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Miss him
I have a teacher at college that I've become very close with academically. We have spent a lot of time working together. In the past year I've become smitten by him. I don't always know whether I love him as a father figure or a friend or sexually. It changes. Sometimes I feel like no man will ever be able to understand or accept me like he does. It's always made me feel really sad that our relationship doesn't span beyond school things. He has a family and everything and obviously it's unprofessional to hang out with students outside school and it's not what I want because I care deeply about my career and that's what I'm studying with him for after all. It's something that would never happen. But when I'm alone, especially when I'm home from school (I'm graduated now), I revert to my mind and think about him a lot. I have dreams about him and then wake up thinking about him and sad for the whole day. Today I am particularly sad and missing him(and on top of that my nagging mother won't leave me alone on my day off). I just need to shake this off and stop thinking about him and school and the fact that I'm not going back, but it's so hard. I could use some advice or words or encouragement.
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If you are college age, its a perfect time to be taking inventory of qualities that you like and admire in men. You've been lucky enough to be able to see some things in him that you like. So many never put two and two together. But you are aware of how some things about him are catching your attention in a good way. I can't say whether there is something about him that you find sexually attracting. Unless you never grew up with a father, I'm more inclined to think its not as a father figure that you see him either, just a mature man.
Until you find the right man to marry you will come across other guys too who catch your attention in a good way. Rather than lamenting that they aren't available... start your list of what you are looking for in a man. Also have a list of what you are wanting to avoid. On your list title one column Needs and one column Wants.
Needs are a must have, something that would be a deal breaker if he didn't have it such as lets say you want to have kids. He came from a family with 8 kids and he's adamant about not having any of his own cus he's had his fill growing up. That would be a deal breaker. A want is like icing and decorations on the cake. Not a deal breaker for you but you're okay if its missing, such as you love dancing and would like a guy who enjoys dancing or willing to learn but if he doesn't/wont, its still okay with you.
So if you decide to look at the teacher as one person God put in your path to help you form an idea of what you are looking for in a guy, it'll be easier to avoid or at least spend minimal time with a guy until he shows his true colors, and to recognize the qualities you are looking for. If someone has 2 out of 10 must haves, don't consider him too seriously and settle for less. Keep looking...I did my 2nd time around and found a man who met all my Needs and about 1/2 of my Wants. I'm married to him now. Good luck dear.
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