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coming out/how to be sure
here is my story.im a 13 year old female and have had an obvious attraction for women since a very young age. I would deny it every day and say this cannot be happening your straight you like men.I fell into a habit of self destruction. I had 1 crush on a guy, but I was 8 my parents were fighting and I only liked him because he was girly.Last summer a friend who was also questioning her sexuality came out to me at a fair. I talked to her recently and she says shes straight again.At that moment I realized that maybe I am as well.I always would fantasize about women,men almost never.I have come out to a very few close people including my mother who is very accepting and understanding and a few very close friends.they understand,I live in a tight homophobic racist community and have been made fun of for being a bit if a tomboy and holding hands and even hugging and kissing my 2 best female friends good-bye.my dad is one of those guys who never accepts anything like this.im afraid im in a phase, but am sure i'm not.comments?i have anxiety as well. I have had a crush on a girl for he longest time she's straight and knows I like her its complicated she acts like she likes me all the time and says stuff like o shes my half gf, I'm so lost.im a cutter and bruiser and lost.im made fun of constantly and need support and an answer to my questions in my heart about who I like in that way.thank you and I apologize for thwe length.
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First, you seem really nice and don't need to apologize for the length. Heres a little tape about a girl with the same problem ignore the things like the cutting videos around it [Link](Mouse over link to see full location). You shouldn't resort to cutting yourself. If it's blatantly obvious you like this girl and she knows it leave it and if she wants you she'll come and get you, she does know where you are after all. My friend is bisexual and I helped her through it and she is now in a happy relationship though , I haven't spoken to her in a while. Don't worry about opening out to you're Dad he's your Dad he'll learn to except it because you're his daughter. If you have liked women for ages but also liked a man because he was girly then you're a lesbian. You're family and neighborhood will learn to except who you are and what/who you like if you come to find yourself to love a man count yourself as a bisexual although leave it a couple of years as you say, it might just be a phase as I know people who thought they were and they weren't and they then grew out of it.
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you seem like a very nice girl andd you dont need to cut u should watch the video below it may change your life.. it change mine sure i may be a straight girl but i will always understand other peoples feelings just copy an paste the like below into your search browser i really hope this changes your mind and makes you feel better! [Link](Mouse over link to see full location)
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When I was your age I was a cutter too.. I couldn't handle stress and didn't know what else to do.. But the way I over come it was accepting me for who I am, it wasn't my sexuality that bothered me it was my race.. But I now realise the ones that truly love and support me will still be there at the end of it all.. I still have the cutting urge dot get me wrong, but I manage to control it by reminding myself that no one will love and accept me if I don't love and accept myself... If you are a lesbian (which sounds like the most likely outcome) then this is not a problem, it does not make you any lesser of a person, not at all. Your dad may be the "judgmental" type but never-the-less he loves you, it may take some adjusting to but he will deal with it, he has no choice, be happy with who you are, embrace it, you sound like a lovely young lady with your whole life ahead of you.. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are, there is no shame. They may laugh because you're different.. But you will laugh because they are mentally or even physically ugly!..:) x
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It may be that you like only girls. Time will tell. I have known some adult women who were bi sexual. This doesnt mean that they could relate to many men sexually as well as women. They were married and only could tolerate their husband as a man and they went after women because that was the greater draw.
I am sorry to hear that you grow up in an area that your community is not open minded. Until you are of age to make a move to a more tolerant area, you may need to fake a relationship with a guy to take the pressure off. You mentioned the girly guy in your past. Perhaps you can find online teen gay groups for your area. Find a guy who is very much gay who would pose as your boyfriend while he has his male crushes in secret and you , your female crushes in secret. It would help him out too in taking the focus off of him as being odd or bad. I am sorry I can not think of anything else. This is a coping mechanism used by many Pagan/Wiccan folk who live in the Bible belt and have to pretend in public to be church goers and actually attend at times when invited so they appear to fit in. It's what you have to do to have some peace of mind.
Blessings to you dear
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