Q: Well, my problem is that my friends and a few other classmates are hurting my feelings is all... You see, (from what I have heard. Stupid people...grr.) I'm the "top" (riiiight.) in my class. My IOWA test result from last year was only an 84 percentile and it jumped to a 96 this year. I also have good grades and I get good test results. But before this guy, Robert, was the best, so they're not very used to me. So, they're jealous. I could tell because they say scathing remarks to me, scowling, etc.
My friends are doing this too. Ashley, when she sees I have a higher score than her, does this and talks back if I write something she thinks she doesn't like. (ex."You have a big ego!" She got that when my teacher was joking when Ashley wrote my name BIG on our project.Then a few weeks later, "You have a small head!" The size of my head mind you. But I say nothng yet again!But now I think, 'You're a wakling oxymoron. That
comment just contridicts the other cuz you said I have
a big head and ego, no you say I have a SMALL head...?) I'm not used to this because they never did this to me before...
My bestfriend Elise also is dong stuff like this sometimes worse. My mom thinks she won't be a very good friend in the future. Why? Because in 3rd grade I was in this program called bungalow for kids who have trouble reading. So she came up to me and said "We can't be friends, because you're in bungalow." So we broke up. I didn't have any friends except for her that time, so I was a loner. Elise, fortunately, had lots of friends like Melvi, Nathaniel, Ariel, Linda, Franz, Ryan, etc. My mom also was gone for some time to train for her work. So that continued to 4th grade and into the first weeks of 5th grade. All I really did was kick a ball alone to improve so I can play kickball. Then later we became friends again and have Melvi as a friend in 5th grade because Elise seemed sad and I came up to her and tried to cheer her up. But then, now she is reacting like this, so my mom
doesn't know if she'll be a good friend and that she seems to be spoiled.
Other classmates are doing similar- all the way back from the beginning of the year. So I decided to give them time. But they only seem to become more vicious.
I have this bad habit of keeping things bottled in. So when I explode is when I have this tight feeling in my chest- like my heart is being squeezed, and then I cry. This is unusual because I'm usually calm. So I try to write out my feelings and talking to my mom. This helps, but it won't stop them from continuing this.
I've already dropped big and VERY noticiable hints that I don't like the way they're behaving. But it seems that they forget and continue what they do before. Sometimes I think people think that some people are different and don't have feelings.. But we
do! We feel the same that they do, eat what they eat,drink how they drink, we LIVE. But I don't think they get this. It's like I'm an alien!
I had to deal with this from the beginning and I still am.
If my relationship between my friends won't last, then I don't mind being alone. Or I'll try to get new ones. And I'll be more determined to push myself to the limit and do my best acdemically and socially.
What should I do, anyway?
