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Mind Float
May be long, I apologize.
Lately, I seem to be in quite a funk with myself. I am 29 years old whom is hard of hearing and suffers both anxiety and severe depression. I am introverted and have a hard time keeping friends.
I have a tendency, When people attempt to get to know me personally or even try to get close to me. I find ways to push them away or I simply shut them out without a valid reason. I am married, I love my husband and he may be the only few in my life whom I couldn't spend enough time with. I am close to my mother, semi close to my step father and my father and step mother are almost like strangers from time to time. I have siblings, two sisters to be exact. I am not nor was ever close with either one of them. My Aunts and Uncles I don't talk too nor my cousins. I am almost completely limited to who is in my life.
Sometimes I truly believe my happiness is with acquaintances rather then actually having friends. I find myself to be happy with friends for a very short period of time before I become overwhelmed and miserable. I don't quite understand this, I have no valid explanations.
I am a smart person but rather very awkward around people or outside of my comfort zone. I am not one to spark a conversation, I have trouble making eye contact and I often come off as rude when I by all means do not intend to be. I've suspected I possibly have Aspergers but I again, Stuck in the funk.
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Don't continue to wonder, go have a talk with your doctor and they can refer you to a specialist for testing. If it's nothing on the autism spectrum, then it may be nothing more than your personality type is happiest being a loner. Even loners have one or two people really special to them and are happiest just dealing with an acquaintance.
Although I has no problems being being chatty and can enjoy people a lot, i tend to prefer a small circle of people close to me, husband, daughters, sister and do not go much for friends but then I don't have the other issues as you stated.
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What you are describing certainly does have some of the markers of an autism spectrum disorder such as Aspergers. You need to see a doctor who is trained to identify these disorders and get a formal diagnosis. At that point they should also be able to treat your anxiety and depression as well. Please don't try to handle this on your own. These are issues that do require the help of a professional. I think your quality of life could be greatly improved if you get a correct diagnosis and proper medication. If you have not already done so I would suggest seeing specialist for your hearing problem as well.These are all issues that can be greatly improved if you get the right treatment. Do some research on doctors in your area who specialize in these fields and get yourself taken care of! You deserve it!Best of luck to you!
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