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I wanna die.
I am from Nepal a 20 years girl.My bf says me that I am characterless.He fought with me and we broke up.I haven't done anything like characterless.He used vulgur words and bit me hardly.I still love him.I can't live without him.I wanna die Days are very difficult to live.Nights are diffucult to dream..What should I do?I am completely broken.
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Don't let his words affect you because they are just words they can be empty.Get over him he isn't worthy for a girl like you.
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There may be a cultural angle here. Let us look at it from the point of humanity. You are NOT defined by your boyfriend. His opinion of you is not worth anything and has no real power over you. You DO NOT need his permission or approval to exist and be happy. You are a unique individual. Valuable. You have a place in the world. You CAN and WILL live without him, or anybody else. You lived many years without even knowing he existed. How much are you going to let somebody else affect YOUR LIFE? Nobody can emotionally hurt or humiliate you unless YOU allow them to. Always remember that.
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Dear "I want to die.",
Please don't say that you want to die. I have taken life for granted so many times, but let me tell you; people take breathing for granted until they can't do it anymore. Please don't even joke or over-exaggerate about wanting to die.
Our lives are too precious to be taken from us by what stupid people say or do. And yes, I am calling your boyfriend stupid. That dirt bag needs to learn how to speak to women... and not bite them!(what? was he really biting you?!, or do you mean beating you?)
YOU ARE NOT "CHARACTER-LESS". But you really need to stop depending on other people and start being self-reliant. And it is normal to feel like you are "completely broken" after a bad break-up, but here is something that might help: write down a list of all of the things that he has done that negatively impacted your life. This will help you realize that he did more harm than good, and that your break-up was a good thing.
You will realize that abusive relationship breakups are a good thing.
You CAN AND WILL live without your disgusting vomit of a boyfriend and I hope that you learn that you should stay away from abusive boyfriends. Who knows what else he could have done to harm you.
Please, stay away from him because the pain WILL heal and he is obviously abusive (physically and emotionally). Wasting you life having suicidal thoughts or depression because of some stupid guy is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
Be without a boyfriend for a while please. You need to learn how to STOP DEPENDING ON OTHER PEOPLE and learn how to carry YOUR life out on YOUR own. Please don't be that weak girl that needs a man by her side to live. You're too awesome for that. ^-^
When you do get another boyfriend, make sure that he is a gentleman and does not hurt you.
Anyway, good luck getting over your ex-boyfriend (and please NEVER GET BACK TOGETHER WITH HIM OR SOMEONE ELSE LIKE HIM.)
-talldivaofbeverlyhillz
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First, lets make sure you and I understand what it means to be character-less according to the dictionary. There is no word found listed as "character-less".
The dictionary had the word 'Character' described only so to be without a character would then be the opposite of anything listed under Character.
Here is the dictionary definition of character:
Character is the combination of qualities or features that distinguishes one person, group, or thing from another. Moral or ethical strength.
A description of a person's attributes, traits, or abilities. Having character can refer to a distinguishing feature or attribute.
So as you can see, if the word he used was "characterless", he would be wrong. The reason it's difficult to find the word written anywhere is because there is no way a living person can not have their own personal character. If a person has a soul, they have a character. That character begins to develop from the moment we are born. Perhaps the bf meant to say you are 'dead'. A dead person no longer has a character. We are only left with memories of a dead persons character, and what it was like.
He may be trying to say that to him, you are no better than a dead person, that there is nothing about you that interests him, that he has no care about you or feelings for you.
It's not that something is wrong with you. We should never have to change who we are to be 'perfect' for someone else because then we would no longer be ourselves. And someone who is complaining or finding fault with you in the beginning will continue to find fault no matter how many changes you make in yourself. I know this because at age 20, I married a man who did this to me. I kept changing and doing exactly as he asked. Once I did, he complained that he still didn't like me and could not provide logical reasons why. There was truly no way to make him happy or satisfied because something was wrong inside of him. It turns out in his case, it was a type of mental illness. Some people just choose to be hurtful to others because they are hurt inside from something or someone in their past. And they want to lash out and hurt and dump their frustrations, they need an outlet and so they hurt the person closest to them at the time rather than focus that hurt in retaliation at the person who caused them hurt. A practice I don't recommend, but I am just saying that your bf may or may not have not realized he was hurting you.
I believe it is for the best that you broke up. When you begin to give your love to someone, even if they treat you poorly in return and do not treat you as if they love you, it still hurts your heart to be treated that way and rejected. That hurt is very real and can make you feel like there is no reason to live. However, that would mean 'He wins' and you lose if you do decide to end your life. As long as we are living, we have a chance to improve on our life and learn and grow. Relationships fall under the same standard: We can always learn and grow and improve on relationships. That means certain relationships must end. This would be a relationship that doesnt work, because one person isn't putting their full effort and time into it, or one where both individuals are way too different from each other, or they are not best friends to begin with or there is a lack of "chemistry", that mysterious unseen quality that brings great feeling of desire for the other, or a lack of both wanting to put the other first in their lives, etc.
Dating is actually a process we go through with many relationships. The goal is not to make your 1st or 2nd dating relationship end up a life long healthy marriage but to find what you do like in a guys character and what qualities you don't like and then avoid the bad qualities in the next one and look for more good qualities and learn with each step and each new relationship. tHis means your heart will get hurt but that is part of what can not be avoided in this process of finding the person who will become your love and your mate.
You may feel you cant live without him but in reality, we all can go on. It's only a matter of choice, to continue to live or not. What if a loved one dies in an accident. You cannot bring them back from the dead. I had to decide to continue to live when I first lost my mom and later my dad. I was the one to decide to leave an abusive 1st husband. If I had decided to end my life because of a 1st husband who treated me worse than an animal, then I would never have met the wonderful man i now have as my 2nd husband. As different from the 1st one as day and night and a hundred times improvement. Give yourself time to get over the hurt and then venture out to meet a better guy the next time around.
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