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is it weird
is it weird I am not feeling too bad and actually kind of "Excited" Not in a malicious type of way but more in a teasing type of way. Not because I hate her or dislike her. On the contrary I had a good relationship with her but I definitely find it kind of funny that my mom is in the punishment situation now and is taking orders from others and it might give her a different perspective on certain things. Also because I know she is coming back in six months and is not going away from forever or for years and years. I guess it is kind of childish to think that way but I cannot really help it lol . I actually told my dad some of these things and he said it was OK and he was glad I was instead not acting hysterical about it and even joked back "maybe you;re mom will understand how it feels when she punishes you, maybe when she comes back things might be different". People might look at it and think we hate her but really it is just a different way of dealing with it.
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I will share this bit. All of our emotions and feelings are controlled by our subconscious mind.
Take a really sad part in a movie, like for me, a mother whose child died. My awake or conscious mind knows its just a movie and actors and some kid didnt really die and it wasn't my kid. But my subconscious mind silently taking in the input from the movie, a book or some life event i am going through will be what has a reaction to the sad part in a movie and I will cry. On the other hand, if I have experienced something that I am confused about, the subconscious will reserve a response of some emotional kind til later or maybe never, not wanting to feel vulnerable which is a possibility in your case.
So long story short, yes it's just as normal to not feel much of anything about mom being in jail as it is to be very angry, sad and feeling betrayed. I think it boils down to this thought, "The adult who is supposed to be the example of good mature, adult decisions, did not make a good decision." So look at it this way, when a little kid does something wrong and the punishment is no dessert, or TV that night or early to bed, it doesn't mean the parent stopped loving you. Our creator is like the parent over us. He gives us a free will to make choices. Some we make are good. All of us make some bad ones too. Does he love us any less? no but He hopes we will have learned by our lessons, the same like a low grade on a test at school. It's not the worst thing, it mean's you didn't understand well enough to get a passing grade. You're not a failure. We haven't failed until we are dead. Before that, we have a lot of time to learn from our mistakes, not matter what age we age. I am still learning some little things here and there. What is sad I think is for God to watch us choose to do something wrong over and over when he knows that in our hearts we know better but we choose the wrong way. that must hurt his heart. I think it also hurts the hearts of family members who stand by totally helpless when a loved one choose the wrong path over and over. Right now it was just the one mistake. Mom deserves a chance to prove to everyone she can do better now when she gets out. If this was not part of how she acted all the time and very out of character, then very likely there'll be no repeat of such mistakes with her.
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