lot of people at once online, or I get angry and overwhelmed. I keep friends for a month, than I stop talking to them for a month and than the next month I talk to them again. I cry like every night. I don't want to talk to a counsler as everyone suggested because they get payed to listen to problems they don't really want too. Besides I don't cry in front of people. I have never cried in front of anybody except like maybe when I was like five. I feel so weird if I cry in public and people give me sympathy or w/e. I don't want sympathy. I don't want to talk to some stranger who just sits there and listens. Idk. I've been to one before right when my dad died and it didn't help at all. They released me after like two sessions saying I was a normal child. Even though I wasn't, I never talked during the sessions because like I said I just wasn't comfortable at all, and I don't feel like the counsler really wants to be there. There is a lot more stuff, I just don't really wanna type it all out. I know this is super long and hardly anyone is going to read it. But if you do, please help me. I don't know what to do anymore.
you've had it really rough =/
the best thing to do other than talking to a guidance councilor or psychiatrist is try to make yourself better. you said you've cut before so you must not have too high of a self-esteem so i think you should do more things for yourself, such as going shopping for stuff you want and doing anything that makes you happy. you've only got one life to live and even though yours isnt the greatest, you might as well live the rest the best you can. if you REALLY think your depressed then you should maybe talk to someone like me who gives advice but you wont have to talk to them in person, you can email or IM back and forth, that way you wont have to feel awkward and people on this site DO really want to help you so you'll know they're here for the right reasons. AND they dont get paid so thats also something to think about knowing they're here to help.
anyways if you need someone to talk to then im here for you and i promise i'll listen completely.. good luck
(Rating: 5) thanks so much. i wish i could go shopping and stuff for myself, but i have no way of getting to the mall and back. my sister who is 24 won't take me because shes just kinda mean like that. and my brother doens't have is license. my whole family hates me bc my dad loved me so much or w/e its stupid i know. but yeah i have no way i wish i could. basketball makes me happy, but its only winter sport at my school.