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Q: 15/f
lately ive been depressed. nothings seems to going right. me and my stepmom havent been getting along. its like i try to be nice and she's just a bitch back to me and i dont get why and we've been struggling to get along for the past 12 years on and off. and my dad doesnt do anything about it. every time i come back from my moms my stepmom's a bitch. my dad just found out that i cut myself and he freaked out and i start to wonder if its all worth living through everyday. i tried suicide three times before and im trying to get the idea out of my mind but it keeps coming back.
pleez help
thanks

we all go through hard times, let me start off by saying im sorry to hear you have a bad relationship with your stepmom and its driving you to this point.

as the person said below me, you need to stop cutting. that is the first priority and seeking out someone to talk to, such as a psychiatrist, so maybe talking to your mom about it may help and she can set that up for you. also try talking with your father, tell him why you have been cutting yourself and how bad your stepmother makes you feel, ask him if he will consider going to the psychiatrist with you to show support, if he does not listen to you or finds what you are saying implausible see if there is anyway you can possibly stay with your mother. you should not have to be in a threatening environment such as that, especially if it drives you to feel that way.

also do something you find relaxing, such as writing, painting, sports, everyone needs an outlet otherwise we turn towards destructive behaviors, it just human nature.

if i can help you with anything, or you just need to talk please dont hesitate.

Brittni

Q: im seventeen a senior in high school. it seems everything has gone to shit within the past month. My dad is constantly yelling at me telling me how big of a failure i am and for me to feel sorry for him because "i dont try hard enough and take advantage of him" but little does he know how hard i try to keep straight A's but there is this one little D in english. Iv never been good in english and there is a 15 page essay due written in MLA style. I have stayed up till 5 or 6 in the morning working on this paper and only get 3 pages done. On top of that i have 7 finals in the next two days along with this paper and i have been stressing out so freaken bad and on top of that my boyfriend is cheating on me with some immature little girl. Iv been thinking of suicide. I could A. cut my throat B. take lots of my dads pills or C. hang myself with a belt attached to a wall with a walmart sack over my head. over christmas break..... one will be done. Which would you think would be best?

okay i am going to be completely honest with you, suicide is not the answer to all your problems, if anything it is a selfish act. Take into consideration the people around you who care, your dad is probably just stressed out and takes it out on you which yes is very very wrong, but would you want him to hurt, to feel like its all his fault? Instead tell your dad how you are feeling talking can help a lot. just think about your future what you will miss and the things you can accomplish with the grades you do have, heck you can prove everyone wrong which i feel is a braver approach, where as suicide is just an easy way out, sure times may be shitty right now, hell who hasnt had shitty times (i got kicked out of my house and my parents want nothing to do with me), but with out the bad how would you know the good? I promise you things will get better, focus on the people who have nothing and look at what you do have, a roof over your head, food to eat, and you actually have a promising future unlike most people in 3rd world countries. Make the best of what you can and show people you are a strong individual, and as for your boyfriend forget him, a guy should never make you feel like you are worthless because you know something, YOU ARE WORTH SOMETHING! Please do not even make an attempt, and if it is a failed attempt of suicide you will end up in a mental ward and your future will be tarnished. If you need to talk to somebody i will certainly talk with you anything that i can do i will, do not hesitate!

please consider what i have said,
my aim is MODERNDURATION and my E-mail is CLASSICXDISASTERR@yahoo.com

Brittni.

Q: hi, i am surprising my bf with tickets to disneyland..but i want to present it in a very cool way, like a game or something fun. any ideas?

there are a few cute ways you could do it..

1. if you are into music, write him a song and at the end add a line about and we're going to disneyland or something of that sort. Or even have a radio station play a song that you dedicated to him and include the disneyland tickets.

2. or you could do a game, like i am thinking of something that begins with the letter D, and so on.

3. another cute thing you could do is put them in your shirt or something like that and then he happens to stumble upon them. Or even ask him to put in a certain movie and have the tickets hidden inside.

if i can give you anymore ideas feel free to ask

Brittni

Q: How can I whiten my teeth?
I know the dentist deal, and all that.
But I mean, different ways, products you can buy.
Things such as that.
Thanks in advance.

what you can do is make a mixture of baking soda and hydrogen peroxide equal amounts of each and brush with that as you would toothpaste. Also the crest whitening strips works wonders on my uncles teeth and to keep them looking that good brush with a toothpaste such as colgate white which has whitening ingredients in them.

hope this helps.

Brittni

Q: Why did you part ways from your first love? Your personal stories will help with my issue. Thank you. Please feel free to go into as many details as you want or leave it as vague as you choose.

wow this is so ironic, i was actually just talking to my friend about this. she is just beginning to try to get over her first love, so i was telling her about how i still felt about mine...
Anyway, I was madly in love with a guy about 2.5 years older than me, my parents did not like the idea of us seeing one another, i snuck around to see him and my parents finally accepted my feelings towards him, we dated for about 4.5 months. I gave myself to him because i had fallen madly in love with him. He introduced me not only to love but heartbreak, one night we were suppose to see each other and he never called me. My friend flipped out and took my phone secretly calling him, i was a mess, i figured wow was he ignoring me because i slept with him? I went to his webpage saw i wasnt even on his top friends (yes sounds ridiculous but it meant something to me given the fact he was talking to his ex) So i sent him a message. The next day he called back complaining about the message i sent him, of course i gave in apologizing, even though i know now i did nothing wrong. Then later he called again accusing me of being with another guy, this broke my heart ( yes there was a guy who liked me, but i love the guy i was with) So he didnt believe me, then he called again saying hey lets forget this ever happened, we made plans to hang out and all so he could actually meet my friends which he never did. He then canceled those plans with me, i asked him what are we, what do you want us to be, he said just friends, I WAS A WRECK. Over the next 2 days we talked online and he said he wanted to see me so i of course wanted to see him, we hang out, him manipulating my thoughts making me think we could work it out saying he still loves me calling me on the phone at night. Then about a week later he calls me after school and says your not going to like this but im dating my ex again, i simply said whatever makes you happy. It's like the world stopped for that moment, everything ended. it was just me standing there like an idiot. We talked for awhile after that he wanted to see me but i didnt see him because i couldnt just be friends with him at least at that point. He would still call on a private number so i would answer, he would send me back emails i sent him about how much i loved him asking if i remembered writing that, i moved past him, it been 2 years, sure to this day yes i still do miss him, yes i still do even love him after all he put me through. He taught me so much and made me stronger, made me stop being naive, helped me shape who i am today, from that experience i matured into a woman, but most of all i thank him for letting me love him and for making me feel loved.

a first love is not something you ever truly get over, they remain with you. "you never stop loving somebody, you just start loving somebody else"

anything i can help you with feel free to ask.
Brittni

Q: Okay, I'm 7 months pregnant, and was given a sample of Curel Pregnancy & Motherhood Moisture Cream Life Stages. It worked miracles, and I absolutely loved it. MY sample finished so I went to CVS to buy a bottle of it. NONE... I went to a bunch of different pharmacies, and can't seem to find the lotion anywhere!

Does anyone know where I can buy this lotion from?? I'd prefer not to have to buy it from online.

while browsing walmart for hand cream, i did happen to see what you were looking for. If thats not convenient, you can always put the product you are looking for in a google search followed by the name of a local drug store, see if they carry the item and get the phone # to call to see if what you are looking for is in stock.

Hope that helps you out some

Brittni

Q: im 15/f. i shy and have a hard time talking to guys....just so u kno im not one of those weird people u kno who tlk to there cat but,i havent ever had a boyfriend...i dont think im bad looking im 5'0 and a little chubby but i can still wear a bikini and look in it..well i have semilong brown razor cut style hair and blue eyes...i wear hollister and stuff like that...but now i sound like im writing a single person seeking a person ad...but, i still cant figure out why im single

believe it or not when a guy chooses a girlfriend it is more than looks that just have a play in it, its personality. From what ive read it just seems like you need to branch out and talk to boys, sure it maybe difficult for you but it will get you noticed taking you to the next level. Just be yourself, make casual conversation like you would with your other friends, music, movies, etc. Once you start a conversation it really isnt that difficult to uphold its just getting to that level of feeling comfortable speaking with that other person. Honestly, guys are so easy going so it shouldnt be hard to just talk to them about anything joke around a bit, i should know ive been that girl who always just clicked with the guys.

anything else i can help you with please ask.

good luck
Brittni

Q: so..my guy friend wants to play with me a little. And my vagina is really hairy. and im afraid to shave it, because it gets bumping and really itching, but he likes it smooth and idk what to do. i dont know how to shave it or wax it...

i would suggest shaving, waxing works good but you have to wait till you're hair grows in more till you can wax again.

how you shave down there is basically the same way you would your leg BUT, you go in the direction the hair down there is growing to avoid razor bump and discomfort. also a good shave gel to use is called bikinizone anti bump shave gel, its not that expensive and believe me its worth it. now where you want to shave down there is all up to you, i personally think the best way to go is no hair at all, and if he likes it smooth then i suggest that.

anything else i can help with just ask.
Brittni

Q: I'm gauging my ears and I put the 6 gauge pinchers/tapers in and it was slightly uncomfortable, but it always is. It's been two days and I just looked at them to clean them and it looked like puss was coming out. Should I take them out and let my ears heal up then start over with the WHOLE process, or just downsize to an 8 until the infection looks gone?

i use to gauge my ears they use constantly bleed and pus when going up a size. what i suggest you do is clean them really well and stick with the 6's. during gauging your ears you are going to have some puss, sure its disgusting but thats what goes along with it, your stretching the hole in your ear. i just suggest you keep them clean and if there is still puss coming out after the next 3 days along with serve discomfort just take them out for a day or so and give your ears a rest cleaning your ears often, then try it again. that shouldnt back track you too much if anything you may go down a size. also you should clean them everyday both your gauges and ears, just remember that so you dont have to worry about infection.

any other questions please ask
Brittni

Q: 15/f

i am a female and i'm sexually active, have only ever had protected sex, wouldn't do it any other way =]. anyways on the inside of my labia i have this bump. it's doesn't hurt or smell but i'm just wondering what it could be? i haven't had any weird discharge either. i also know for a fact i have no stds, me and the only person i have had sex with were virgins.

i'm thinking it might be a cyst or something..can you get razor burn in there? i might have accidently shaved but i don't know. the bump is on the small side btw. thanks to anyone who can help =]

okay well this sounds to me to be a cyst but also is very possible it is a razor bump because you said it doesnt hurt, most cyst tend to be painful but sometimes ive experienced otherwise. Just keep and eye on it and if the size increases/doesnt go away in the next two weeks you most likely have a cyst. some cysts go away on their own, ive had a few, but to be safe if the lump doesnt go away in the next 3 weeks go to the gyno or local planned parenthood center if you do not want your parents knowing about what is going on. there's a site below to help you find a place closest to you if you do happen to need to be checked.
http://www.plannedparenthood.org/

all should be fine dont stress over it, just keep watch on it.

any other questions feel free to ask
Brittni.

Q: okay. so, for starters, I really like this boy at my school. I'm a junior and he's a sophomore. I don't really see anything weird about me liking him, but whenever I tell my friends (which is rare nowadays because apparently it's laughable that I would happen to like him..I guess he's not the type of person that has a girlfriend) they all laugh and then say "oh, it's not really that funny, I'm laughing with you" whatever--I'm obviously not laughing, so that's a stupid thing to tell me. but anyway, I sometimes get the feeling that he likes me--like last night at SCI (swing choir invitaitonal) I went to go talk to him after he was done performing. (background info: usually whenever we see each other he punches me on the arm in a friendly sort of way...I know it sounds stupid but it's really kind of habit now) first he acts like he's gonna give me a hug, but then decides he wants to do the whole punch my arm thing, but then changes his mind/gets awkward. so I just decide to give him a huge hug anyway, and he gives me one back. so I'm thinking to myself "okay, this is a good sign." but then he kinda stops talking to me and walks away (which I understand, because he has to go help clean up and stuff) but like, he didn't even say goodbye to me or anything. I just feel like I keep getting mixed signals all the time, and it gets me in this super depressed mood. I don't know how to make sure that he likes me, but I don't want to just come out and ask him, you know? I'm not really that kind of person.
second: I feel like all of my friends are changing/leaving me for other people. I know, go ahead and say that I'm a typical overemotional teenage girl. but they really haven't been like that until recently. I am kind of thinking that it's because they're getting antsy to get away for Christmas break or whatever. but seriously, everyone is getting extremely bitchy and snappy; mood swings and being irritable for absolutely no reason at all, overreacting to ordinary comments and taking it to a whole new level of hotheadedness.....catch my drift?
three: my friends are all getting attached (becoming a couple with boyfriends) and they seem to spending an exuberant amount of time with their boyfriends and not their actual friends. okay, boyfriends are friends too, but we've been friends way longer and it'd be nice if they actually spent a little time with us for a change. I just don't really understand why everyone feels a need to be with their boyfriends all the time, especially when they promised before anything serious started happening that they would "never forget about us and still have plenty of time to spend with us" blah blah blah. basically, I'm sick of all the empty promises that I keep getting, and I want to have someone to spend my time with where I can have an actual conversation and not keep talking about peoples' boyfriends and how they're so amazing and "don't worry Em, you'll get one soon."
so yeah. that's the end of my tangent. for now. sorry if this bored you in any way, shape, or form.

(p.s. this is the 17/f who "really needed to talk to somebody, in case you got confused)

high school can be a difficult time, it really gets you to start realizing what you want out of life and who your true friends are and during all the drama you somehow find yourself.

1. as for this boy you like, just ask him to hang out sometime during the weekend like catch a movie or something. he probably is nervous and is thinking the same thing you are or maybe he even heard what your "friends" have been saying about him. let him know you dont care what they think just hang out with him get to know him better and put some more effort into it, the hug was a nice touch.

2. your feeling of your friends changing is probably correct they are trying to discover who they are and in that mess they probably will act different. if these people you call your friends are leaving you for others, then they arent your true friends because if they were they'd stick by you through thick and thin. try to discover who your true ones are and branch out, try new things and meet new people who are worth your while.

3. ive lost my best friend to her boyfriend about a year ago, its sad the fact i had to let go but you cant go around putting in all the effort because they have to make some as well. some girls are needy, and feel they have to be with a boy for them to feel wanted or important or they claim they are so in love that it's hard to be apart from that person. but as you said you were friends first and you were always there for them and they should be doing the same for you. think of it this way, if you stop trying to make and effort once the girl and their boyfriend break up who is she going to have as a friend? in the long run it was her fault for pushing away the people who always cared about her.

i also have email if you would like to send stuff there,
classicxdisasterr@yahoo.com

dont let people get you down, stay strong. remember you are in charge of your own emotions dont let anyone else try to control them. go out there meet new people, people who'll care about you and treat you right.

Brittni

Q: really, anybody. I just need someone who is willing to listen to me "complain" about school and people and work and life in general. I understand if you don't, but I feel like I can't talk to my friends about it because they've heard it all already. I can't keep holding it all inside, because I'm going to blow a fuse soon, and I'm afraid I'm going to lose friends in the process. I need to get stuff off my chest, so if anyone is willing to listen (more like read, whatever) I will be forever grateful.
17/f

sure i would have no problem with that, i understand sometimes you just feel like people wont care about what you have to say so you just hold it all in or that they are sick of hearing it. DON'T let it out and if talking with me will help ill listen and if you want me to give some advice ill help with that too.

Brittni

Q: So i had this weird dream last week. In the dream, i was at school, and the school was like on of those really small houses. shaped like a box with a roof you know...lol...nd a few kids from school decided to make a thier own haunted house. my friends and i were standing in the long line of highschool kids waiting to go into the house. we were getting close to the front, and i was so tired, i decided that i didn't want to go inside, so there was this bed on the porch under the window or the house, so i went to sleep. then when I woke up, i found myself in the house, with only one door to go through and no windows. It was scary, and so i ended up having to go through the maze. I felt a bit of a relief when i thot about how it was just kids from school playing scary. then i ended up in this room. it was small, with stairs that led up to a window. I started climing up the stairs quietly and scared. when i got to the top, there were a lot of baby books. As i picked one up, there came in a scary looking girl. She sat by me on the top stair, with a star shaped toy, and tried scaring me with it, but it accidentally touched my mouth, so she got all grossed out and left. after that, i opened the window to escape, and a woman who looked similar to beyonce's mom came in, but this woman was creepy. I jumped out of the window from what seemed like the second floor, and there were fallen trees, so i jumped on them. They were so bouncy i was able to get into my flying position. I normally fly in my dreams, so i started doing so. As i was flying, i was trying to go higher and higher up over the clouds, but this woman had so much power over me, and she called herself my mother. She did something, that made me come down back to the grown back by the house/school. She had cut my feet. I don't have much curve in normal life, and in the dream, She made a curve with some type of knife that was kind of magic/lightning, so i wouldn't be able to fly.She said she was going to make the curve so that I wouldn't be able to run away from her. I started to run because i wanted to keep my feet how they were, i wanted to fly. And then next thing i knew, she was chasing me aroudn the house on a horse..lol.....somehow, i knocked her off the horse, and she dissapeared. I started running and flew off again in the directing i was wanting to, and then i came by this baseball field, and started coming back down to the ground like a screw. I had dug a hole in the grown. And as i looked down it, there was a woman who had found some type of pot/jug looking artifact. She got out, and then went over to her husband and son and i just stood there watching them, then thats wen i woke up. lol...sorry for this being so long, i just want to hear what you guys think this dream might mean. any psychics or dream tellers? thank you!:D by the way i'm 16.

i am no psychic or dream teller but i do believe that dreams mean a great deal to playing a role in your life, possibly even an upcoming event. so what i do when i have a strange dream such as yours that im dying to figure out i go to a dream dictionary/analyzing site. what you do is type in certain parts of your dream that stuck out then piece it together to see what it all meant. also my one friend has a dream dictionary you can pick up at your local book store its very interesting. click on the site below if you are interested in what your dream meant.

http://www.thecuriousdreamer.com/

sorry im no psychic or dream tell but i figured you would know your dream and what was most significant so you piecing it together seemed to make the most sense.

hope this helps you analyze your dream.

Brittni

Q: Hi Im a female 17. lately I´ve been having lots of problems with my mom cause She went throught my cellphone and found a really x rated...erotic whatever you want to call it conversation with my bf (which she didn´t even know I had) it was about 6 messages long. And now she calls me hoe, vulgar. and says Im a minor and lots of crap. Im 17 and i think I have a right to explore my sexuality but safely, which I do. It sucks because now she makes me feel like crap with sarcasms and she even went to the cellphone company to check up on my messages and to who i write them. Its a total invasion of privacy i can´t even text my bf anymore and i don´t know what to do cause i really like him and my mom is making me want to seriusly die or kill myself.

hey there sorry to hear about your issue with your mother, believe me i have seen my fair share with mine so i completely understand where you're coming from. what i would suggest you do is confront you mother with how you are feeling, tell her that you dont feel its right for her to be snooping through your personal belongings and if she wants to know what is going on in your life just to ask. Also explain to her that you're not a little girl anymore, that she has to let you be in charge of your own future and you would like to be able to come to her when you have a problem instead of being called a name or being accused of something your not. im not sure if you find it hard to talk with your mother but believe me it will help a great deal with trust so that way she isnt invading your life and accusing you of things even if you dont tell her everything coming to her and talking with her about what going on in your life will help. she probably is just feeling like you are pushing her out of your life because you're growing up so fast, going out with friends and not spending as much time with her, that she feels left in the dark, especially the fact that she didnt even know you had a boyfriend of six months.

if you have any other questions feel free to ask
good luck with your mom!
Brittni

Q: 14/f
okay so im (160) and 5'4
-but i am working on it------
anyway i got me period last january so ive had it 10 months so far. now my boobs are really small and they look really little comparts to my proportions so how can i make them look bigger or make them grow bigger? i mean am i done growing or are they gonna start growing? i need helpppp!

when i was your age i was chubby and my boobs werent all that big then i started going up sizes gradually and i began to get curves, shedding pounds. you just need to be patient, girls bodies dont fully stop changing shape until they reach the age of 18. so it is a possible that your boobs will grow. as of right now you wanting to make them look bigger you could invest in a water bra to increase size, or even a push up bra this will to enhance your cleavage making your boobs appear larger. those baby doll shirts help with that too because they hug your boobs while free flowing around your midsection.

if i can help you with anything else let me know.
and remember to stay confident in your own skin everyone is beautiful in so many different ways.
Brittni

Q: How do you pass a mouth swab drug test if you are a daily user of marijuana?

first thing you so as soon as you hear you are going for one stop using until then to be safe if thats at all possible, also what can help you is a detox drink. this will clean out the toxin in your system, you'll be good for a blood, urine, or mouth swab test. you can easily purchase online or possibly a head shop might have it.

any other questions feel free to ask.

Brittni

Q: I love the song "Bad Girlfriend" by Theory of a Deadman and I love the song "Addicted" by Saving Abel. Does anyone know of some good songs like these two?

i have a few songs you may appreciate,

hinder- use me
nickleback- animals
kid rock- so hot
rev theory- hell yeah
buckcherry- crazy bitch
stone temple pilots- sex type thing
nine inch nails- closer

i also know a lot of songs that are similar to the content in the songs you like but they arent exactly the same style. or if you need anymore feel free to ask

Brittni

Q: are you still a virgin if you just finger a girl or eat out or sumthing like that?
what things do you have to do to have sex
and does fingering and eating out and being given a blowjob count as sex?

the answer for your first question is a no. as for what you have to do to have sex, get a hard on then once you accomplish that put your penis into the girls vagina its that simple. as for eating a girl out and receiving a blow job, its considered oral sex which is one step away from sex, although with this you can still get possible stds/aids if not protected just something for you to think about.

if you have any other question feel free to ask me

Brittni

Q: Hi
my boyfriend and I cant find the perfect love "song" for us two .

can you help us?

email me at ositos11@aim.com if you have any ideas of a song
thanks sooo much!

i sent the answer to your e-mail.

Q: what is a good age for me to have sex and not be to young but not be too old?

as the others have said below me its not about age, it about how you feel about the other individual you are going to have intercourse with and if you think your ready, also you have to take into account the responsibility of the outcome after sex. so i suggest your first time having sex make sure it is someone who you are in love with and care about madly. there are a lot of emotions tied in your first time having sex especially when you dont know what to expect, it's a beautiful thing really because you grow even closer to the person that you gave yourself too, its something that you cant even put into words if it is with someone you truly have strong feelings for.

just take those thoughts into account

Brittni

bio

Hello there the names Brittni, I decided to make a site on advicenators because i wanted to help others with their struggles, its a passion of mine, i hope one day to achieve my dream of opening a center for teens. Let it be known that i will never judge you based on a question you ask, i will simply give you an answer i find fitting, but dont expect me to candy coat my answer, im going to be honest. In the past i have been faced with many difficult things and looking back i am confident i made the right decisions. I've been through a lot personally, i've heard a lot, I've seen a lot, I've grown a lot. Heck, i know im not perfect but im the best version of myself i can be which is perfection in my eyes. I know sometimes speaking to someone you know about your issue is hard, trust me i've been there. Just like i have helped others i am here to help you with the best intentions. So i am here for you if you need me.

never feel hesitant when asking me a question, leave me one in my inbox and i will get back to you as soon as possible.