|
I'm filing for disability, but what can I do during the day?
I have a pretty good chance at being accepted for disability because of my psychiatrist. He'll send his note to Social Security. He knows how my anxiety is practically untreatable and how awful it can be. He knows that I have anxiety attacks *EACH AND EVERY TIME* I set foot in a public place, which is why I can't hold a job. He knows I have extreme, untreatable fatigue, which is why I can't drive. Every time I do, I consistently have near death experiences.
I'll be moving in with my boyfriend in a year or so. And I'm choosing to be a housewife - to clean the whole apartment for him, do his laundry and fold them (as well as mine), cook breakfast and all his favorite meals for him. I'll do yoga and meditation in the morning. I'll read, write and give advice on this certain mental illness forum. I'll give him as much massages and backrubs as he wants when he gets home from work.
My biggest fear is becoming lazy like my aunt. She's on disability for anxiety and depression too, but all she does *ALL* day is sit at her kitchen table and smoke as well as sleep. She never cleans her house and when she used to have a dog, her house smelled of pure piss. She does absolutely *NOTHING* and expects people to do stuff and buy stuff for her for free.
I don't want to be like her, so please help me find as much productive stuff that I can do at home. Thank you!
[ ]
Want to answer more questions in the Health & Fitness category?
Maybe give some free advice about: Mental health?
First, it is very difficult to get approved for disability especially on the first attempt. However, if this is what you want your life to be go for it! Just realize that there is no going back! (with full SSD) You create your life and you make your own choices and create a attitude positive or negative.
If you want to be a housewife, that is fine but maybe years down the road you might get tired of that and want to actually do something with your life!! The anxiety might very well improve like mine did! If you do end up getting SSD I would volunteer atleast and not just live in this little comfortable bubble the rest of your life. All you will be remembered for when you die is taking care of your husband??! and leeching off the state. Don't you want to leave behind some sort of legacy?? Just food for thought....
]
ADDITIONAL: The attacks you have all seem to occur in public places. While in a public place what sound, smell, situation triggers it? Is it always the same? What hits you like a tidal wave the very second you walk in?
I ask because if you knew and continually visited those places as uncomfortable as it may be and stayed instead of left immediately that perhaps you wouldn't be as afraid and could eventually enjoy being out or having attacks in those environments a little less often.
You have to know that although it may seem like you are going to die that in reality it cannot kill or physically harm you but can be uncomfortable. If in a public place and it happened you would find people wanting to help you. You would be secure. I know your doctor will want you to be in society and not indoors. Have you thought of perhaps going to a library or a movie where there isn't noise from a lot of people as a way of being in public with a more comfortable environment you can control r swimming?
Also, see if you can join an improv class for people in general or designed for those with anxiety issues. They are abundant and you'll find the exercises and meeting people in same boat a good experience.
ORIGINAL
ORIGINAL
But you aren't anything like her already. That will not change. I'm not sure how it works in the U.S. but if a psychiatrist tells the government you are disabled there is NO refuting that. He/she will have set things up for you and it's yours for life or until such times as you are no longer deemed disabled by him/her alone.
This could also help you with living conditions, expenses and affording medications that you could otherwise not. It will enhance your life and you deserve it because your illness and its after effects are very, very real.
I think the mental health community online is a great use of your time and productive and helping mankind. Yoga and any form of exercise also is needed, reading, writing, cooking not just for him but in general are all ways of being productive at home.
Being outdoors not in a public place is good for you and something to continue trying to do in increments or maybe timed X amount of minutes a day and choose a place to walk or hike with a friend or alone with no other plan than to get moving is good.
How would you feel about talking to the doctor about support groups at the hospital if they have them or other location for this type of anxiety? The people in those groups would have the same type of anxiety issue or other illness and you could make friends and be safe that way. Despite your illness you need a social outlet that if indoors all the time you won't receive.
As for your aunt I have never met her but perhaps the "laziness" and odd behavior may in fact be a symptom of her own illness diagnosed or not. You my hate the behavior and way she's been living but if you approach her with the same level of compassion you are receiving now you may have a better relationship.
Definitely ask your psychiatrist about things you can do and outline your fear of turning lazy and really wanting to be productive. Trust me, you're the kind of person who is motivated that they love to work with.
]
More Questions: |