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I admit my dad is mentally abusive
and borderline psychotic to the point where he pulled a gun on me just for not agreeing with him, but it's not my parents, there divorced and I live with my mom who for this very reason I asked her to stop telling people about my business because all they do is preach fear and negativity and every time they do I end up getting worse so because I asked them NOT to do that and to just let me handle it my own way cause I need to shut down sometimes so I don't get overwhelmed instead they assumed my room was demonic and that I'm somehow possessed (this was my aunt my brother and his wife) and I have fribromyalgia so I was telling them to get off me and that they were hurting me and they kept pushing and forcing me down forcefully ripped my bracelet off my arm kept yanking at my hair because they thought I was being exorcised and on top of that I had a migraine headache and there screaming and yelling at me about the devil and crap and all I could do was lay there and cry because they were hurting so much out of what they call "love" which I find ridiculous because they've been looking for a reason to do that ever since I told them I wasn't a Christian anymore back when I was 17, telling me I'm going to hell or calling me an atheist and I'm like even if I was an atheist that wouldn't mean I'd be going to hell because a god of love and wisdom wouldn't be teaching you to fear him and stars and rock band posters (just because they don't like the music I listen to) because it's their right to believe what they want and in the end when they die if anything they would just be pleasantly surprised to know that they don't just turn to dust (I believe in karma and reincarnation but even then they have the free will to come back and forth as they please)so there's no harm in there choice to or not to believe because there loved and well off either way. My mom thinks I'm resisting God and I'm like no I'm not I'm resisting your idea of what god is because he sounds like a petty selfish person not a loving one, and yet somehow I'm the one that's wrong for choosing love over fear. I try to usually stay quiet (I'm an aquarius so idk if you know anything about us but when we get mad its hard to get us there but once you do it gets ugly) and just let it go but now there not only bringing it into my room but think they have the right to do all that. And how convenient that they just also happen to find my rare lady liberty gold dollar (a gift from a friend) and now its missing (they (my bro and his wife) have a long history of stealing things from us and me, or having their friends do it)I have to take my things down and hide them whenever they come over because apparently I don't have the right to choose what goes in my room (according to them) and I have to do things their way (which also as an aquarius just pisses me off that much more because we hate when people try to control us or tell us what to do) Then to add insult to injury they tell me to replace my "devil posters" and masks and decorative skulls (that have roses and a lion on them and a mad hatter one I hid them all and a crystal skull) with Disney posters. I was like are you effing serious do you even realize what a moron you are to take my things that have nothing to do with demons and replace it with Disney items that subliminally advertise sex in all there movies to little children and I'm 24 years old. Are you joking? But of course I'M the one that has to let it go. My mom said she didn't know they were going to do that and she wasn't even in the room most of the time and that I have every right to be mad and feel violated and she'd do her best to replace the things they took and broke and tore most of which are irreplaceable because they either don't sell them anymore, or you have to drive hours to repurchase most of them because you can't get it online. I'm just one comment away from pressing charges on them at this point because they are just taking it waaaay to far. Then they told my mom that I wrote BAAL on a peace of paper and I'm like please tell me how I did that while you who are over 275 pounds and 6 "2 and I'm 5'2 and your wife who is about the same his him and my aunt (I got the short gene) are all forcing and pinning me down when one I don't have a pen (because they lost them when they were "cleansing" my room or paper to write on? And where is this piece of paper? There wasn't one. I was trying to cover my years the whole time because they were being loud and I had a migraine headache so they were forcing my wrists and arms down where I already have a lot of pain while I'm telling them that there hurting me and just asking to be left alone and there like NO that's satan talking and I'm like if you think God is telling you to do this then you serve a brutal ignorant asshole and I don't believe in an intolerant being, being a source of love, that's ridiculous. I NEVER get mad the one time I did blow up it was because someone did something to hurt someone I cared about and it got ugly. The first time I just got irritated was when my brother was trying to twist my leg and I kept telling him he was hurting me and to let me go but he was trying to break it so I had to kick him off of me with my other leg cause he wouldn't stop and he ended up in hospital with a dent in his chest and I'M the one who gets in trouble (by my dad) for defending myself. But this time I got mad and I hate feeling powerless but 3 against one while I'm sick and can barely walk? Are you effing kidding me, I try so hard not to lose my cool I really do but they went to far and I'm ready to thro caution to the wind at this point. If I have to live like this screw that if my mom wants to take it from them that's on her but I'm not gonna sit around and do nothing forever to people who are constantly and most of the time purposefully antagonizing me.
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So you live with Mom in her home. That means the Aunt and Bro and sis in law were trespassing. While your mom may have invited them into the house since they are family, your room is your private area.
I have two daughter's who are Aquarians and well aware of the personality traits of that sign. So, if you don't do something proactive about it now, even after the event, there'll come a time when things get worse in how they treat you and how you react.
My impression from what you said about your dad, just growing up with someone like that is enough to have brought about lots of your medical issues. It's enough to mess with the minds and emotions of any other siblings growing up, even if they never were on the receiving end of his wrath. I should know. My ex was verbally abusive, only directed at me not the 3 daughters but now that they are adults and on their own, I can see how it affected their ability to choose good guys and one won't date at all. Your brother may have been messed up tremendously mentally to be acting like that. It is a sad thing, but he must as an adult realize he has a problem and choose to go for counseling.
I thought of something, do you give mom any money to help, kind of like rent? What I am thinking is that is would be a nice thing to warn mom that you are going to file a report with the police. It may be her house and she may not support the idea. But you have an extra point going for you as a 'renter'. If a renter in an apt complex has a police issue, you certainly don't need the owners permission to call the police. Your mom is divorced from your Dad for a reason, threatening behavior, abuse and violence being a few. Your aunt ,bro and sis in law are doing exactly the same things. Since they laid hands on you as they did, you can file a restraining order against them but there must be a police report to do that.
The report is VITAL to taking care of any future issues with the 3. Here's why. If they repeat this type of treatment with you...and they will...you can count on it until they hear words of repentance from your lips and see you doing as they say and attending church 2 or 3 times a week, they will assume it their responsibility to beat the devil out of you in their misguided ways.
When it happens again, you will need to have a previous report on file with the police in order for the police to take stronger action with them. At that point, they will have a police record for assault and battery, destruction of someones personal property and what ever else the police see that applies.
What I am going to tell you is of my years of first choosing to attend church as a teen, parents didn't go. In looking back at all the years of being involved in church I can now say that Christians, are the most misguided, two faced, haunted-as in seeing ghosts and experiencing spirit phenomena, the most fearful not just of hell but having lots of crazy unjustified fears, quick to anger, narrow minded, neurotic, blindly believing, not thinking for oneself, type of people out there. Since meeting the so-called unchurched the christians speak of, half of them are actually very spiritual and the reason they don't attend a church is that they see how false and unstable the beliefs are. I have found not just in those who call themselves, spiritual, but earth based religions such as Druids and wiccans, are so loving, accepting of everyone, not matter what you believe, more willing to lend a helping hand and actually treat strangers as the sisters and brothers of the same creator that they are. They have more success in prayers, or as some call their focused intents, or even spell work. They do not believe in Satan or hell and do not live in fear. Many more so called Pagans are operating in their gifts, which God gave us all, psychic gifts like claire-voyance, claire-audience, clair-sentience than among christians because they believe it of the devil. I was told not to go to an acupuncturist because they were of the devil! I was flabbergasted by that and many other things I was told to do to fall into line. I pretended but didnt go along with and eventually, the Holy Spirit who had been personally working with me one on one to gain implicit trust in Her, began to steer me out of the church. Yes, I said Her, Holy Spirit as far as I am concerned is the Goddess, or female representation of God as in Lord and Lady, God and Goddess, or according to the Urantia book, Jesus and his partner, the Creative Spirit which is refered to as Female. Where Jesus might be like the Architect who came up with the plans, the actual creation of everything fell to the Creative, or Holy Spirit, Goddess. It is a more solid belief than any I've come to before. If we are made in God's image, then mortal females are the representation of the Goddess while males are the representation of God. It is a team, teamwork, males do not dominate as they tend to do in any Christians churches yet and in the world. Good to see you are on the right path spiritually. Now, love yourself enough to do what you must to protect yourself in the future. As I said, it will not stop. the only way to stop them is by the law. What they did is wrong. Even if Mom doesnt want a scene, you have to explain why you are doing it and just do it. Ask your guides to show you confirmation of what you should do. If there are others in your area who believe as you do besides the twin, get a group of such people praying for protection and placing protective energy fields around you and your room.
Blessings.
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