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hey...this is gonna be pretty long im guessing so ill rate 5's to whoever takes the time to answer this..thanks.

Okay..so i met this guy who i fell totaly inlove for and cared about him sooo much. he knew that i was moving to a different country soon, and it started affecting our relationship badly. one night we got in a fight and were on the verge of a break up after i found out he told people he dindt like me anymore. i called him up and told him im comming to him as a source of it all and i need to know if he still likes me or not, and that i dont want him to lie to me , or fuck with me, just tell me the truth. well that night he never gave me a straight out answer if he still liked me or not, he was really quiet, and every time id cuss he would ask me to stop cussing. but i jsut kept on yellin and crying and tellin him i cared a lot, and i just need the truth, then ill leave him alone if thats what he wants. well he said he had a lot to say but he needs to figure it out nad he'll call me back. i said okay. this was around 11 at night or so. but he dindt call for like 2 hours, and i got worn out and tired so i went to bed. he called around 5, but i dindt pick up cuase i was sleepin and my phone was on silent so i missed it. i keep thinking to waht if that was the call that would fix my relationship with him. the next day, i called him back but he wasnt home. I called my "bst friend" and aksed her what she was up 2, and if she wasnt busy i needed to talk to her (i wanted to tell her hwat happened) and she goes "oh actually im just with ur boyfriend right now nad we're just chillin with some other people" I had NO problem with that whatsoever caust i trusted her completely with everything i had..and it takes a long time to gain trust with me cuase i been backstabbed way too many times..so this gurl had my trust completely, and i trusted my boyfriend and i understood that maybe he needded some time to think things over and stuff..well my best friend, all the guys think shes one of the hottest girls ever, and pretty and perfect and eveyrthing..blah. anyways, my boyfriend calls me from my best friends cellphone later on that night and i pick up and he talks to me and hes like "hey....im really sorry but i dont think we shuld be together anymore..u cna hate me if u want, u hvae every right to, but i still wanna be friends. i really dont want to..i just think this is comming to end.." and i was just like "alright, bye" cause i was really upset!! i mean i loved this boi!! and he broke my heart in thousand pieces!! and so i knew hed be with my best friend for the next few hours, so i called him around 12 am, and i was like "hey..i think i deserve to know why" and he was like "know why i broke up with u" and i said yes so he tells me all this crap about hwo he thought i was somebody else who i wasnt and how he met someone special who is so perfect and amazing and how i deserve better than him and it ended and that he has unrealistic expections of ppl. basically a bunch of BS and he never gave me a real answer. so w/e. it NEVER evven crossed my mind that my best friend was his new special someone!!!!! I found out that she hooked up with him the night we broke up! she gave him head, he fingered her, and ate her out and she gave him a hand job!! ON the FREAKING night we broke up1!!!!!!!! i was like omg r u kidding me.. but when i told her i was hurt she freaked out on me and told my ex that she cant like him cause of me! and so my ex freaked out on me and got pissed cuase supposebly hes in love with my slutty ex best friend..and i still cared a lot about my ex, like damn i care so much for him.so i told her she can do whatever she wants, and to not involve me in it..but i couldnt really get mad at her and let her know how much anger i have, and how betrayed i felt and how i would never trust her again..so i reminaed silent, which was a mistake. now them two are fucking going out, and she lost her VIRGINITY to him. i dunno what to do. i cdant say anything now, but i feel so betrayed bt here. should i still let her know that im realy hurt and i have a lot of anger! cuase when she has problems with my ex and is sad she comes to me and tells me about them and i dont wnt to hear it, he was MY ex!! and when he does cute stuff she tells me and im like how much more unsensitive cna u be? but i just sit there and listen..i dunno. shulld i tell her off and break friendship off completely? cuase i have no trust for her. and baout him, what do i do. cuase even after it all i still love this boi like no other and care os much and really dont want to lose him..even as a friend..i hookked up with him one time after we broke up..and i was crying cause i was drunk and i told him evertthing i felt and we stood infront of the mirror and my make up was completly smirred and we were huggin really tightly and he goes look at us, look at the mirror and we both look, and then he turns his head away, kisses my forhead and he syas i cant look at u this way i cant look at us cuase then its gonna hurt more..and i was way drunk and i dindt say anythin just kept crying. and we just stood there..so i duno cuas ei still care lots about him and i duunno if i shold just act like i dont care anymore and eventually stop..or should i still care for him and talk to him and be friends..cause being friends with him hurts me somuch cuase i see him with her and it makes my heart crash to a thousand more pieces evry time. and also his birthday is comming up soon, and i dunno if i should get him something or not? and if i should..what? hes a bab boi skater type..so u cant really get nice things, and i dont want to get it over done to make him think im obsessed with him.

I AM sorry this is soo long!! but i really needed to elt it all out! thanks for whoever replys! ill rate 5!! xoxoxoxoxo thnaks!

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