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hey, i need help really bad but i don't have anyone to turn to, and i really mean nobody. a while ago i "went through a depression stage" i guess you might call it, and it got really bad. i was builimic [sp.?] and i cut myself. [my parents and friends were compleatly oblivious to everything because i guess i'm a "good kid" and they never had to worry about me] i don't know how it stopped, but it just did. and now i think it's starting again, my parents suddenly decided we're moving and i feel like nobody wants me around, but i guess thats my fault because iv'e been pushing away the people that mean the most to me. i always want to be alone and i started keeping to myself a lot, like not talking AT ALL during lunch, unless someone asks me a question or somthing. when i get home i got straight to my room and cry, i don't know why though. and i started cutting myself again, i dug a knife into my wrist after dinner tonight and it bled and bled. i feel like i don't belong anywhere and i want to run away, but i don't know where i'd go or how i'd get far enough away from home. iv'e also sat on my roof after everyone in my house is asleep and thought about jumping off, but i really don't want to go to hell. i really need help [i'll "rate high" or whatever, just please help] -jeanine
I'm glad you found this site. Internet communities can be valid support systems. Your not alone.
Everyone goes through stages where they feel they don't belong, they wonder if anyone cares about them, and they just want to escape. What makes it a problem in your case is that these feelings are not occasional, but consistent, and they are interfering with your life.
An advice column can't provide the ongoing help you need. If it's at all possible, talk to a psychologist. Psychologists don't prescribe medicine, they're more like a trained advice columnist who can talk to you every week (or whatever schedule is decided upon).
Other options are support groups. Those are groups where a trained councilor will lead the group in talking about a specific issue. Google can help you find a support group for teenagers near you. Your school councilor can too.
Another option is talking to a religious leader. I have mixed feelings about suggesting it, but if your already part of a religious community, it may be the only free option available. S/he shouldn't make you feel guilty, or try to scare you. Most religious leaders do have some training, and some are quite talented councilors, but I think the bag is more mixed than with licensed professionals.
Sometimes parents are oblivious to even the most obvious distress signals. Sometimes, you just have to approach them. Ask if there is any way for you to see a psychologist. If they ask why, show them the wrist you cut and tell them "it wasn't an accident". That should wake them up pretty quick.
(Rating: 5) i think i'll try that but theyr probebly going to freak out